december 22nd, 2003

Time::: 6:33 pm
Mood::: pissed and sad
Listening to::: birdcage

god.. this is why I'm getting away. Its so unhappy and unhealthy. Shes terrible to me. And I just can't try anymore. no matter what I do, nothing will ever change. I don't want to be so angry anymore. I can't even look at the woman without feeling that I have to slap her.

december 21st, 2003

Time::: late at night
Mood::: oww...
Listening to::: nothing

okay, well, I've been taking a lot of quizes and saving the results. so here they are....

You are an OTAKU GRANDE MASTER CHEF! We bow before you, sensei! Please grace our kitchens with your presense!
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CODE RED OTAKU!!!

What level otaku are you?
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hah, the irony.


Plushies

Which Random Essential Otaku Item Are You? (WITH PICS!!!!)
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My inner child is six years old!

Look what I can do! I can walk, I can run, I can
read! I like to do stuff, and there's a whole
big world out there to do it in. Just so long
as I can take my blankie and my Mommy and my
three best friends with me, of course.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
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Adritha is your Vampire name. You are stunning to look at and to talk to. No
other type of Vampire has your creativity. To use your new Vampire name and become a Vampire,
go here: www.life-blood.vze.com

What is your Vampire name?
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Your soul is bound to the Yellow Rose: The
Gentle. "I've travelled through the land of
surrender and seen it all. I throw my heart
out and keep my head up, and now I travel
through the land of peace." The Yellow Rose is associated with friendship,
intuition, and fun. It is governed by the
goddess Hestia and its sign is The Intertwined
Rings, or True Friendship. As a Yellow Rose, you always look out for your
friends. You would much rather have strong
ties with friends than a single tie with a
lover and your devotion to your friends is
clear. You may have great intuition and be
able to read emotions clearly, but sometimes
you can seem distant yourself.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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december 20th, 2003

Time::: 11:00 am
Mood::: *dead* -_-
Listening to::: Birthday Cake and Concept of love (from jet set radio future)

Unghhhhhh .. so.. sleepy.... oh, YAY ... no more school!! okay. Yeah, suddenly, i'm going to florida with bobby. I usually don't run away, but I seriously just can't take it any more. I even was considering moving out of my moms house permanently, but, really... I think that won't help anything. make things worse, I bet. Anywhos, I was kinda sad about not being around for new years 'cause I want to spend it with Tyler, but I figured it would be okay 'cause I'm going to columbus with him for the Ohayocon

yesterday sucked, but then tyler and eric showed up at my house, and I was suddenly mega-giddy. Seeing him made me so happy, and it was wierd to though, cause I was nervous for some reason! Ah well. All three of us were going to go see RotK, but they had already bought their tickets earlier, and by the time I went, it was sold out. I was kinda bummed, but I was still really happy that they even considered inviting me.

AUGH! see? I can only be in a certain mood (excluding happy) for a a few hours at the most. I'm so wierd!!

grrrrrrr and as for Kimi ga nozomu eien... this series is making me so mad! its so good, and the episodes come out so slowly!! I have ABSOLUTELY POSITIVELY no idea what is going to happen. It is completly unpredictable. And the ending sounds like the game with the stars at orisinal.com

december 17th, 2003

Time::: 8:00 pm
Mood::: *giddy excitement*
Listening to::: To Sexy - Right Said Fred

me talking to myself in Giant Eagle: Okay, now. I only have enough money to buy straws for my physics project.
*searches for straws* ...
*walks through gift wrapping isle* ...
*double take* ....
*looks around* ....
AUGH!!!!!!
*picks up Harry Potter wrapping paper and purchases* ....
^___^
*walks happily out of store* ....
*gets to car* ....
...................... GOD DAMMIT!!!! *realizes she didn't buy straws*

And thus concludes my story. Did a bit of christmas shopping while I was out as well. Anywhos, I read the 5th book again!! ... And the fourth book too... so I figured I would just go back and start at book one. *shrugs* 2 more days until christmas break.............

december 15th, 2003

Time::: 5:16
Mood::: *dances*
Listening to::: Cynic Project

Heh Heh Heh. Tylers Birthday Present just came in the mail today ^__^. Hahahaha, you all should be scared. Sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking.

you know what? I think this week is going to fly by. Today certainly did. Hahaha, Bunny and I tried to go to Donatos right after school, but then found out it was closed, so, being the idiots we are, we run back to the car as fast as possible, hoping nobody else noticed our blatent (*doesn't even know what that word means*) stupidity.

OH!!! Haha, and I've discovered something else fun to do!!! Mini Golf!!!!. And now, as I promised yesterday... for you!!

Me: OKay, I'm ONLY going to eat fruits and veggies this week!!! ..... (3 minutes later) ..... *is eating nachos* -_-;;

december 14th, 2003

Time::: 5:30
Mood::: *curious smile*
Listening to::: Getbackers ending and Full Tilt - Cynic Project
weeeee!! theres hundreds of people in my house right now..ah.. i'm getting dragged away... will post later.. .and i'll post a funny minigolf picture...

december 7th, 2003

Time::: 11:30ish am
Mood::: x_x
Listening to::: alive - sr71
I love the Webers so much. Ashley, Matt and I talked for over an hour and then went out for pizza (I got pineapple on mine! so good!). Then later on that night (really, this moring) I went back over, and ashley and I stayed up for a long time, talking about everything possible: Right now, the future, what we want to do, the way we are, hurtful things, and eachother. We really are one entity in two differnt bodies.

I know what I want to do. I want to go to Kent, and study Fashion design. I love to draw, and drawing clothes is a lot of fun, espescially making really crazy, funky things. But I'm not all that good at it. So, I don't know how successful I'm going to be. But I know that once I'm out of college, I want to get out of america. I don't really want to stay in ohio, and if I went to colorado, theres not much I could do out there. I like florida, but I would never ever live there. I really like new york, but its not someplace I would want to live for a long time. Maybe I'll be someone who can never stay in one place, or maybe, when I visit Japan, it will just be one of those places that you fall in love with, and feel homesick when you leave, Just like my aunt (who moved out to colorado) told me about.

You've got this amazing creature -------> yourself
that can move and breathe,
dance and cry.
And you have a certain amount of moments,
(maybe a few million moments - but moments they are)
And you have this chance to do absolutely ANYTHING
to reach out to another vulnerable and true.
to dance on the roof in euphoria
And pray beside the ocean
to let go
We have the chance every moment to BE ALIVE
and to GIVE this world who needs each one of
us so BADLY.

december 7th, 2003

Time::: 12:00-to-1:00 am
Mood::: ehh
Listening to::: alive - sr71 (I think??)

From: Casted Dreams | Posted: 12/6/2003 6:25:00 PM | Message Detail
I was walking down the sidewalk, and this german shepard was walking past me. I snickered obviously, because I mean c'mon, it's a german shepard! So get this, he stands up on two legs and picks a fight with me. Starts poking me in my chest saying crap like "Hey man, YOU wanna fight?!" So I accept his duel. I couldn't do homework this weekend, because I had to fight him!

So tommorow, we met at the local dump and the fight was on. He starts off by growling and my defense lowered. I then punch him in the jaw, and it unhinges. Well, you know how dogs have like foot long jaws, so he had like a foot of jaw just hanging limp. Long story short, I'm not allowed to shop at the gap anymore, and I had to get an abortion."

I was a bitch today. my brother and sister took their mini ramps for skateboarding and covered them with snow and put them at the bottom of our hill so they could snowboard off of them. I parked behind their ramp.

Jordan: can you move your car?
me: DON'T YOU TALK THAT WAY TO ME!!!!
Jordan: but.. can you just move your car? please?
me: STOP YOUR BITCHING!!!

*shrugs* and I thought I was in a good mood- guess not. I hate that part of me though. because I talk without thinking, there are days when I say some terrible things.
Its strange. I usually hate songs like this, but I really, really like the chorus. Something about it makes it fun to sing along to.

Say Goodbye
To mister right
Lock the door
Turn out the light
Pack your bags
leave this trap
run away
don't look back
see another day in each new sign
your life has just begun

december 5th, 2003

Time::: 3:40 pm
Mood::: serene!
Listening to::: gerudo valley (from zelda! yay! favorite song!)
Me: Mom, let me help you with that *picks up multiple boxes at once*
mom: okay, thanks!
Me: ...*boxes fall out of my hands and glass shatters all over the floor* ... >_>

So yeah! wee, driving home today from school was so much fun!! We take all the backroads, and it snowed about a bunch of inches while we were at school today, so foresty area we drive through was so pretty!! And we even brought a nice and cozy blanket for the car ride, hahaha!!

"Fuck it! I'm gay!"-Soupy ^_^



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woah... *hides little boys in closet*

so this week from hell is offically over!!

december 3rd, 2003

Time::: 9:31 pm
Mood::: so exhausted*
Listening to::: FFX soundtrack
Huahhh. new layout! I know, I know, its really wierd, kinda creepy, but ah well, I like it, and thats all that matters. It started out as a Kodomo no omocha blue snowy wintery christmas layout, and then I was like... SCREW THAT! and used this amazing picture of gackt I found while rumaging around my pictures, and somehow it ended up turing into this. Its kinda vampire/halloweenish, if you ask me. ah well.

in other news, I spent two hours at the mall today and bought nothing. I hate the fact that i'm so picky >_<.

now, I need to eat, and for some reason, I just got an urge to watch home alone... hmm...

december 2nd, 2003

Time::: ??? is it in the am yet?
Mood::: how you feel when the caffine wears off *looks at empty mug*
Listening to::: 3 libras - APC
okay, i'm not dead. but I might as well be. I suck at school. I hate school. I'm back together with tyler. I made a new layout. I got to drive the avalanche today (bunny and I were just two little girls dancing in an extrodinarily big car). Ashley and I got our HP SCARVES!! *dancess gleefully*
I feel like sleeping, but I'm only half done with homework, and I have to study for physics.
and now, this is something I found at zen's site. she got it from some other site, which stole it from some other site, and so on and so fourth. looks fun.

three things that scare me:
01| scary/suspenceful movies
02| spiders
03| not getting into the college of my choice

three people that make me laugh:
01| Ashley
02| Soupy
03| Keke (yes, keke is my super hott invisible friend. what, you think i'm kidding?)

three things that i love:
01| geeky stuff (computer/internet/videogames)
02| anime/manga
03| crying

three things i hate:
01| School and anything school related
02| horror movies
03| when i'm mean

three things i don't understand:
01| love
02| school
03| motivation

three things on my desk:
01| pictures
02| empty mug
03| lip gloss

three things i'm doing right now:
01| procrastinating
02| listening to music
03| shaking (caffine withdrawl)

three things i can do:
01| journal
02| I'm an excelent procrastinator
03| make random exclamations

three ways to describe my personality:
01| Very introverted- I think deeply all the time and I know myself very well
02| insane
03| Rabid Fangirl.

three things i can't do:
01| work constantly
02| not procrastinate
03| become book smart

three things i think you should listen to:
01| Birdcage - Gackt (or Lu:Na - Gackt)
02| The tetris techno song
03| me singing in the shower - its quite funny

three things i say the most:
01| spectacular
02| yay
03| no worries

three of my absolute most favorite foods:
01| ice cream
02| ramen
03| divinity

three things i'd like to learn:
01| japanese
02| how to draw hands
03| how to sneak into gackt or hydes house and *goes off into own little world*

three beverages i drink regularly:
01| water
02| blue slushies (turns tounge, teeth and lips blue!)
03| cranberry juice (turns tounge red!)

three shows i watched when i was a kid:
01| sailormoon
02| power rangers
03| ninja turtles

three things i miss:
01| easy schoolwork
02| my brother
03| my aunt alyssa in colorado

the end. that was spectacular.