Setting::: April 22nd, 2004 - 5:28 pm
Feeling::: sluggish
Hearing::: Duvet - Boa
Actually, I've been writing/journaling a lot lately... just not here. I've done some growing up, but its probably not showing. Lots of thinking and assessments have been made.. and as of right now, I feel kind of low. Not depressed or anything, just... more sluggish and contemplative than usual. Generally, I feel as if I've been out of it for the past two weeks, and the days have started to play on repeat, allowing me to catch up on all that i've missed. Although, all this is probably my lack of sleep talking.
And on another note, FFTA offically makes me sad, but my gameboy sp is wonderful. Its bright enough to use as a flashlight in the dark.
And a very Gary day to you, too.
Setting::: April 13th, 2004 - 8:28 pm
Feeling::: >_>
Hearing::: My blood cd ^-^
GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY! GARY!
Emotional Insanity
Setting::: April 13th, 2004 - 3:20 pm
Feeling::: 800 different emotions at once
Hearing::: In this empty room - Gackt
I had a really good day. I missed bunny and gary like no other, drew 80 million pictures, talked to >_> err, someone, and was so freaking hyper it was scary. Especially for the lack of both nutrients and sleep. On the way home in the car, I dances and sang like no other to pokemon dance techno, pulled into the garage, got out of the car and continues to dance to techo, then walked inside my house. I cheerfully ran and greeted my family.
Then, Jason and Jordan start screaming at me: "OMGLOOKWHATWEGOT!!!"
Then they thrust in my face 2 copies of FFTactics for the GBA and wave it around in my face, and start screaming at me how its the coolest game ever and how its so much fun. I faltered for a moment, then smiled again. I wouldn't let that bring me down. Why should I be jelous while right in front of me lay one of the games I wanted to play so very badly, but was unable to because I don't have my own GBA. I forced a smile, and then, kicked them both in the shins and ran out of the room. ......And fought back tears. Now, if that doesn't scream PMS, then I don't know what does.
And I have so much to study for tonight I honestly don't plan on getting any sleep. In fact, I think it would be a good idea if I went down to barnes and nobles, bought myself a nice cup of cofee, and study there. My mind doesn't wander at that place.
What I've Learned
Setting::: April 12th, 2004 - 8:55 pm
Feeling::: Dance-tastic
Hearing::: A bunch of Ninja video game remixes
Well, Dante (The computer at my dads) is dead, officially. I can't get into aim, aol or the internet. He won't even let me right click. I've wanted to write in my journal soooo bad this weekend, but I couldn't! All my journals were at my moms. ;_;
Well, anyways, this weekend has been fantastic. After my police ordeal, I found out the reason why I didn't get a ticket. If he would have given me a ticket, he would have had to report the stolen liscense plate, and that means, I would have been arrested. He told my dad he would have felt bad if he handcuffed me. O_O ... ^___^ God that man is wonderful.
Saturday I woke up, saw my dad off to work, and did something extrodinary. I cleaned. And not just tidying up cleaning- This was hardcore Alexia-style cleaning. What started out as only putting up all my new posters somehow evolved into picking up the mess on the floor, which turned into cleaning out my drawers, which lead todusting (gah, some spots in my room haven't been dusted since we moved in... 2 INCHES OF DUST), then vaccuming [which I moved my bed and under desks n stuff to vaccum, and even the windows, because those wire net things were horribly dirty, and also in the corners or the ceiling and in my closets). 6 Hours or cleaning later, I was finished. ^_^ And no, I'm not exaggerating.
Then we all drove down to Lissa's house in Toledo and I actually went and played outside with Jason, Jordan, Brent, my Dad, and Madison (Lissa's puppy!). And Let me tell you, I haven't actually ran in a few months, so after 5 minutes, I was worn out. I held onto Madisons leash and just let her lead me around the park, like two explorers on some sort of mission. The whole time, I thought to myself: 'This is wonderful!' And I couldn't believe it had been so long since I've been outside for reasons other than walking to/from my car. It was pathetic that I haven't streatched my legs in such a long time.
Then we all went inside, conversed over some pizza, and then Lissa's younger sister and I watched the movie Honey. Now let me tell you, I would have never in my life watched the movie Honey if it wasn't for this night.
For those of you who don't know, Honey is the movie staring Jessica Alba, who is a Hip-hop dancer who wants to make it big. And holy crap, she can move her body in ways that I would have never thought possible.
But this is the important part.
After the movie ended, a thought popped in my head. It was a thought that I think often, and I certainly know bunny feels this way a lot too, espically when it comes to art.
"That makes me feel bad."
"I suck, compared to this."
And then, it hit me. Jelousy from my inability to dance made me realize something that I should have been thinking a while ago. Its not, "That makes me feel bad," its, "That inspires me."
Seriously, Why do I want to feel bad all the time? Everyone, everywhere I go, will absolutely always be better at me then something. But do I really want to keep feeling bad about it? Lately, I've even started to avoid things of beauty, and things that were created really well. ....But what would avoidance accomplish?
When I see something really wonderful from now on, weather it be dancing, art, literrature, or anything else amazing, I want to be inspired by it. I want to look at whatever it is that would have once made me feel bad, and feel inspired to go off and try and do something fun of my own. Just because I can't do something as well as others doesn't mean I suck at life.
This week:
Times visited by Tyler: 2
Tickets avoided: 1
Days skipped school: 1
Books read: 2 1/2 (Harry Potter books 2, 3 and I'm halway done with 5)
Naps taken: Many
Boxes of peeps eaten: 4, and counting
Pounds gained: At lest 6 or 7
Lessons learned: Lots.
My Angel
Setting::: April 9th, 2004 - 8:55 pm
Feeling::: Nervewrecked
Hearing::: The sound of my dad painting
I met my guardian angel today. He didn't have white wings, nor a long flowing gown, and he certainly wasn't beautiful. He appeared to me in dressed in a navy blue uniform and a matching hat. My saving grace was a cop from the township of Bath.
I exit my street onto the main road and start heading down to Lowe's to run an errand for my dad. A police car pulls out of his little hiding spot and begins traveling down the same road as me. I immediately get nervous, as it appeared he was following only me and I turn left onto the next street. The car follows me and then turns his sirens on. I could have died. I didn't do anything wrong, I made sure of that, and I was positive I wasn't speeding. So I pull over, and the man walks over to my window.
"Hi there."
"..er.. Hello"
So I do the liscense/registration deal and then he asks me:
"Do you know what you did wrong?"
"I have absoultely no idea."
"...You made a left turn when the light for the left turn lane was red. You were about 35 feet from getting into an accident."
My heart stopped and I thought back. I distinctly remembered th light was just then turning yellow... and then I realized I didn't focus on the left turn light at all. I had a mini shock-attack that lasted for a minute and then looked at the officer and explained that I was going to loose my liscense because this would make my second ticket. He said he would have let it go, if it wasn't for the fact that I was so close to getting into an accident.
He went back to his can and a million thoughts ran through my head. 'Whos going to take ashley to school?' 'What am I going to do to when I need to get away?' 'This is all my fault for not doing the dishes tonight' 'If only I wouldn't have spent so much time getting ready' 'I deserve this' 'My dad is going to hate me.'
By the time he came back, I was crying. I tried to hide it by not showing him my face right away and wiped my eyes as quickly as possible. I didn't want anyone to see me like that.
"...I'm sorry, i'm going to try and enter them again to see if there was some sort of mistake, but you are driving with stolen plates."
For a third time, I could have died right then and there. Me, stolen plates? How?! I explained that I was driving a dealer car, and told him to look at my last name for proof.
"**********? What is your relationship to the owners?"
Then I explained about my uncle Bob being on the radio (with that damn slogan of his) and my dad co-owning it with him. With a puzzled expression, asked me for my dads number to clear this up. To make a long story short, my dad showed up, found out that the plates were originally stolen, but we got them back and didn't realize it.
And my angel... He let me go. He said he trusted my dad to give me heavy punishment, and thus didn't give me a citation. I burst into astonished tears again, and thanked him from the bottom of my heart. I should have jumped out of the car and hugged him.
Hes my angel because he reminded me I need to drive more carefully. Who knows, he could have saved me from getting into a terrible accident later on in the night, or something else could have happened while I was stopped. Instead of calling this the worst night of my life, I'm going to make it one of the better nights of my life. I'm going to stay up late, read a good book, and indulge in yummy snacks. Needless to say, I won't be going to Toledo tonight.
Soupy and Tyler
Setting::: April 6th, 2004 - 2:30 pm
Feeling::: HUZZAH
Hearing::: Crono Trigger Remixes
AHAHAHAHAH. So I check my tagboard today and I had absolutley no idea what anyone was talking about! And I was especially wondering why Jae was talking about soupy, whom I had never mentioned him to before. Theeeen....
Amazing Soup: I think you're blind
ChibiRoXy6202: whys that?
Amazing Soup: no reason! *skips along*
ChibiRoXy6202: tell me!!!
ChibiRoXy6202: ....
ChibiRoXy6202: *has idea*
ChibiRoXy6202: *goes to check site*
Amazing Soup: >_>
So. Just to let you all know. THAT LAST ENTRY WASN'T ME!! NO ONE!!! (even soupy) Can rival gackt/hyde/miyavi's looks. if anything, soupy comes in 4th. XD. And besides, I ALREADY got him a gift. so nyaaa *sticks out tounge*
And Also, I had an unexpected visitor! HURRAH! And let me tell you, that boy is as skinny as ever! Hahaha, Tylers so fun though, It makes me happy everytime I see him. >_< I felt bad because it was kinda boring, we ended up outside talking on the front porch. It is rather nice out... hmmm, maybe I'll go play outside some more once I get to my dads....
Badgers
Setting::: April 4th, 2004 - 2:30 pm
Feeling::: happy
Hearing::: Super Furry Animals - Golden Retriever
So I was driving around town earlier and I just randomly thought "I want to buy soupy a present". I thought for hours and hours and I couldn't come up with anything to get him! So that's where you come in (whoever reads this site, that is). I need ideas for a gift. This is what I know about soupy:
1. his extremely good looks put gackt, hyde, and miyavi to shame
2. his soup is damn near orgasmic
3. constantly has to fend off hordes of obsessed virgin soup fangirls
4. wears pants
5. suffers from extreme boredom
So there you have it. Hopefully that will help you come up with some sort of gift I can give him. Or maybe we can all put together our money and buy something really expensive...? ^-^ Any ideas will be greatly appreciated.
What Once was Lost has been Found
Setting::: March 31st, 2004 - 1:10 pm
Feeling::: Relieved
Hearing::: The song that plays in naruto whenever someone good wins a battle or does something heroic (victory music!)
Hahaha, This is wonderful!
Today, I had a hair appointment, (I'm planning to get it super funky short) and so I was getting ready to leave, I went to go grab my purse. Then I realized.. I LOST IT!! I started flipping out, I mean, I only had about 1.50$ in change for gas money and I was below empty, so not only would I have no way to get there, but I'd also be driving without my liscense. But I could care less about either of the things. in my purse, was also.. LEE-KUN!!! When I realized I didn't have him, I wanted to scream and cry. I was an emotional wreck!
Needless to say, I'm pathetic. After about an hour later, I finally found my purse, and let me tell you, I sobbed like a little baby. Ahaha, well, okay, I really didn't cry that hard, but I was just so happy to see Lee again, I couldn't control myself.
>_> I feel like a lost child who just found their mother after being separated for years <_<. Yeah, I'm a moron. *goes off to cuddle with lee-kun*
Conventions, Collages and Lee-kun
Setting::: March 29th, 2004 - 11:42 am
Feeling::: Sick and Achy
Hearing::: A Call to Arms - Warcraft III
Arrrrr. You know what, I _really_ don't feel like doing another recap for saturday and sunday of colossal con. But it was fun. I made lots of new friends (both young and old) and bought lots of posters...
But I now have a new obsession with Lee from Naruto... I saw a cosplayer of him, who did an absolutley briliant job with the costume (It even looked super comfy). He even had the wink perfect! *glee* I wanted to at least get his name, but I was too nervous to ask >_<. Stupid me! ;_; But I now have a plushie of lee that I can sleep with at night, so I feel better.
Also, the Gaara that was with him was... my god, looked exactly like the character. I believe it was a girl who cosplayed him, and I just in shock at how great she looked!
Miyavi Icons and My Grades
Setting::: March 27th, 2004 - 2:00 am
Feeling::: Dead sleepy..
Hearing::: nothing still - dante's speakers are broken
Just wanted to share the miyavi Icons I made. If anyone even thinks about stealing them... well go ahead. Just gimme credit. They're odd sizes (80x80/75x75) because.. well... I wasn't sure what the largest size would be at matts site. huah!
And ...*drumroll*... I freaking got a 3.0!!!!!!!!!!! I got all a's and b's, AND A D! not a D-!! Thats the best I've ever done.. I'm so proud! *throws streamers for self and has some random homeless person to jump out of a cake*
FRIDAY COLOSSAL CON RECAP
Setting::: March 27th, 2004 - sometime in the am
Feeling::: HUZZAH!!!
Hearing::: nothing right now
SECOND BEST NIGHT OF LIFE EVAR. Yay! So colossal con is this weekend, and I was pretty much there from 8 until 12 (minus the 3 hours I went home to nap and a 10 minute run to mcdonalds). I felt really bad for matt, because it was his first time at a con, and we did pretty much absolutley nothing all morning. The dealers room wasn't even that fun. But setting up everything thursday night (*cough* PAMPLETS *makes gay retarded noise and hands out golf pencils*) was fun. Anywhos, so matt, bunny and I go back to their house and make food (Ashley got a 3.7 GPA!! HOLY FUCK SHES A GENIUS!!!!!! *is so proud* ;_;) and I read the last volume of paradise kiss. *cries because the ending sucked*. Anyways, so I go back to the con all by myself in super funky clothes (well, funky for my standards) (loose socks and a ninja hoodie!!) and go to the 'Jay talks about anything pannel'. I laughed so hard. That led to the Yaoi Pannel. [Insert evil laughter here].
and guess what we did at the yaoi pannel!!?!?!? .....
....sat on the floor and talked about j-rock!!! *dances* I made lots of new friends- it was really cool, everyone who eventually wound up in the room became friends, in a wierd sort of random glompage way. I met the goddess(es) of J-rock, a really super fun girl who had spikey hair and cool eye makeup, and the most hyperest (not a word, I know), energetic, girl I have ever encountered in my entire life. Oh! And also a guy who was dressed up as.... mana..... and..... an ant just crawled across my screen....*stops to stare*
anyways, that was rather creepy, but back to my story. ;_; I discovered I am such a J-rock newbie!! ahhh!! *cries self to sleep* Haha, actually, it didn't upset me, it motivated me to go out and learn more! *is excited*. And then, the best part! .... I won't go into detail because of ... well... like hell I won't go into details!! who am I kidding?! Then someone brought the naruto cosplayers to the room!! [*more evil laughter*] *cough* ....KAKASHIANDLEE ... and then it was like a party!
...and I sound like SUCH A giddy fangirl!!!! Well, hehe, thats because I AM one! I can't WAIT for tommarow!! plus, Kaitlin and Julie are comming too!! Muahaha, and I want to introduce ashley to my new friends!
I feel like dancing!
Setting::: March 21st, 2004 - 12:33 am
Feeling::: Hurrah!!
Hearing::: Ashita, Tenki Ni Naare - Miyavi
DAMMIT!! I just made this super long, super fun, super exciting post, BUT MY DAMN COMPUTER IS DYING SO IT ERASED IT!!! ah well ^-^ I'll just write it all over again!
this has been the most fun weeking in a long while!:
GRADES: Huzzah! I was getting THREE F'S on my interums and now I'm getting.. ALL A's AND B'S!!!! ... >_> and a D-!!!! But if it wasn't for that D- this would be the best that I've EVER done in the history of me!!
LotR: FotR: JULIE GAVE ME THE EXTENDED VERION!! *has been watching it nonstop* ITS SO GOOD!!! And I've started reading the book too!!
BOBBY: I went to bobby's house last night and we got to talk! I'm so proud of myself... and I'm not hated!!! I'm so happy!!
MIYAVI: ...*twitches from excitement* I found.. ALL THE REST OF HIS SONGS AND HIS MUSIC VIDEO!!!!!!!!!!!! *wets self* Hahahaha, holy **** this boy is talented!! and goregous!! LINKS!
mp3s/music video || Everlasting Junk Story
pictures || I *demand* you look at these!! (he is so pretty he could easily be a hot girl *giggles*)
TYLER: me this morning:
me: *sleeping*
jordan (sister): *busts into room, waking me up* TYLER'S HERE!
me: ...wha?? *rolls over* wtf? what? why!?! *drags self out of bed and sees him in the hallway* Hurrah!
And thats how it happened! He brought back my ps2, we talked for a bit, told he told me he lost my number (thus the reason for not calling *suspicious* >_>, hehe) and he told me his band is getting REALLY popular! (I _knew_ his band would do well! They are so good!!) That made my day! I'm seriously so happy, because it wasn't awkward! It was like like we were friends! *glee*
My Computer is Dying.
Setting::: March 18th, 2004 - 11:09 pm
Feeling::: not sure *sighs*
Hearing::: ---
Poor Dante... hes dying. We really need a new computer- this one is just so .... slow... and old. And AIM is the only program that works anymore. IE only works half the time... *pets computer* I'm sorry...
Disregard this post if you value your sanity
Setting::: March 16th, 2004 - 9:11 pm
Feeling::: giddy
Hearing::: vanilla - gackt (nightclub version! teehee!)
HUZZAH!!! It was amazing! My little sister and I don't always get along, but last night, she came into the computer rooms and ASKED ME about... GACKT!!! I DIDN'T FORCE HER!! It was so wonderful! I couldn't believe she came and wanted to watch the thing I love the most!! Haha, I think I went a little overboard though.. I showed her EVERY MOVIE I HAVE of him >_> excluding all the.. er.. raunchier things. We watched all his commercials, concerts, music videos, and even silly clips, and then I showed her some HYDE and L'arc~en~ciel music videos too! Then I showed her the second fight scene in moonchild >_<. It was so great.
I'm actually surprised I didn't scare her. During each clip I would start screaming with glee and start laughing giddily. Then I'd say things (repeatedly) like: "ISN'T HE CUTE?!" "WATCH THE THING HE DOES WITH HIS HANDS HERE!" "WATCH THIS PART!" "SO COOL!!" "OMGOMGOMG!!".
And then, get this!! She wanted to sleep in my room!! I was so happy, so of course I let her! >_< too bad the top bunk shakes the whole freaking bed with the slighest movement though!
AND THEN. As if it couldn't get any better... SNOW DAY TODAY!! I made a Snape wallpaper in honor of kaitlin, and to top it off, KAITLIN PUT UP A *naked* GACKT WINAMP SKIN!!! *dies from happiness*
800 x 600 || 1024 x 768
"I AM the sex god of slytherin!"
I was inspired by THIS WALLPAPER and learned from THIS TUTORIAL. This girl is so amazing- I don't even begin to compare. Check out her other site - it gives me the chills.
Quizes
Setting::: March 11th, 2004 - 9:11 pm
Feeling::: nummies
Hearing::: The Steward Of Gondor
Commonly known as SexGod!Draco. You are horny as hell, and gorgeous as heaven, and you take advantage of both of these things to have sex with ten different people in one chapter of one fic. You are cheerful and very open about your lust. It is rare that a threatening Voldemort-type plotline will come into your story. And...did I say you were horny?
Find out which Draco you are.
damn right i'm SexGod!Draco !!
Aesthete
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haha, so contradictory to my other results
Tomboy
What's your sexual appeal?
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well.. i AM tomboyish.. <_<
Rave Gamer
(results contain pictures) What type of GAMER are you?
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YAY FOR DDR!!! but wow is this image huge @_@
You're a Thief! Hey, where's my wallet???
Which FFX-2 Dress Sphere are you?
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I always end up with theives/rouge type characters! They're my favorite, but I don't steal in real life! >_<
All shall fade
Setting::: March 9th, 2004 - 9:11 pm
Feeling::: exhausted
Hearing::: The Steward Of Gondor
It felt as if I was sulking today, when in reality, I was just exhausted. Possibly due to the fact that I started my homework at 3:00 am.. Actually, I exhausted myself today worrying over grades. The only thing in life that can seem to bring me down is school.. I mean, its my future.. and frankly, it seems as if I won't have much of one by the rate i'm moving at. I'm fine with the fact that my best in school is less than stellar, there are much more important things in life that I am better at... its just... those other skills aren't going to help me get into college.
I'm so grateful for my dad- he taught me how to cook eggplant and veggies today... and, while we were cooking, he let me calm down and said something that really hit me. "When you're this far down, the worst thing you could do is give up." And so, I've decided not to give up. We both sat down and went over my schedual for next year, and he forced me to take the easiest classes. I'm rather excited about that ^-^.
...*giggles* .. Hehe, I just have to share this. It was one of the most adorable moments i've ever experienced. I was attempting to take a nap yesterday with my cat sleeping by my stomache. I always sleep on my side with my head resting on my arm, and this time my cat stood up and walked over to me, then laid back down, also resting his head on my arm. Then he nuzzled up closer to me and we fell asleep together, forehead touching forehead. ^____^
(alright, well actually, I couldn't fall sleep and ended up just laying there for an hour trying not to squeal from the cuteness. -_-)
Dancing in Balamb
Setting::: March 9th, 2004 - 2:00 am ish
Feeling::: ..La Smoking Bomb
Hearing::: Somewhere over the Rainbow - Meet Joe Black Sountrack
Last friday I wore a tank top and shorts and drove with the windows down in 80 degree weather. Today, three days later, I bundled up in my snowboarding jackt with a scarf wrapped around my neck and drove through snow in 28 degree weather. Hooray for Ohio! Truely unique, I tell you.
I have had the biggest urge to do a few things recently: Watch Joseph and the Amazing technicolor dreamcoat, Play FF8 (listen to the balamb song and I swear it will want to make you play again), and watch moonchild (who doesn't want to watch UST between the two most beautiful men in the world?)
My friend transformed into the hulk and used his super powers to...redecorate. *nods*. How frucking cool is that?
And now, a quote from soupy: "...converting the world to homosexuality, one decieved teenage boy at a time." ...*laughs*
Lots on my mind
Setting::: March 5th, 2004 - 10:14 pm
Feeling::: calm and contemplative
Hearing::: The Luckiest - Ben Folds
I seem to be getting closer with a lot of people as of late. There is a girl in my class who was having a bad day so I went over to her, wrapped my arms around her and just listened to what she had to say. It was really strange, I don't normally do things like that... but for some reason, I really wanted to be there for her. Courtney too.. today made me realize just how important she is.
I've been really egotistical and self-centered lately, I think. It feels like I've been sulking about being alone when really, i'm ignoring everyone around me. Its kind of ironic when you realize you are the cause of your own problems. ... I want to listen to more of other people's stories.
I think tommarow will finally be the day that I come clean and tell my cousin about my lie. I hope he.... understands.
Naked Quidditch and Self-Dissapointment
Setting::: March 5th, 2004 - 1 ish in the morning
Feeling::: Sleepy
Hearing::: silence
Alright- so I get home and think to myself, "well, lets stay up all night doing homework and sleep during the day instead" ..... *lays in bed for hours upon hours until 9:00 pm wide awake* .... right then. So here I am, its past 1, and I still haven't started my homework. Normally, that wouldn't be so bad, but theres the little factor of a Brit Lit paper that was due yesterday that I haven't even started. Now, naturally, after I sat down at the computer to write it, I immediatly distracted myself with:
Naked Quidditch. I don't think I really need to explain myself with this one. This had me laughing for hours.
Alright, so what I've found out tonight according to JKR: moony, padfoot, prongs and wormtail were all in gryffindor, Ron's middle name is Bilius, the two-way mirror with sirius will be used again, Regulus is infact dead, and Remus's middle name is John.
Also: Soupy+Sandy=Dave and Mina+Serena=Dave, when Dave=that high pictched noise you sometimes randomly hear when everything is quiet. >_>
Eyes...burning...
Setting::: February 28th, 2004 - ??? past 12 at night
Feeling::: Sleepy
Hearing::: some movie on tv
Today was the first time that I have been to a funeral service in a long time. My great aunt died- I didn't even know her that well, but the last time I saw her she left such an impression on me. She was so kind and there was just an air of serenity around her. The service was really wonderful- even in her death, what I learned about her today inspired me so much. I want to be like her- so welcoming, kind, and gentle. It was strange- It reminded me of being back on Kairos. I think I needed a reminder. Although, it was a little depressing too... I kept thinking about what would happen if I died and who I would give what stuff too. I decided that at my funeral, I want everyone to dress in all colors, and I want the HYDE song evergreen and the Gackt song Birdcage to play.
Then, I bought a SIRIUS SHIRT!!
*cough*. Anyways. Now, I'm at my cousins house. He had a whole bunch of friends over for his 16th b-day. I'll admit, I was really nervous to come- I don't really know any of his friends (except for Jake and Bill.. but jake was bringing his girlfriend so I figured he'd hang out with her more [obviously]) But it turned out all right. I _promised_ myself I wouldn't be shy, so, haha, the way here I screamed along with BBQ Chickens (great band... *nods*) "I'M NOT GOING TO BE SHY!!!" And what do you know, I wasn't as bad as I usually am when I meet new people! I ended up playing a lot of Halo and some DDR, so I enjoyed myself. Then Bill and I decided to play the LONGEST level of halo on heroic, and before we knew it, by the time we finished, it was 12 at night and everyone else was gone *laughs nervously*. So, I just decided I should stay over- not that going home is hard *lives 7 minutes away*. And holy **** did I write a lot. I'll stop here for now.
Safe in My Skin
Setting::: February 27th, 2004 - 1:02 am
Feeling::: Safe
Hearing::: 32 Falvors - Alana Davis
This is the feeling I've made my goal! I'm here!
I can be happy all day and be depressed the next. I feel like my happiness starts out as a mask that I use to hide my uncertainness and sadness. But whats underneath that mask eventually resurfaces and I have to struggle to fit the mask back on.
So I've decided
What I need is a reminder! I've created a new goal for myself --> Morning writing! I want to do something that I can use to positively set the mood for the rest of the day. I feel as though if I do this, eventually the mask will crumble and whats underneath will have blossomed into something positive instead.
Lissa woke me up this morning! I called her at 3:00 am last night to tell her that I love her, and so she called me back to wake me up today! Lissa is a person that just absolutely shines, and whenever I talk to her I feel re-energized.
Second Hand Genius
Thats the title I've given myself. Up until now, it bothered me. I seem to have a bad habit of taking other peoples ideas and spreading them, once in a while I forget they are not my own. But I realize, thats just how I am. Nobody is 100% original <-- I take comfort in knowing this fact.
And I figure hey, as long as I'm spreading good stuff, I've done well.
Today I went out and felt safe in my own skin. I brought John Mayer in the car with me and took off to go bum around akron. I wore a really comfy long skirt and a fuzzy black fleece hoodie- I've discovered that old people smile more at people who wear long skirts! I spent probably 2 hours at Barnes n Nobles- I bought myself a new journal for morning writing and I started reading the book Blue Shoe by Anne Lemott. I got to page 40 and felt really dizzy, so I took off and promised the book I would come back and read more later. So far its pretty good, although a little bit long at times.
This is me!
Setting::: February 27th, 2004 - 1:02 am
Mood::: Happy
Backround Music::: Thank You - Dido
Its not so bad.
squint your eyes and look closer
I'm not between you and your ambition
I am a poster girl with no poster
I am thirty-two flavors and then some
and I'm beyond your peripheral vision
so you might want to turn your head
cause someday you're going to get hungry
and eat most of the words you just said
-32 Flavors Ani Difranco/Alana Davis
I'm back to myself! First, I would like to make a public appology to myself! Its alright to be down once and a while, so I forgive myself! I realized its alright if I don't make it into a college that I want to go to, or succed to live in the perfect future that I've always dreamed of. Its okay to be uncertain! I'm just going to be happy- I'm just going to be me. And I'm going to keep on making mistakes!!
Barely Moving
Setting::: February 26th, 2004 - 9:51 pm
Mood::: Not quite sure
Backround Music::: Music the FFX-2 AMV caleld 'Stupid Smile'
Well, I'd like to start off by saying that I've fully recovered from my previous sickness. ...And that i've come down with a completely new one. Lovely, isn't it, how weak my body is? Everything was all well and good last night; I was very hyper and (overly) giddy from watching hyde and gackt videos. When I woke up this morning, It felt as though someone lit my body on fire and spun me around in circles for months, realizing that I had a really high fever and was certainly very dizzy. I drove sloppily over to bunnys for school, but then ended up going home when she told me she would just have her sister take her. Then, I somehow made my way back upstairs and stayed in bed until now. Horrible, it was. I had really bad nightmares too- not that I can remember them now though. My day was spent between sleeping and re-reading Chamber of Secrets. ...man, being sick sucks so bad.
I wanted to do something interesting before I head back upstairs to bed, so I watched Peacemaker 19... and if I wasn't so damn sickly, I would be giddy. I'm in love with suzumu!!
Complaining
Setting::: February 25th, 2004 - 3:31 pm
Mood::: *shrugs* ..a little jelous
Backround Music::: Touched - Vast
It was a little depressing today. We had a whole bunch of Jesuit college representitives come and set up little tables around the commons. Mostly everyone in my grade went around taking pamphlets and things the like from each of the tables while I just sat off to the side. Its a little hard knowing you're best isn't even the minimum for their level of acceptance. And whats even harder is watching your best friend talk about differnt choices and options for college when you have no other options. I'll admit, It would be nice to be able to get in somewhere else besides Kent, but I'm barely managing to stay in high school as is. And Its not that if I try harder I'll be able to do better, I AM trying hard, and this is my best-even with help.
It's probably just these damn female hormones, but I was really upset by all of this today. I actually was crying like the pathetic sap that I am during the study hall for those people who didn't want to go to ash wednesday mass. I forced myself to cheer up by telling myself that even though I suck, no one cares nor wants to hear me whine and complain, and that I just need to shut up and think about something else. It worked, and so I was able to smile when I left the classroom. I'm so selfish sometimes.
In other news, 99 more days until PoA Azkaban movie comes out.
Save the Goblet of Fire Movie
Setting::: February 24th, 2004 - late...
Mood::: gyaaa
Backround Music::: nuffink
Well, it seems as though this blog has become centered around Harry Potter.. but who could blame me when the third movie comes out in EXACTLY 100 DAYS!! *pees pants*. Anywhos, EVERYBODY go to this link and please sign!! We can't let them ruin the 4th movie!!
Well, it seems as though I'm getting a little better. I might have broncitis, it sounds like, and it really hurts to breath. So I slept in the nurses office for 3 periods today, and when I awoke I realized I freaking drool ALL OVER her pillow. And it wasn't a little bit either; it was definitely a good-sized puddle.
I've also been considering writing a story. I really want to, but then I realized the only ideas I came up with led to complete smut. I also remembered that writing really isn't my cup of tea. But maybe, I'll give it a shot and try and write a lemon. *evil laughter*
The Problem with Remus
Setting::: February 23rd, 2004 - 3:58 pm
Mood::: dying
Backround Music::: Come - Namie Amuro
Remus Lupin: In my mind, a very handsome older male with slightly shaggy sandy-colored hair and soft eyes....the polar opposite of this monstrocity:
"It looks like a deformed rat"- Bunny commenting on Moony.
I don't think I have to explain myself. It just makes me cry (or laugh hystericaly). I am just praying the actor does a good job to make up for it.
I had the most amazing dream last night. I dreamt that Soupy was swimming in a giant bowl of soup with Natalie Portman. She slowly inched her way closer to him and moved in to kiss him. He pulled away and said "Natalie, not like this, not in a bowl of soup." So she winked at him as she got out and layed down on a bed, wearing only a silver necklace that said "SOUP". She motioned for soupy to follow her, so he did. They had wild passionate sex for days.
My Sushi Experience!!!
Setting::: February 22nd, 2004 - 8:43 pm
Mood::: giddy
Backround Music::: Jungle wa itsumo hale nocchi guu intro
I HAD A SUSHI EXPERIENCE!!
dad: *randomly calls up*
me: *picks up phone* hello?
dad: Lets go get some sushi!!
me: OKAY!!
And so we embarked on our journey down to cleveland to a super kick ass trendy place called 'Sushi Rock'. I've never had sushi before, and don't eat fish, so I was actually seceretly rather nervous. I let my dad do all the ordering and to my surprise, sushi doesn't have to be all seafood. The first thing that came was a seaweed salad, which was actually AMAZING! it didn't taste gross, but rather really really good. It had seseame seeds, carrots and tommatoes, and was a little chewy. Then, the sushi plate came out. Now let me say this first, I don't eat meat or seafood because 1. it tastes bad and 2. I feel so bad for it. I didn't know what the first one was, so I hesitantly ate it. To my surprise, it was SO YUMMY!!... but then my dad told me it had crab in it. *cries for the crab*. Next, I tried sushi that was cone shaped and it had avacado in it, and that was really good too, although I didn't like the raw seaweed as much as I did when it was in the salad. The next I tried was spinach sushi, which was just alright, followed by avacado sushi with celery, leek and it was wrapped in tofu. lt me just tell you this... *drools all over self* BEST. SUSHI. EVAR!!! Definitely my favorite. The last one had something grey in it, and lots of celery. My dad tried it and said it was good, so I gave it a chance. I asked what it was before I put it in my mouth, and my dad said he didn't know, so I shrugged and ate it. It was very tasty! But then, I asked what it really was, because I know my dad, and when he says he doesn't know whats in an item of food, he is just lying.
dad: you really want to know?
me: yes...
dad: ..................eel
me: O_O *passes out right at the table and then falls off chair*
Alright, I actually didn't pass out or fall out of my chair, but I nearly cried. I ate eel, and I liked it! poor eel!!! *cuddles with an electric eel* I'm sorry! I'm sorry!!!.. *clutches eel close to chest and runs off cliff* I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!
Fan Fiction Quotes
Setting::: February 21st, 2004 - 11:15 pm
Mood::: sleeeeepy, and I ate waaay to many crackers
Backround Music::: Onpu no Tegami - Miyavi and Ares - Gackt
SAM: What happened to the magic, Mr. Frodo? We used to stay up till dawn, laughing, talking, sharing..
HENNETH ANNUN
FARAMIR: So, who are you, exactly?
FRODO: I'm Frodo. This is Sam.
FARAMIR: Your...image consultant?
SAM: His gardener.
FARAMIR: Ohh, like in a 'Lady Chatterley's Lover' kind of way?
SAM: Exactly.
FRODO: Righ-What??
-Ten Minute Two Towers
“Sickle for your thoughts,” Harry whispered with a shaky smile as the gargoyle hopped back into place. Ron just shook his head, releasing a pained laugh and squeezing his eyes shut.
“I have the worst timed sex life ever.”
Harry tried not to grimace. Now, that was one thing he didn’t want to know. He wanted his virtual sickle back and with interest.
-I'm not in denial
Kicked Down Again
Setting::: February 20th, 2004 - 11:12 pm
Mood::: upset
Backround Music::: Miyavi
why is it... that whenever my mom talks to me, no matter what she says, even if its 'i love you' makes me feel like shit, that I don't want to listen to her anymore, and upsets me of to the point of tears. Why is that she always has to talk to me when I'm feeling my best, and beats the shit out of my motivated self and makes me want to give up and not try at all. I don't understand this- I feel like such a terrible person, I don't feel this way with anyone else. But I've.. I've always gotten this feeling. For a while now, just looking at my mother starts this small spark of anger inside of me. No one deserves to be disliked for no reason.
I think.. its because she tries to make excuses and reasons to explain why I act so different. I think... its because she preaches about love and forgiveness, and then threatens me and refuses to ever forgive my dad.
This is the one side of myself that is the most disgusting and shameful.
Transforming Negatives
Setting::: February 20th, 2004 - 8:31 pm
Mood::: Sleep-ish-ness
Backround Music::: The Luckiest - Ben Folds
Well, I can't say that I didn't try. And actually, Im feeling a little better, and I'm proud of myself for not becomming too discouraged. This is how it is, I'm failing many of my classes, and not just borderline failing, way-under-give-up-all-hope-suicide-is-your-only-option failing. I'm _very_ grounded, and... my parents decided to do the worst possible thing- my computer time is limited to only.... an hour. Cutting down more than half of a day to an hour. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself, I feel like they took away my reason to live, and now that I think about it, thats very pathetic. I realize that I'm a nerd, and I love being a nerd, but since I don't go out, they had nothing else to take away. I love having no life.
Reasons for going on the computer:
1. Talking to soupy
2. Reading manga
3. Watching anime
4. This site
5. Smut
What am I going to do with only an hour for smut?!
I've decided. I'm going to make good use out of all the extra time I will now have. Everyone around me has repeatedly told me outright how much I suck. I wake up and go to bed to those words. Well you know what? I don't freaking suck. I'm not stupid, I'm just an incredibly lazy person who thoroughly enjoys procrastinating. Just watch what happens when I try.
Welcome to Existance
Setting::: February 15th, 2004 - 5:50 pm
Mood::: Mellow
Backround Music::: I Dare you to move - Switchfoot
this is what my house looks like upside down.
I feel like I've only just discovered how much there really is do here. I want to change, a little unsure how to go about doing so, but I'm going to try. I want to give it my all. I'm going to move. I'm going to be even happier.
Welcome to the fall out,
Welcome to existance,
Redemption is here, redemption is here,
Between who you are and who you could be,
Between how it is and how it should be
I dare you to move,
I dare you to move,
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor,
I dare you to move,
I dare you to move
Like today never happened,
today never happened...
Maybe redemption has stories to tell,
Maybe forgivness is right where you fell,
Where can you run to escape from yourself
Where are you gonna go? Where are you gonna go?
Salvation is here...
-Switchfoot
The Diary of a Schitzophrenic - link stolen from Zen.
February 17th, 2004
Time::: 5:50 pm
Mood::: Mellow
Listening to::: The Luckiest - Ben Folds
alrights, heres some kairos pictures I took on the last day with the camera phone.
my small group doing looking up stuff and a shot of alex's butt, thanks to tim for taking that picture.
Alex and Tim doing gay impersonations while reading the bible, haha.
My leader, Moe, and the rest of the girls in my group after laughing really hard.
Everyone signing eachothers posters and courtney dancing
What people wrote on my poster (front and back) This is something that I'll keep forever.
February 17th, 2004
Time::: 3:44 pm
Mood::: Super Smiley
Listening to::: English Sailor Moon Techno Remix
Weee! So much to update on! Okay, lesse, I saw RotK and went on Kairos!
RotK: funnest. school fieldtrip. EVER!!! The whole junior class went to the theater and before the movie even started we were having fun throwing popcorn ( and the boxes) at eachother. Then, the Harry Potter PoA trailer came on and half of the theater went wild. All of us Harry potter fangirls started screaming with glee and shouting things at the screen. I screamed out "I LOVE YOU DRACO!!!" and other such things. It was good fun! Then the movie came on and holy crap. If Frodo and sam aren't gay together, then I don't know what gay is ... and well, trust me, I do. Oh, and Pippin and Merry are gay together as well. Hahaha, anyways, I had fun pointing out ALL of the particuarly gay moments to Kaitlin ("NO! Its all about the baby making!") and drooling over legolas. *nods* *nods* Anyways, despite all the UST (unspoken sexual tension: think back to my post about moonchild) between frodo and sam
it was a REALLY good movie. Lots of people complained about length, but I honestly wouldn't have minded if it were longer.
Kairos: Well, since its kind of a secret, I can't say much about it here, but It was the most amazing and unique time of my entire life. I became friends with a WHOLE bunch of people, cried a lot (yay for crying!), got to know myself even better, and had a lot of fun. 2 people there really surprised me and made me so very happy. During a time where we each stood up one by one and talked about a time where we experienced a 'sacremental moment', courtney stood up and told everyone that during a certain terrible time in her life, she got online and the only person online was me, and that it made her so happy that I was there for her. It made me cry and she gave me a giant hug after that. ^_^. Then later on one of the older guys came up to me and said "Hi, I'm Tommy, and I really wanted to meet you" and then gave me the biggest hug. Me at that time = super giddy.
February 9th, 2004
Time::: past 10
Mood::: better
Listening to::: nothing still
Well, I have to admit, I do feel better. I layed down for a little and just stared up at the most wonderous of god's creations: Naked Gackt. *laughs at self* I have a feeling I won't be getting any sleep tonight, but thats alright with me. I'm thinking i'll just sacrifice 3rd period painting and go down to the nurses to sleep, and then stay during lunch. The only problem that remains is.... how do I stop myself from falling asleep during studying?
Hehe, my manga business is booming, and one of my customers paid in pocky ^_^ ...strawberry pocky... my favorite... *drools all over keyboard*
Dead on!! ...well, except for the memory and learns easily part. I am: MAPLE TREE (Independent) - no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress. What are you?
February 9th, 2004
Time::: ?
Mood::: who knows
Listening to::: nothing
I'm so tired. Not the sleepy kind of tired though. Its been a long day, and I still haven't started studying for 3 major tests tommarow. Im going on Kairos this weekend, but I'm not so sure i'm up for it now. All I want to do is sleep the rest of the weekend away and just have quiet time to myself. Heh, I sound like an old women. Well, who cares. *sighs* I'm such a bitch. What I really need is a good SARK book and a fruits basket dvd. Too bad I don't have either of those at the moment. All I have to rely on is ice cream, and for once, it doesn't sound that appealing. Tommarow I'll be like Tohru. Augh, I really want to punch my brother in the face.
February 8th, 2004
Time::: 11:10
Mood::: Softly smiling
Listening to::: No Such Thing- John Mayer
Heeee, new layout! I love it so much! I think it is my favorite so far.. hehe, its just so me! ^-^ Haha, I'm so happy right now. I've been reading SARK and watching fruits basket- it doesn't get any better than that. enjoy!
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what's your cowboy bebop theme song?
OOOHHH!!! I like I like I like!!
February 4th, 2004
Time::: ??
Mood::: SUPER FANGIRL GIDDY
Listening to::: Come Clean – Hilary Duff
Hehe, well, hi! Its been a while since I’ve updated, but I’ve been super busy! I’ve made a new website, and I’ve been in Colorado and at the Ohayocon! Speaking of which, I owe a report! And I know its late but hey! Better late then never!!
(WARNING: very long and full of giddy, unnecessary fangirl ramblings)
OHAYOCON 2004
After a half an hour of searching for XBox wires, Ashley, John, Tyler and I set out for Columbus, Ohio. John, Bunny and I occupied ourselves by playing halo and listening to techno and to John's ‘bus teacher joke’. Because of the bad weather and idiot drivers, it, like last year, took longer than expected to get there. When we finally made it, I was in shock. The hotel was bigger than I thought it would be, and it was just like a mall inside! Huge, and with lots of gay artwork! We checked in and headed up to our room on the 15th floor and then went down to the first floor to eat. Yay for subway! While eating, we all discussed what we wanted to do and go see, and then finally headed to the second floor upstairs to check things out.
It was so exciting! A lot of people had already dressed up and it was fun to just people watch! We checked out the artist alley and I got this amazing picture of Sora from Kingdom Hearts and Bunny got a Setsuna picture from Angel Sanctuary. I also saw someone else with my NINJ4 hoodie on!! While waiting for our show to come on, we had seen tons of people wearing carboard signs with string around their neck that said ‘zombie’, and so I stopped a guy who was wearing one and asked him about it. He said that it was for people who were much to lazy and it was a lot cheaper than making costumes, and then gave me one! I wore it proudly!! Finally, Jungle wa Itsumo Hale Nochi Guu came on and I dragged everyone to see it! ^-^ We watched the first four episodes of the ova and it was hilarious; Everyone was laughing their asses off! (and the whole cast of naruto watched it with us!) Pretty much after more aimless wandering we headed upstairs for the night. Ashley and John slept on the bed together and I (attempted) to sleep in a chair next to Tyler on the floor- I didn’t want him by himself!
The next day… was the most amazing day.. EVER!!! We woke up, and immediately headed down to the Dealers room. ^____^ SO. MUCH. STUFF!!!!!!! After the first 5 minutes I had blown 60 dollars on plushies!! I got a *KYAAA* Sasuke and Naruto plushie, along with a GIANT Luffy (which chopper on his head!) plushie! I was going to get a Kakashi plushie, but it was 29$! After some more wandering, I eventually found my way over to…yes… a DOUJINSHI STORE!! I homed in on a box FULL of yaoi doujinshi. The guy selling the stuff (who named ashley 'harry potter girl' because she bought ALL of their Harry Potter doujin) kept recommending me stuff and… I took ALL of his recommendations. I ended up with 3 naruto doujin, 2 one piece doujin, and two FF7 Doujin (cloud on cloud… *drools*) and also a yuu yuu hakusho doujin (yay for hiei and kurama!) Then, I made my way over to the yuri doujin box, and picked out two fruits basket doujin. They wouldn’t take my credit card, and so the NICEST guy next to me (and he had a cool hat..and apparently, reminded me of soupy) offered to pay for them for me. I flatly refused and after 10 minutes of arguing, he somehow ended up getting them for me. I most certainly glomped him after that. Then, I met Ashley at a J-rock store. *_*. THEY HAD GACKT POSTERS AND A HYDE SHIRT!!!! Not to mention, the guy selling the stuff was a BEAUTIFUL piece of work. He was Japanese and had spiky, colorful hair. *drools all over self* Anyways, I got a... NAKED GACKT POSTER *passes out and dies* And Also, a mini poster of a GOREGOUS turquoise-colored-hair bishie whos name I cannot remember for the life of me. Apparently, he is coming to the US to have a concert in Chicago during March!! I WANT TO GO!!! But I just can’t remember his name... ;_;. They also had Gackt Moonchild posters there, but I did not have enough money left. Bunny and I then traveled over to another table where we both got another (GIANT) Gackt poster (*pees self*) and I also got a poster of the Tokyo Mew Mew girls (with Ichigo in a tight bunny outfit ..*humps*) Now I was completely broke (really, I came in there with 120$ and came out with only spare change), in which I then realized that *gasp* I had no money for food!! But luckily, I reached into my pocket and found left over money my dad gave me for dinner last night and enough for a camera. So, we were saved. After that I forced myself to leave and the 4 of us met for lunch.
After that, (besides meeting Donnell and Tyler bidding mass amounts of money on an advent children poster -_- ) we began to wait for the cosplay. Oh, also at this point I had put my schoolgirl outfit on (after some intense self debate because the skirt was so short, but I just really really wanted to dress up [note: it was weird having people ask me to take my picture! >_<]) All of us were super excited because they cosplay the year before had been SO MUCH FUN and FRUCKING HILARIOUS (remember the streetfighter skit? *pees pants*) . After waiting HOURS we finally got seats in the first seats in the front row all the way to the right. Looking back now, some of the skits were actually rather funny, but at the time, I was pissed because the host was gay (in the bad way) (he made inuyasha jokes and couldn’t even pronounce the characters names). There was a good skit about a millionaire parody, a really creative one where tons of shuichis (from gravition) got on stage and did a parody of eminems song (will the real shuichi please stand up) and a funny trigun one. OH! Hehehehe, and there was also a naruto one that I enjoyed! When Sasuke got on stage the WHOLE congregation of fangirls started squealing, screaming and cheering, ahaha, it was great! But during the whole cosplay, it was the first time in my life where I was in the audience and screaming things at the stage. (“Gay Sex!” & “FUCK EACHOTHER” to my favorite yaoi couples and “YOU SUCK” to the terrible host). We ended up leaving while the judges were doing their thing because the host was incredibly lame. Outside of the ballroom, going down the escalators, two guys were asking for glomps! So obviously, I attacked at full force! So much fun!! Then the 4 of us went to eat at Max and Ermas. (BAN AND GINJI FROM GETBACKERS WERE SITTING RIGHT BEHIND US! *Dirty thoughts*)
Then, it was time for the best part of the entire trip. The Blood Concert. We got their kind of early and had to wait in line, and then made it up to about the 8th line back from the stage. Unknowing as to what to expect, the band came out on stage and my first impression was.. O_O... Dear lord, all the band members were the epitome of beauty. I spent my ENTIRE roll of film on the band (mainly, takeshi, the lead singer). And what made me happy was that Tyler seemed to enjoy it too! Yay! Hehehe, about halfway through, Tyler and John left Bunny and I to our own accord, and we made it up to right behind the people who were at the bar (RIGHT infront of Takeshi). The best part: I touched Taichi!!! Hahaha, I know I sound gay when I say that, but who fucking cares. On stage, he put a blood capsule in his mouth and let it drip and smear all over his face, and then he came down to the crowd and I got to touch him! The guy next to me got blood all over his hands, and so Ashley and I wiped it on ours, and then refused to wash that hand ever again. God I love gothy stuff like that (who knew?!!?) . OH!! Blood also played a gackt song!!! I’m pretty sure it was U+K Marmalade (dancing cats!) and the whole crowd sang along!!
After the concert I borrowed 40 bucks got tons of blood merch. (a poster! And all their cds!!) (Can you tell what an obsessive fangirl yet?), and bunny and I attended the second best part of the con! ANIME HELL! Ahaha, they had some of the funniest clips there. My all time favorites were most certainly the G.I. Joe parodies (you can find some of them at ebaums world for download!) happy tree friends, and a few drug and sex clips. (The girl taking acid and then thinking she murdered her hotdog >_>) and you can’t forget Heino! Hehehe. After that we moseyed upstairs and couldn’t figure out exactly who was on the bed, and if there was infact, a sleeping tyler on the floor (I stepped on top of him to make sure). ^_^ Then after giving up searching for my pants (I was in a skirt) I slept on the floor next to tyler *giggles*.
The next day I woke up and rolled right ontop of Tyler (whoops!) and then packed and left right away (much to my sadness) because of the oncoming snowstorm. I didn’t want to leave (not only because we’d be missing the blood autograph signing -_-), but because actually, it was a place where I felt I really really belonged. I have never felt so much apart of a huge, welcoming group before, and it made me the happiest. Everyone there was so nice (the guy offering to pay for my hentai XD), and so crazy (the girls from di gi charat and the cast of one piece doing the Macarena randomly in the middle of the hall), and so happy (free hugs and glomping)! It felt like home, and it was the best time of my life. I can’t wait for next years con!!!!
(oh, and apparently, on Sunday we missed a kissing booth that someone set up. You payed 75 cents for either two girls to make out or two guys to make out! And then you got a free hug for your purchase! ;_;)
