November 26th, 2003
Time::: 12:02
Mood::: weary
Listening to::: Park Amsterdam - Maaya Sakamoto/Yoko Kanno
Sometimes I forget that I don't really have wings.
I ran away last night. My mom took my keys, so I just ran. I wasn't wearing any shoes, or a jacket, just my pajamas. I considered going to the playground, but I was freezing. Thank god for friends like Ashley.
Its days like these, when I force myself to stop hiding and running and come home to face the mess, where I realize I can only laugh.
November 19th, 2003
Time::: 11:09 pm
Mood::: a little sad
Listening to::: gackt and hyde's ending moonchild song
I still get a little sad. Sometimes, when my mind is on other things, uncertainty crawls up from the dark and nestles itself into my thoughts.
November 19th, 2003
Time::: 8:17 pm
Mood::: meh
Listening to::: Asshole - Denis Leary
Haha, I really don't feel like doing homework. I have a huge paper due tommarow for US History due tommarow, and I haven't really started. Hehehe, but!! I DID work on bunny's birthday surprise for an hour and a half after I came home, and now, I'm all exhausted. Weeee. Penguin Brothers ended, and It was rather abrupt. Made me sad. I wanted some romancein', but that did not happen *shrugs* Ah well, it was still good. Reminded me a lot of Imadoki. Oh, and HanaKimi 124 is comming out tommarow. I think. I did hear a rumor that nakajo-sensei is feeling ill so that chapter will be delayed ;_;. Sad, but I hope she gets better soon. YAY FOR THANKSGIVING BREAK NEXT WEEK! *does a handstand* Speaking of john, a different one, I still have to finish the coding for his layout. I also need a new layout. Time for fudgesickles!!
November 15th, 2003
Time::: 8 pm
Mood::: @_@
Listening to::: Too Sexy (Winks by: Gilderoy Lockhart)
So, I've been a very busy girl this past week. To much schoolwork and Harry Potter and not enough time. So i'm back obssessed with Harry Potter again. I re-read the third book today, which was amazing of course. and, I saw the trailer for the 3rd movie.. dear lord *humps screen* everyone is so hott now.. i simply can't WAIT for it to come out!!! Ashley and I even went to the looney tunes movie JUST to see the trailer on the big screen- and then we left! Haha, it was fun- we both wore matching scarves (cause the people in HP all wear matching scarves) and I wore my little brothers quidditch t-shirt that I found. *laughs evily* AHAHAH.. >_> I love life... but I would love it even more is I was a wizard!!!! *hints to god desperatley* <_<
YAY FOR BUNNY'S BIRTHDAY COMMING UP!!! *is in the mood to read fanfiction and do homework*
November 11th, 2003
Time::: 9-10ish? pm
Mood::: ^____^ hanyaaannn~~
Listening to::: my dads watching terminator 3 downstairs and I can hear it..
^_____^ YAY!!!! I just watched the first Harry Potter movie again, and it makes me so happy!!! My insides were just exploding with giddyness, and I want to be a wizard all over again!!! Ooooooo~, why can't I have magical powers!! Why was I born a muggle!?! *kills self.* Now wheres soupy, I have to talk to him about a certain female witch. *wanders off*
*Comes back* okay.. NOW I can start studying.. *flies away*
November 11th, 2003
Time::: 5:40 am
Mood::: ~.~
Listening to::: calypso-spidebait
*stretches and yawns* dammit, I have a huge test today and I think I have a fever. I'd stay home but I just stayed home last monday ;_;. *has throbbing headache too*. Although, I really want to stay home so I can study some more too. *can't decide* *brain explodes* owwwwwwwwwwwww *cries*.
Holy crap, I've been so stressed lately, I just don't even know what to do with myself anymore. I haven't even been able to play RO for 5 days now.. maybe more.. I really hope I'm not off of that free trial yet..;_; I still need to register.. I would hate to loose Ritoru.. I worked hard on her!!
And on another sad note, Tyler and I broke up. That sucked, and I'm still sad about it. I know I'm probably just being a big baby like always, 'cause we hadn't seen eachother in forever, and towards the end it wasn't even like we were going out, and, even though we are going to stay friends (I hope we become really good friends, and hes still comming with us to the ohayocon ^-^), he was such an great kid! Ah well, I'm a loser. End of story. And. Maybe I will end up staying home. Its what I really want to do, so, why not, you know?
November 9th, 2003
Time::: 7-8something pm
Mood::: ~_~
Listening to::: the remedy-jason mraz(sp?)
huahh, this weekend- wow. I drove to Toledo and stayed at Lissa's house for Jacksons birthday. Her house so AMAZING! I want to go back so bad- so I planned to take ashley and tiff two weeks from now- but then ashley told me that was her birthday week. dammit. Anyways, her house was unreal- just the way it was decorated made me so relaxed and at peace. I drew and doodled a whole bunch and actually was motivated to study (although I didn't).
time for some reviews:
DDRMAX2: Lots of fun. Mostly all the songs were techno- not gay pop ones. for the most part, I actually liked them all. but, it was freaking hard!!! I must be getting rusty. Two new songs that were my favorite, but I can't remember their names.
the new Dido cd:Well, if you liked her old cd, you'll really like this one too. the songs aren't as catchy, but I still really liked it. Peaceful.
X1999 vol 5 I want to meet subaru and his friend that I keep hearing about all over the internet. and they weren't in that volume. augh, I'll have to keep reading.
END OF CHOBITS MANGA: I won't spoil anything. It was good stuffs. It explained a lot more than the anime, and even tied in Angelic Layer, which I thought was surprising, but cool. Although, I think it needed a more dramatic ending >_>. I didn't cry, so that says a lot. haha, but it was still good. *shrugs*.
KODACHA 2 and 3: wahhh, I like, I like, I like! <_< but... that manga makes think pedophile thoughts >_> *runs and hides*
November 7th, 2003
Time::: 4:44 pm
Mood::: yeah!!!
Listening to::: Spiderbait-calypso
Jesus life is fun. *dances to techno* Besides the fact that I haven't been able to play RO at all, or the fact that I'm having a HUGE FREAKING GIGANTIC MENTAL MASS CONFUSION...>_> *head explodes*..<_< ... Wooo!! I'm having fun!!! I wore my super super super fuzzy pajama pants under my kakhis today, and I danced to jimmies chicken shack in the car alllll morning long. TONIGHT IS PARTY NIGHT!! wooo!!!! I've been watching AMVs(anime music videos) NON-STOP all day and long! OI'm going to make John a layout! Japanese weekend with ashley!!! I'm thinking of showing her ayashi no ceres... but maybe I should show her something super fun like the LIVE ACTION SAILOR MOON!! *cackles* I need to buy some burnable cds. yeah.. *throws confettie and marches in a parade.* This song is AWESOME!!!
October 31st, 2003
Time::: 12:35
Mood::: ...*shrugs*
Listening to::: BG music to ragnarok online
^_______^ weeeee~! This game is soo much fun!! My main character Ritoru (named after one of Bunny's characters in our last PBeMRPG) is halfway to level 13, and shes a thief! I dunno why, but this game just makes me so exited! I can't wait to have daily adventures and stuff like that!
Alllll I did today was play RO, and half of the day RobotoKon (frost) tanked me until I was level 10. xD I am so grateful!!! *goes back to playing*
October 30th, 2003
Time::: who knows again
Mood::: *looks down sadly*
Listening to::: Shallow Sleep - hyde
I did a lot of cleaning today. went through a shelf of mine at my moms. also cleaned the computer. Burned half of naruto to make room for lots more other stuff. I started reading Bleach, which was really good. It seems like something that would fit right in in shonen jump. Read some inu doujins. Lots of yaoi mangas. And thats about it. kinda uneventful. kinda sad?
I know I need to just go with the flow of nature. Stop worrying. And just let go. But, thats never easy. I'm trying my best. But so many things around me keep happening, and I just can't help but worry. I'm suffering from insomnia because I stay up just thinking. I dunno what I even want anymore.
bothered. upset. broke. small. vunerable. exhausted. greedy. selfish. broken. slow. losing sanity. The Invisible.
I think I'm going to spend time at my happy place. Time for chocolate brownie frappechino at barnes and nobles.
hey, 'whats this?' This makes me smile.
October 29th, 2003
Time::: who knows
Mood::: :/
Listening to::: the remedy
Huaaahhhhh. Its so wierd. It seems as if everyone is changing without them noticing. I feel as If I'm the only one that notices. Its not bad changes that are taking place. Just drastic in a minimal way. If that makes any sense.
*shrugs*
October 27th, 2003
Time::: 10:09 pm
Mood::: ~_~
Listening to::: birdcage- Gackt
Wow. I'm so emotionally tired right now. It has been a long day. I probably cried for an hour straight. everything is okay now, I just hope my friend olivia is going to be alright. I don't want her to be sad any more.
oh yeah. mark tried to steal FAKE and read it today. Ashley said my face turned bright red from embarassment as I jumped on top of him to try and grab it from him.
October 26th, 2003
Time::: 1??? am
Mood::: O_O
Listening to::: my paper heart- all american rejects
HOLY. FRUCK!!! Okay okay okay. I dare everyone to go out to borders and check out the manga section. You will cry. I mean, it was big before, but It just keeps growing, and growing, until its out of control and your like omg!! I want it all but I have no more money!! What am I going to do?!?!?! *steals a shelf full of books and runs out of the store after setting fire to it to cause confustion and chaos*. (not that I thought about doing that <_<) Seriously. Borders would be the ideal place to rob >_>. Wha, not that I actually would <_<. But anywhos, I was seriously overwhelmed. I mean, they freaking have shonen jump boxsets now. There is sooo much new stuff I want (fake 4, X 5+, One Piece 2, gravi 2, under the glass moon 2, and SO MUCH MORE. They have it all!) I even saw rurouni kenshin manga volume 1- haha, not that I need it though, *looks at illegal full colection of it*. I don't know what I would do if it wasn't for the internet and manga scanlations. And you know what makes me mad? Aren't manga in japan only like 5/6 bucks each (when converted to dollars, obviously)? I could be wrong, but I mean, holy crap. Its 10 bucks per manga here. I feel like I'm falling behind in the anime/manga realm.
NOTE TO SELF: clean out all files on moms computer to make room for more stuff and download download download!
October 22nd, 2003
Time::: 8:10 pm
Mood::: ^_^;
Listening to::: some really wierd mp3 I found accidentally called Shojo no Hitomi. Sounds almost like L'Arc, but the quality is so bad I can't tell..
Today was a most wonderful day! I got to visit john and tiffany both! Poor john- he seemed so out of it (he has mono), and he must have been if I was able to beat him in halo (hehe). Despite seeing him sick (which was saddening) I had a lot of fun. Then tiff and I hung out and talked for hours @_@. -_- I have no time to do homework now, but oh well! I don't regret it! I really miss them very much.
The very tragic feeling is passing! Eveyone who was sad before seems to be getting better! I'm so happy for everyone!
October 22nd, 2003
Time::: 8:10 pm
Mood::: ^_^;
Listening to::: stay away - L'Arc~en~ciel
starbucks is my savior ^___^
October 22nd, 2003
Time::: 6:40 pm
Mood::: :/
Listening to::: my lover is gone - dido
Took a 3 hour nap and was forced awake by mom. And yes, I'm perverted. -_-;;. It took me a while.
I've been thinking. Ashley has too. We both can't wait to leave- the sooner the better!
October 21st, 2003
Time::: ?_? pm
Mood::: *shrugs happily*
Listening to::: breezy - ff8(its downstairs)
| The Big Five Personality Test |
| Extroverted | |||||||||||||||| | 64% |
| Introverted | |||||||||| | 36% |
| Friendly | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Aggressive | |||||||||| | 34% |
| Orderly | |||||||||| | 34% |
| Disorderly | |||||||||||||||| | 66% |
| Relaxed | |||||||||||||||| | 62% |
| Emotional | |||||||||| | 38% |
| Intellectual | |||||||||||||||||||| | 84% |
| Practical | |||| | 16% |
October 21st, 2003
Time::: 7:30 pm
Mood::: just here
Listening to::: Jack Johnson and Gackt(its playing downstairs [my dad really likes birdcage!])
So far, I think everyone is irritable this month. me, my dad, cousin, friends, its all of us. But you know what? Thats okay- its only something natural. As long as it isn't permenant.
This week I did whatever I wanted to- and I enjoyed it most thoughourly. I stayed up all night sunday talking to soupy and working on homework. It really made me happy, we even drew pictures together. Yesterday I came right home from school and slept- it was heavenly. 15 hours total of sleeping, so peaceful. I also stopped putting alot of effor into my appearance while I'm at school. I finally came to the realization that I have no one to impress there, and actually, I don't even care about it. Its kind of comforting, really. One less thing to worry about. and Today, we had our PSATs. It was kind of funny how much preparation they told up to put into it, when in reality, its nothing of importance. I hope they look at my test and laugh. Everybody needs to laugh once and a while.
Dad and I talked for a while today- I love it when he opens up to me. I love listening. Its something I'm good at and always ready for. I just can't give advice
HanaKimi volume 20 came today- and I was really happy. Even though I can't understand it, I like looking through all the pictures and remembering what each one of them are saying. Although 20 isn't my favorite chapter (14 is), I still enjoy it.
October 19th, 2003
Time::: 9:40 pm
Mood::: ^-^
Listening to::: flake - jack johnson
Sometimes, it is just so relaxing to stop in the middle of mass chaos and smile. I realized something tonight. I have the world figured out, but I just keep forgetting it. Its like having to recondition the mind and somewhat start all over again. I think that when I stop forgetting, that I will have achieved what I am here for. strange, but somehow, realizing that has made me more at ease. I still have not started my homework, but since I'm not worried over it, everything is okay. Allowing avoidance something we should all do, because, as SARK taught me, we can achieve things we wouldn't normally do when we avoid (procrastinate).
actually, what I feel like doing is going and sitting on our super comfy couch in the attic, grabbing some delicious coffee, wrapping myself in my favorite warm blanket, and then contently working on my homework.
I accept and love who I am, especially the fact that I procrastinate! ^_^
October 19th, 2003
Time::: 6:47 pm
Mood::: *growls* (but secretly, is happy <_<)
Listening to::: eyes on me
huaaaahhhhh~~~. I promised myself I would do all my homework first thing this morning.. but somehow, I found myself at the mall, and then at borders.. and then reading five different mangas.... (but they were just so good. Hanyaaannn... and now, I feel like giving some mini-reviews-type-things. soo.. MAJOR SPOILERS!
X-Day: Okay, the first book was really good. I was all excited to read the second, and then the second one was a bit of a let down. I guess I just wanted more of a love story between mr. money and 11, so it kind of made me mad. It was kind of like 'oh! I love you! let me show you my burns! time for sex!' and then your like >_> what? <_< oh... okay... then... *shrugs*
Boys over flowers volume 2: Weeee! I like this series, although it reminds me much of Tanpopo (which I adore, thank you Yuu Watase!) I just want the main character to hook up with rui (>_> I think that was his name *is to lazy to go back and check*)but dammit, I have a feeling I'm going to have to wait a lot longer. I hope this series isn't going to turn out totally predictable..
Fake volumes 2 and 3: Hehehehehe, the whole time I was reading this, I just couldn't stop giggling.. although.. its a little tame for my minde v_v;;. Throught both books I was just like DAMMIT! GET TO THE SEX ALREADY! but no.. that never came.. and then I realized that the rating was't even M...just older teen.. ;_; *is forced to look elsewhere for smut*. Oh yeah, *gets back to plot* the plot is pretty good as well! Although, I keep thinking its a little too convient that everywhere they go is in some way involved with a crime.. haha, but then, if it wasn't, the book would be boring *shrugs*.
Oh..and actually.. I think my manga collection is growing a little out of hand.. I will probably... (dammit! even though I REALLY don't want to)...v_v start selling some of it... *runs away crying*
October 18th, 2003
Time::: 11:50 am
Mood::: sick
Listening to::: Lu:Na - Gackt
Last night was a lot of fun! I went to Tylers and watched his band practice, but it was awesome! They just got 3 more new members, and the songs were amazing. I loved it! Haha, I felt kinda bad though because I felt and looked like shit but just didn't care. *shrugs*
so, its been a while since I've updated. This week has been so very stressful, exhausting emotionaly, phsyically and mentally. But I've also discovered something about myself: I can only stay depressed for an hour tops. wierd, ne? Like, If I get super pissed, the next minute I will be fine, unless I want to dwell on it. I just can't seem to make up my mind, in so many ways.
But, I have also discovered a new escape! When I stayed home from school on thursday, Lissa took my sorry self to Barnes and Nobles and she got me a white chocolate vanilla (!!!SEXUAL REFERENCE CONCERNING GACKT!!! *sadistic laughter* [I now have a problem of associating the word vanilla to gackt and hydes sexual relationship {even if its only in my mind, dammit} beause of 1. listening to the song vanilla and 2. watching MoonChild waaaay too many times for it to be considered healthy]) mocca and we just sat at one of the tables and she let me vent, and then she bought me the book Spilling Open (Sabrina Ward Harrison)(my favorite!!) and then left. I stayed there a while after and read, and it just made me feel so much better!
I now have a new favorite saying/saying! (>_> I stole it from some random website while searching for MoonChild stuffs) That saying/phrase is UST! stands for unspoken-sexual-tension *giddy laughter* *points to gackt and hyde in the movie*.
October 13th, 2003
Time::: 4:30 am
Mood::: ;_;
Listening to::: some song gackt sings at the end of Moon Child..
...That was possibly the saddest thing I've ever seen. I cried, and just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes again. Funny thing is, I couldn't understand half the movie, but then, it really wasn't nessessary.I was able to follow along and got a gist of what they were saying. The final scene with Kei and Sho (played by Hyde and Gackt) was so... undescribable.. I can't... even think of how to say it.. But it was moving.
dammit.. I'm going to have to searching for mp3s from the soundtrack... I really liked it.. haha, especailly the mr. bojangles song they somehow made fit...
Shame on me for only having eyes for Gackt and his band (both new and old) up until now.. I've only heard of Hyde before.. but holy %#@&... both those boys are the most beautiful creatures I have ever seen.
October 12th, 2003
Time::: 1:00 am
Mood::: ....?
Listening to::: What's This? - Nightmare Before Christmas
Its very strange. Everyone around me is so sad and falling apart. I feel selfish for enjoying life right now... And I want to so very badly help everyone find their way.. I want to help them be happy and strong... but right now.. I can't do anything. I'm not naive..I know that it takes a lot to change a person. All I can do right now is continue to be myself and be nice to everyone. But that doesn't seem to do much for anyone.
and now, I think its time to break out with my favorite quote. *inhales*
You've got
this amazing creature -------> yourself
that can move and breathe,
dance and cry.
And you have a certain amount of moments,
(maybe a few million moments - but moments they are)
And you have this chance to do absolutely ANYTHING
to reach out to another vulnerable and true.
to dance on the roof in euphoria
And pray beside the ocean
to let go
We have the chance every moment to BE ALIVE
and to GIVE this world who needs each one of
us so BADLY.
*exhales* whoo. now that I've said that, I feel like running around barefoot outside.. and I would too.. except for the fact that its dark out, and when its dark out, all the rapists and molesters come out. so I'll refrain. (*thinks to self* wtf..where did that come from.. *mentally shrugs*)
October 10th, 2003
Time::: fifth period
Mood::: >_>
Listening to::: silence
wee, i'm at school. I was debating weather or not I should open up some lemons and start reading, but then I decided that I could just wait till later. I started reading FB lemons again (which I haven't done in a while) and I forgot how much fun they could be. *evil laughter*
Anywhos, I’ve been super busy. And today is Friday! This week has seemed to blow by so quickly! Yesterday was a lot of fun though. One of my teachers said “sexersize” and only Ashley, patters and I caught it. Good times, good times. Anywhos, this weekend I plan on playing ff8 and chrono cross alllll day long. And then I want to make some onigiri with bunny and use the Japanese Cds I just bought. *is excited* ... *runs away*
October 9th, 2003
Time::: 6:34 am
Mood::: ~_~
Listening to::: One Time - Earthsuit
Ah, even though I woke up badly, I still got a lot of sleep last night. ^_^ Finally!! Its been a while since I've slept that much on a weekday (and it was only like.. 6 1/2 hours of sleep.. thats kinda sad.
I've been thinking alot latley, about the whole homework situation, and then I read this awesome statement from a a fellow internet blogger, frost.. "The question remains.. have I really tried my best? If not, am I even willing to? Which is more important... my future or the internet?" So I thought to myself. What do I really want? Well, then I realized. Since this is my life, and I can do absolutley anything I want every moment, I am going to decided to do what makes me happiest. Thats why I got such a nice sleep last night. I didn't do my Religion Homework because I know I can get it done at school. So I finished my paper, watched an amazing AMV, and then went to sleep around 10:30. It made me happy. Sometimes, we just have to stop for a second in the middle of all our problems and just calm down. Who says you have to decide between one or the other? If you overcome stubborn-ness, I think we can easily do both at once.
October 6th, 2003
Time::: 3:40 pm
Mood::: strange
Listening to::: The Hell that is My Life - Zebrahead
During religion class today I re-remembered how much I think ancient egypt is the coolest..
huah! well, today, I totally, and completly, fucked myself over. ^_^ Heee, I had a project due today... and well, I didn't even start on it yet. I still gotta go to the library to get a book on it..
thos penguin caffeine mints REALLY do a good job of erm... caffinating me. yep.
I want to see naruto 52.. but I have no space!! no space on the computer at all!! .. hehe.. but I DO have a link for everyone! (knows this has been aroudn for a long time, but hey, shoupy just showed it to me the other day The Ballad of Bilbo Baggins. And let me warn you. *warns*.
October 5th, 2003
Time::::11:04
Mood::: z_z <---thats my sleeping face
Listening to::: Weapon - Matthew Good Band
Huahhhhhhhhhhh. This song reminds me of Haku.. *moment of silence* ... >_> ... <_< .. *moment over* anywho, I just finished re-reading all of hanakimi so far. It took me all weekend! I'm so anxcious(sp?) for 131 to finish downloading *has to wait in line* -_-. Hmm, it seems as though I still have to do my report on a battle for the revolutionary war. but actually, I'm considereing not doing it. So some reason, I just can't take the assignment seriously.
I enjoyed a wonderful day today spent with Tyler and Ashley today. ^_^ It really made me happy that those two could finally meet. Ah, and school of rock was a really really really good movie too! I liked the asian (maybe?) kid on the keyboard. Fun stuffs. oh! And I introduced tyler to the awesomeness that is Tenacious D. More fun stuffs. =3
October 1st, 2003
Time::::9/10 something pm
Mood::: O_o and >_< and !_! and *.*
Listening to::: Vanilla - Gackt and Jung-Hwa Ban Jum - chin2 (FUNNESS!)
Ahh, hehe, the song vanillia makes me think of gackt's live preformance to this song... *dirty thoughts* !_!
Huahhh interesting day! interesting day! Ashley and I discovered you could actually hear our pokemon techno OUTSIDE of the car when driving.. Kyle and I got married.. yet somehow, I was also the dad.. and everyone else at our lunch table were our 'special' children *coughretardedcough*, I GOT TO VISIT TYLER TODAY!! (muches and muches of fun), I bought some pocky!!! (coconut and strawberry), finished the love hina manga.. WHICH made me cry... -_- .... I don't even know why... and I got Pet shop of horrors 2, which was great! and finally, I am (possibly) getting a job at GameStop! *passes out* And for a severe lack of sleep (went to bed at 2ish, woke up at 4) I have been unexplainably hyper. I just hope I didn't offend to many people today.. >_> ... <_< ... *tries to inconspicuously lock tied-up children back into the closet*
October 1st, 2003
Time::::7:04 am
Mood::: @_@ s...l...e...e...p..y... (still!)
Listening to::: Mizerable - Gackt
Yay! okay, now, for an explanation! I changed layouts! yay! because, well, last night I read volume 20 up to chaper 130... and HOLY FRUCK!!! I won't spoil anything here, but during those last few chapters I was shaking because I was so nervous of Mizuki, adn then, after chapter 130 I went COMPLETLEY psycho because chaper 131 isn't out yet for me to find out what happens next. I wanted to cry and laugh and explode and yell all at once, so, I copied Lilo and Stitch and went to my room to scream in my pillow. -_-.But wow, yeah, it was bad. It was like feeling every emotion all at once, even complete opposite emotions. It took me a while to calm down, but just laying in bed helped, and so did talking to Tyler. Ah, I'm strange, aren't I?
Oh, hehe, and last night I also noticed something. (after talking to ashley and after my whole explosion) I've noticed that our species (the rabid fangirl) tends to get rather violent when anime/manga/videogames and anger mix. *laughs* Who knew?
October 1st, 2003
Time::::4:25 am
Mood::: @_@ s...l...e...e...p..y...
Listening to::: ---
Wee.. new layout... @_@ .. now must get back to homework...
