It was terrible, BOOOOO!!! ....AHAHAHA
Setting::: July 28th, 2004 - 11:28 pm
Feeling::: Hysterical
Hearing::: nothing
AHAHAHAHA
...its 11:26 at night (HAHA.. dude! I'm such a pansy!) and I'm deathly sick (HAHAHA, You should see how terrible I look!). I feel .... AHAHAHAHHA... ONE NUT!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Pervy Hobbit fanciers...GO!!!
Setting::: July 19th, 2004 - 11:58 pm (alright, not its 11:02 pm)
Feeling::: Sleepy and weak
Hearing::: I Can't Wait and The Remedy
Do you mind if I dance a bit? Because life is fantastic.
"Stop looking at porn and do some work!" - Snape
Setting::: July 17th, 2004 - 6:24 pm (alright, not its 11:02 pm)
Feeling::: Sleepy and weak
Hearing::: (*laughs*) Go Lunar!
I'd like to take a moment to condemn geocities to hell for deleting my post while I was in the midst of writing it. *punches it in the face* ARGH! SO MEAN! *cries in a corner all by herself*
Anyways, I'm back, and I feel more alive than ever. Vacation stole me right out of reality and presented me with a fantasy world to induldge myself in. And I did. And it was good.
And so I'm very happy, yet feeling slightly confused. In the past week, I gained a new love and strengthend past ones. I finally was able to overcome my shyness and was allowed to be bold. Definitely a very different feeling for me.
And then there are other... confusing situations that have snuck up on me when I wasn't looking. Silly people, playing with my heart, they are.
Gya, I'll have you know, I started writing this post hours ago, got bored with it, went away, read four smut stories, caught up with fandom, and ate dinner. I hate being grounded. Theres nothing to do!
Oh yes, I did forget to mention about getting myself into a lot of trouble. But it was worth it- I had a blast. I hung out with an old friend until 2 in the morning and did the most random things. We played a bunch of old-school SNES games, watched the begining to Lunar and Wild Arms, talked, danced in a dark room with a strobe light, and while he attempted to pack, I sat on his bed and wrote a whole bunch in my journal.
Speaking of writing, I've been journaling like no other lately. It makes me feel so much better and calms me down.
Goodmorning
Setting::: July 7th, 2004 - 7:22
Feeling::: jittery
Hearing::: nothing, but I've had waaaay too much coffee this morning
leaving!
Goodmorning
Setting::: June 30th, 2004 - 8:31 am
Feeling::: very, very sleepy
Hearing::: a remix of the orginial pokemon themesong
Hopefully in one month from now I'll be in the middle of a rather long car trip to Baltimore for Otakon. I think it should be fun. And next week I leave for the caribbean to some place that starts with an A. I can't believe its going to be July 4th already- It really feels like summer is almost over.
I was thinking at work yesterday, and I realized a few things. Firstly, that i'm natrually very flakey, and secondly, I have an addiction. Yes, although it seems harmless, I am very much addicted to the internet. I wake up and sit infront of the computer, and spend my entire day here, only to get up for work. I've been reading novel-length fiction online a lot lately, and even if I have nothing better to do, I can't seem to pull myself away. Especially because I have one of my best friends online.
Speaking of which, last night soupy told me a particularly violent bedtime story, but oddly enough, it made me sleepy and I fell asleep quite easily. Also last night, I sat down at the computer in an attempt to start writing. But I was flooded with IMs and well, didn't even get a chance to open word.
And one last final conclusion. "Everything is right in the world," I just need to calm down and be happy with the friendships I currently have- they don't need to be anything more. Enjoy the rest of you day everyone.
Holy...
Setting::: June 27th, 2004 - 6:38 am
Feeling::: scared
Hearing::: nothing
Holy shit, I woke up screaming..AND HOLY FUCK!!!!! THERES ONE ON THE DESK!!!!!!!! SOMEONE GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"You won't see me wasting the best thing I've ever had."
Setting::: June 25th, 2004 - 12:09 pm
Feeling::: my cheek tingles
Hearing::: Dashboard - Vindicated
I am selfish. I am flawed. I am free.
I am learning to listen to the soul, from the advice of Rodney. He has become my unsuspecting muse, an inspiration, a guide. Socrates? I don't know. Tyler still hasn't called. I'm really worried.
Its all connected, it really is. Ironic, how life has us all linked to the same chain. I've become fascinated with Alchemy.
;_; I don't want all of my friends to go to England...
Setting::: June 8th, 2004 - 2:14 pm
Feeling::: really thirsty
Hearing::: HP PoA Soundtrack... still <_<
I've been -extremely- psychic lately. Two examples within the past two days: I -knew- I was going to get pulled over when I left the theater and I -knew I would see Jake when I went out. I swear, its getting creepy.
On another note, All of my guy friends have successfully become fangirls. I'm so proud XD
I never realized it before.. (don't mind this post)
Setting::: June 5th, 2004 - 10:28 pm
Feeling::: Like Keika and Depressed!Mina are at war
Hearing::: Lumos - HP PoA Soundtrack...
Gya, I'm such a lucky son of a bitch and I hate it. Its not fair, its impossibly selfish, and it makes me sad.
But theres nothing I can do now. I'll just be grateful.
Anyways, movin on to the happiness... I saw Harry Potter for the 4th time today with Patrick... because his friends abandoned him so of course I offered to go. ^_^
and in even better news... I GOT SOUPY INTO HARRY POTTER!!! GO ME!! Bunny call me and saw OMG PANCAKESE!!!!1!1!! ....yes.
And also I'd like to note. Since when did Smokey Robinson and Leonard Nimoy go to Hogwarts?
"Go Severus!"
Setting::: June 5th, 2004 - 1:23 am
Feeling::: So very tired but so very happy
Hearing::: Boa - Duvet
Alfonso Cuaron, you are my hero.
Muah hah hah. Bunny and I saw Harry Potter and the Prizoner of Azkaban THREE TIMES today. God I love it. First was the Midnight showing, which was -sooo- much fun, then the afternoon showing, then the 10 at night showing. Today was happiest day number two in life. Everyone was amazing, the movie was amazing, hell, even the -credits- were amazing. My favorite part was definitely the Draco/Harry origami crane note... *giggles evily.* And There part where all the 3rd year boys were in their PJs making the animal noises... Rupert + Lion noises = yummy. *swoons* hahaha
Hehe, and it was filled with lots of obvious sexual tension too... XD. It made me happy. During our third time seeing it, Bunny and I sat huddled together and made the funniest comments throughout the whole movie. We made sure the characters spoke what was really on their minds. X3
oh, and everyone needs to go HERE: http://www.livejournal.com/users/mistful/59607.html#cutid3 for a freaking hilarious parody of The Prizoner of Azkaban. She does explain thing soo well.. hehehe
Oh, and finally, Pink-Jacket!Hermione is a BEAST. And now, from the words of Mistful *points to the link above*....
RON: I am being kidnapped by a dog! Harry don't let me go through the rabbithole!
HARRY: He's gone! We're doomed!
HERMIONE: Nah, I can get us past the Whomping Willow. I kept forgetting to mention that I'm a weight-lifting athlete.
HARRY: So all that time in the library?
HERMIONE: Secret gym underneath aisle 12. Also, my pink jacket? Is magic.
HARRY:Wicked.
Midvalley wants some
Setting::: June 2nd, 2004 - 4:34 pm
Feeling::: In between dead tired and giddy
Hearing::: Lost Prophets - Last Train Home
About once a year I go to some sort of amusement park in my sleep. I finally got to go again today. This time, it was a tall water park that just kind of existed in the sky. It was one big group competition and we were trying to go around and up the water slide the fastest. Oh it was fun. Especially because it was Harry Potter style- and haha, of course us Slytherins won. Then, at the end, we were taken to the top this evil looking water slide and there were three wicked looking water slides to choose from. Sadly, I became concious right as I was about to go down one of them, so I ended up just keeping my eyes closed and immagining what would have happened instead. I had fun.
So yeah, that was also an indirect way of me telling everyone that I finally got some sleep for the first time since sunday.
'Malfoy, you blastard.'
Setting::: June 1st, 2004 - 12:11 am
Feeling::: Jittery
Hearing::: Garbage - Cup of Coffee
It probably wasn't a good idea to down that whole cup of coffee just now. I can feel my stomach having a party inside me >_o. I hope my kidneys are invited- they're pretty cool, once you get to know them.
Die exams, Die.
Setting::: May 30th, 2004 - 5:35 pm
Feeling::: my tummy huuurrts @_@
Hearing::: Cube Juice - Sea Wonder
God, yesterday was so amazing. Its been a while since I've had that much fun, and just let completely loose. I had courtney over and we went to see Tylers band play. On the way there, I introduced courtney to J-Rock (and she liked it!!!!!!!!). And then we walked in and another band was still playing, so we waited for them to finish and I emerged from the shadows of the corner we were hiding in and said hi to Tyler. I was a little nervous because I knew his girlfriend would be there, but more on that later. Anyways, he seemed happy to see me, so a big wave of relief washed over me and I was finally able to relax. Then his band came on, and they were... amazing. They improved so much, and their songs were so much fun.. I couldn't stop smiling! It was packed though, and the crowd was hyper. but I still loved it. Then they introduced their next song, and I recognized it as my favorite! And then... the best part came...
Now don't get me wrong, seeing as how it IS the day after and I have the memory of a goldfish, the phrasing and such might be a bit off. but anyways...
Tyler told the crowd that the next song was one of their oldest.... and then... that their oldest fan was in the audience as well, and that that person has been with them since it was just him and Eric in the band. Then He said my name into the mic and thanked me and told everyone to say hi!! My cheeks were bright red, I'm sure, as the whole freaking crowd (not that many people, but still enough to crowd the room and the hallway) turned to me and cheered and waved and smiled. That moment, I was just so happy, it was wonderful. I sang along with the song and went crazy, and had the time of my life. Then they played the next song, which was soooo much fun. The band had the audience split down the center and stand on each side.. and then the music got crazy, we all were to run at eachother and fight for dominance XD. God it was fun! I've been in the pit before, but I've never actually moshed! Gya, it was so much fun! Then for the last two songs I went psycho and did whatever made my little heart happiest. I jumped around so much~!! XD. (pssst.. and tyler looked really really hott too!! but he doesn't need to know that X3)
And then, I was feeling super happy, and so I decided I would introduce myself to his new girlfriend. And I did XD. And she was nice! And pretty.. AND TALL! *points to the sky* thats how tall she was. Model-riffic, I say. She was really into the songs and went crazy too, so I was glad! I really hoped his girlfriend wouldn't be just hanging around in the back and nodding her head. ^_^ I'm glad he has her.
And then courtney and I came home, jumped in the pool with our clothes on, and then just soaked and talked about life and the future for a good hour. It was a great bonding time X3. Then we fell asleep while watching Anastasia. Then this morning we played outside for a while and ended up laying in the grass/cement and talking about random life things. Joyous!
So I concluded todays journal entry by saying THANK YOU COURTNEY FOR COMMING WITH ME!!! And also, TYLER, your fucking amazing. And crazy. I'm sooo glad I met someone like you!
Second. Best. Concert. Experience. In. Lifetime!! (second only to BLOOD!! ... >_> its impossible to beat the J-rock. They are on a whole nother level of their own)
Yum yums
Setting::: May 29th, 2004 - 6:50 pm
Feeling::: my tummy huuurrts @_@
Hearing::: Nuffin
Well, I've decided that there is no doubt in my mind that Sirius and Remus are together. Thats just the way it is. No questions asked. It doesn't even have to be stated in the books, its just there. And it isn't just the wish of my inner fangirl. Thats just how it.
And also, I'd like you all to look at the J-rock picture of the day. If any of you noticed, it changes every few days, and cand be found right under my tagboard. Its the 100x100 sized pic of a boy. And I would just like to comment that I love he boy who is featured today. Hes cute. Yes, I did just say that freakishly gothy boy is cute. *hugs him* I wonder who he is... And his clothes kind of remind me of Mirokus. Kind of.
Underwater Light, and my new hero, Maya.
Setting::: May 29th, 2004 - 4:43 pm
Feeling::: MEH! HURRAH
Hearing::: Story of A Girl - Nine Days
I'm in love with Slytherin. I'm in love with Slytherin! I love Pansy, I love Crabbe and Goyle, I love Blaise, and I love Narcissa. And most of all, I love Draco. Oh how I love Draco. They are all so strong, I can't help but love them. .....I read the best story in my entire life last night and today. Its called Underwater Light, by Maya.. and I can't even begin to describe how truely amazing it is.
Tonight I have to go to Tylers to see his band play, hopefully courtney will come with me. I know Bunny doesn't want to go, so I won't force her. It feels like its still only 10 in the morning. Thats what I get for sleeping in till 1:00. I need to study for exams.
Yesterday was the best last day of school ever. I have a double period of painting, which starts at 3rd period. We decided to have a pizza DDR party, and so I brought in the DDR and we hooked it up in the art room an played, and played and played. We played for two periods straight. Then decided to skip lunch and continue to play. We put up a sign outside the door which invited any passerby in to join us. They did. At one point, we had two different classed smooshed into the art room, watching, laughing, and playing. I loved it. We ended up playing until afterschool. I skipped math (they told the teacher I was covered in paint) and physics to play. There were so many random kids playing, all day long, It just made me so happy. Only a few people were reluctant to play *coughbunnycough* because they were afraid of being embarrassed. But no one really cared. It was all fun. And I even heard people talking about it in the halls n stuff too. *glee* The game kept running for six periods straight, and a little bit more afterschool.
Anyways, I hope you all read underwater light. Its pg-13, and as absolutely surprising as this may seem, its not smutty in the least bit. Its amazing, and teaches about life. I'm alive, and I'm going to keep on living passionately because of it.
Peanut butter and crack
Setting::: May 26th, 2004 - 9:53 pm
Feeling::: yippee in a calm sort of way
Hearing::: BoA - Duvet (Cyberia Remix)
Hehe, I bet people today thought I had a Cousin Complex or something, but I couldn't help it! I was just so excited! Today he came and shadowed at my school because he'll be transfering in next year, and I just couldn't stop talking about him to everyone! I can't wait, I think next year will be a blast! I really hope we have some of the same classes, but most likely not. Ah well. And I ended up getting to talk to Bill a lot because of it, so that made me happy as well.
Bunny was upset towards the end of the day, and I didn't know how I could cheer her up. So I ended up singing to her some cheesy twenties love song that was on the radio. SUCESS!!! she smiled! X3 so all ended well. Then we sang the whole way home.. >_> and I almost got us killed... again... <_< well, that happens everyday o_<. I probably shouldn't be posting that here though. Hehe.
The time has come to put aside the mask I have chosen to wear. I'm finished running away.
Setting::: May 25th, 2004 - 9:53 pm
Feeling::: peaceful and determined
Hearing::: Kenna - Hell Bent
Everyday I'm disturbing the universe. It is in the palm of my hand. I can mold it, shape it to however I desire. I can destroy it, or rebuild it. It's up to me.
Theres nothing to be ashamed of. Theres nothing to hide. I'm doing what I want, and what makes me happy. It's that simple. But then, why are you drowning? Why are you hiding? You are not alone. You'll never be. I've stolen a bit of your universe, as you have mine. But don't withdraw. Don't try and take it back. Because I'm not going to give it back.
KYAAA!!
Setting::: May 14th, 2004 - 8:50 pm
Feeling::: GLEEFUL!!
Hearing::: Cube Juice - Sea Wonder
OH MY GOODNESS!!! I feel like I've accidentally stumbled across something wonderful!!! *tosses hearts into the air* Oh, it is so good, I can't contain my joy! Every chapter I was squealing with delight and laughing hysterically! Why is it only 25 chapters long?! I need more!! *giggles insanely*
Shoujo Magic. The name of the series is Love Monster, and its about a girl who failed highschool, but got accepted into SM Academy! and... theres... FURRIES!!!!!! wolf boys, people with wings, oh man, Its just so good, I can't even explain. Just go to shoujo magic now and download it... its in the left-hand side. *cries tears of joy*
Huaaahhh, its so hot in here..
Setting::: May 14th, 2004 - 5:14 pm
Feeling::: Indifferent still
Hearing::: Natalie Imbruglia - Torn
Well, I love Harry Potter! who knew? >_> So obviously, like all good Harry Potter fans, I went to mugglenet. com and looked at all the lovely new pictures. I had some of the strangest thoughts while looking at them, so I decided to post my three favorites. Trust me, these won't be funny to anyone else but me. Maybe ashley. probably not. Haha. *laughs to herself and continues to enjoy life*
I hate movie theaters... *grumbles*
Setting::: May 10th, 2004 - 9:42 pm
Feeling::: Indifferent
Hearing::: The Psychedelic Waltons - Wonderland -
Well, I've been thinking. And I've come to the conclusion that I have three levels of personality. Alexia, Mina, and Keke.
Alexia is kind of mellow and likes to relax and be lazy. Kind of like a cat- always content. She also likes to do a lot of journaling and inner-relfecting. The results for this quiz/generator thing was the most off out of the three, with the exception of the ribbons in the hair part. But hey, wearing bondage pants and having fangs would be kinda cool... maybe..
Mina comes out when alexia gets that warm fuzzy feeling and is generally overly cheerful. She also likes to dress eccentrically (calls what she wears her 'funky clothes') and isn't as afraid to venture out as alexia is.
Muaha, For those of you who don't know, Keika (keke for short) is my inner fangirl. She is rabidly obsessive, and violently happy. all. the. damn. time. She is my psychotic inner thoughts, and once in a while, she completly takes control of me. Its rather ironic that it says "An alternate personality, that on occasion takes on its own physical form" - because thats exactly what Keke is. Its funny, this generator thing is pretty much dead on.
Warm W-inds.
Setting::: May 6th, 2004 - 9:42 pm
Feeling::: Peaceful
Hearing::: A Drop of Colour - HYDE
Tonight was wonderful. The weather was wonderful. The warm wind reminded me of the ocean. School today was fun as well. Today was the seniors last day and thus Jeff invited Bunny, Gary, Connie and I to sit on the cafeteria floor during lunchtime and play spoons. Gary had so much fun she wet herself. I, regretably, lost first. But I won at Uno yesterday, so I guess that has to count for something.
I went to the bookstore after talking to Cath about The Chocolate War, and I came upon a book with a calender, and every day was a different proverb of Rumi. That man knew what he was talking about. I sat down and just discovered what was written in a few of the pages, and just as spimple as that, my questions and insecurities were answered. When I read Rumi, I am instantly reminded of how simple life is, and feel very at peace.
Expecto Patronum
Setting::: May 3rd, 2004 - 10 something pm
Feeling::: procrastination
Hearing::: nothing
*glee* I need to study for two major tests tommarow, so naturally, when I sat down to get my books out, I got up and went to borders instead.
I overcame my fear of calling people for a moment and picked up the phone to dial moe's number. I caught her in the middle of a movie, so she called me back 10 minutes later. I ened up spilling open about my whole mother/brother issue, and she gave me some really wonderful advice. While explaining everything, I also realized just how much I love my family. After I hung up, I ran to my dad, gave him a big hug, and told him he has been doing an excelent job as a father.
Gya, I feel soooo much better after not only writing about things, but talking about them too. Moe is such a vibrant and beautiful person, I'm going to miss her at school. ^_^ I need to stop taking my friends for granted.
And Ashley, you did nothing wrong, so don't feel bad! I'm glad you said what you did. I need to learn to do things on my own.
Another bath it will BE.
And to the skies I shout
Setting::: May 3rd, 2004 - 1:08 pm
Feeling::: a little sad, a little happy
Hearing::: The light before the land- The Delgados
Well, I've decided. I'm going to stop skirting around the names of people and how I feel about things concerning some of the people who read this. I finally realized I have nothing to be ashamed of, and I have nothing to hide anymore. Why should I? Silence is never healing.
Throughout my whole self-induced stressful day today, I was able to come to a lot of realizations.
The hardest thing I learned today was that ashley might not always be with me. She said something today that felt like a thousand daggers. I know, really, I've always been aware of how selfish I am. And I'll admit, I take her for granted. And this isn't even something big, but when she told me she might not be with me in college, I shattered. I mean, of course I've thought about it before, but I always figured in the end we'd be together. I can't even immagine not being with her. It scares me. But, if thats what she wants, then I will fully support her 170% of the way. I mean, she has to pursue her own happiness, who am I to selfishly hold her back?
The second hardest realization I came to today was something I've always known, but never wanted to admit. Jake will never like me back. There, I said it! *screams* I like Jake!!! still!! after all this time. Hah! That felt good to admit. And now that I got that off my chest, I can finally get over him. Its about damn time. Heh, and wouldn't it be ironic that today was the day he decided to read my journal again? Ah well though, Makes no difference if he knows or doesn't. Hes happy now, and dammit, that makes me happy too.
And lastly, things just work out in the end. As long as you have faith, things turn out right in the end. Now, I'm not just talking about the god sort of faith, just faith in general. As long as you keep thinking that things will (eventually) work themselves out, they will.
Go me, Mrs. Massaro accepted my service paper, and I got to see moe and tommy today. I'm really glad today went how it did.
Happy Birthday Grandma, who turns 72 today!
Setting::: May 2nd, 2004 - 1:08 pm
Feeling::: hmm
Hearing::: What I got - 311 cover of sublime
Hmm, I haven't listened to this song in forever. ^^
Just got back from Toledo, and much fun was had. We picked up morgan and Josie came along also, then went to the spaggetie(sp?!) warehouse to eat. Sweet mother of all that is holy did they have lots of food there. Morgan and I sat on one end and talked about lots about everything, and we all ended up laughing a lot. Then back at Lissa's, Josie, morgan and I jumped on Lissa's bed, then got under the covers and ended up talking for a while about ex-boyfriends, problems, and whatnot. Then I ended up reading Spilling Open out-loud to everyone. ^^;; I suck at reading, haha. Then all the kids decided to put on a dance competition- haha, it was so hilarious.
I ended up going to bed in the wee hours of the morning. Morgan and I slept together in Jacksons room, but it was so freaking cold, and there was only one thin blanket ;_; And I woke up in the middle of the night and not only was morgan gone (I think she went home >_>) but Lee was gone too!! ( I didn't realize until morning he was on the floor) TT_TT I was so lonely and cold all by myself.
Gya, whenever I come back from Lissa's I feel re-energized and back in the creative mood. *goes off to draw...er.. nevermind... writing her service paper*
OH, and I STILL haven't played earthbound again. >_< *craves it*
misADVENTURES IN THEED...remember the zombies?
Setting::: April 25th, 2004 - 2something am
Feeling::: ~_~
Hearing::: Aeris' theme song ;_; why, I don't know?
http://www.desktopgaming.com/browse.php - video game desktop wallpapers...they are the backrounds in games! They have lots of earthbound *_* hahaha.. I forgot, there was town named theed... *laughs to self, at 2 in the morning, slightly hyper still* Gah im a moron, just fucking click.
Stoot/Stooting: Verb - Failure to whistle
Setting::: April 24th, 2004 - 11:40something pm
Feeling::: Sing-tastic
Hearing::: Dante's life.... fading
New Layout time...BECAUSE.... its just a ride, its just a ride, no need to run, no need to hide, it'll take you all around, sometimes your up, sometimes your down. I want to move this layout to my LJ, and then make a new one for this site. This blog is going to be my up online journal. My LJ will be my down online journal. Makes sense in my mind.. probably not to anyone else.
So today was most amazing. Went for coffee/book shopping with Lissa, and ended up running into one of my REALLY old friends, waaay back from old trail. Sarah was ner name, and she is still so sweet! I'm going to go back tommarow to see if I can talk with her more, and if not, then just to enjoy a cup of coffee.
Anyways, it was much fun. Lissa and I talked about religion, manga, Jesus and Gravitation (haha, WHAT a combo.. and by gravitation, I don't mean the force ^-^). She bought a new cd called by an artist named Jem, who apparently, is under Dave's label, so of course she loved it. She gave me her old Demo cd of Jem's, and I can't stop listening to it! Its so happy, and so true. Its -JUST- what I needed-> a reminder of my beliefs, and what lifes simply about. I'll post lyrics later.
Came home, and all of us played outside, fought (playfully) over the hammock (lmao, I pushed everyone off and yelled, "YOU GOT SERVED!"... and then was flipped over, and got muddy). And Decided I'm going to make a table out of a tree stump thats growing in our deck (hard to explain)!
I also managed to break my sisters bow and arrow. She showed me how good of a shot she was and then was like, you try! So I took it happily, and pulled it back, and of course, it snapped in half. I slowly turned my head to look at her and she kinda gave this odd smile, then her lip quivered, and the next thing I know she burst into tears and collapsed on the spot, screaming bloody murder like I just burned down her house and she'd lost all of her possesions. Then she gets up and runs in the house, still sobbing mind you, and exclaiming something like, "I WANTED TO BE AN ARCHER WHEN I GREW UP!!! *sob* WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW?! *door slam*" Ah the mind of a fragile 10 year old tomboy. So needless to say, I cheered her up by bumming around Montrose. When shes not whining, shes a lot of fun. Haha, I'd also like to note I was in the anime section of best buy(right next to the disney section) looking for the last fruits basket dvd, and two older male workers slowly come up to me and are like, "You like anime??!" And I thought, "No, actually I was trying to find some good gay sex porn, know where that is?" ...Then after politely telling them that yes, I did like anime, then they followed me into the video game section, and were like, "You like video games too?!" I felt an urge to run away and scream, but decided against it. And the biggest 'LMAO' of them all, one of the guys told me his favorite anime was ninja scroll.
Also saw kaitlin today- she actually got me a mug that says, 'HUZZAH!'. I almost cried from happiness. And theres a cannon on the back!
And I just finished watching the last fruits basket dvd. When it ended, it was one of those moments where you have to roll in a little ball and squeal with joy, and then exclaim in a bad asian-woman accent: OH SO GOOD! (I'm sure bunny knows what i'm talking about).
Nakey Time!
Setting::: April 24th, 2004 - 10:58 am
Feeling::: In need of coffee
Hearing::: santas speakers... broken
I need some coffee. New layout. Considering making it smaller. New computer comming in a few days... 160 GB will be at my disposal. ^_^ Will write more later.
I'm still in love with Lee-Kun.
New Layout
Setting::: April 23rd, 2004 - 5:28 pm
Feeling::: Hungry with a headache
Hearing::: Adolf - Pierrot
So yeah, Its about time, I say.
Duvet - Boa (You might recognize this song from SE Lain)
And you don't seem to understand
A shame, you seemed an honest man
And all those fears you hold so dear
Will turn to whisper in your ear
And you know what they say might hurt you
And you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing
I am falling...
I am fading...
I have lost it all...
And you don't seem the lying kind
A shame that I can read your mind
And all the things that I read there
Candle lit smile that we both share
And you know I don't mean to hurt you
But you know that it means so much
And you don't even feel a thing...
I am falling...
I am fading...
I am drowning...
Help me to breathe...
I am hurting...
I have lost it all...
I am losing...
Help me to breathe...
I am falling...
I am fading...
I am drowning...
Help me to breathe...
I am hurting...
I have lost it all...
I am losing...
Help me to breathe...
Grahm Cracker Special
Setting::: April 22nd, 2004 - 5:28 pm
Feeling::: sluggish
Hearing::: Duvet - Boa
Actually, I've been writing/journaling a lot lately... just not here. I've done some growing up, but its probably not showing. Lots of thinking and assessments have been made.. and as of right now, I feel kind of low. Not depressed or anything, just... more sluggish and contemplative than usual. Generally, I feel as if I've been out of it for the past two weeks, and the days have started to play on repeat, allowing me to catch up on all that i've missed. Although, all this is probably my lack of sleep talking.
And on another note, FFTA offically makes me sad, but my gameboy sp is wonderful. Its bright enough to use as a flashlight in the dark.
