Febuary 17, 2002
Time::::4:47 p.m.
Mood::: bored
Listening to:::Random Sublime Songs
Augh, it seems as if this site needs a new layout.
God, its like my past is haunting me. I'm turning into my old self and its making me mad. I keep forgeting about everything I have to be happy about, yada yada yada. I don't even feel like posting here right now..so why am I? *click*
Febuary 11, 2002
Time::::3:26 p.m.
Mood::: dead
Listening to:::---
Wow. Today was not fun. My body hurts so bad, I am sick again, with somehting different this time. I swear, I have 7 different sicknesses all at once, and I can't miss any more school. Plus I haven't been sleeping lately, and the little sleep that I got yesterday, I had a terrible nightmare. It was so bad I woke up shaking and crying, but I know excactly what it meant, at least, I think I do. Anyways, I barely have any homework, just to study and 3 problems in Chemistry, but all I am planing on doing is sleeping. I need it. Everyone said I looked terrible today. *passes out*
Febuary 10, 2002
Time::::5:30 p.m.
Mood::: overly sleepy
Listening to:::---
Augh, I haven't been sleeping lately, and it finally caught up to me today. I was hyper in the morning, then around gym, I was sleepy, and then I was dead tierd. Oh! But guess what! I saw Jake for the first time since...3 weeks maybe? Annyways, even though it was only for a second, it made me really happy. ^_^
OH! AND HERE IS OLI'S SITE! CHECK IT OUT!!!
Febuary 9, 2002
Time:::9:39 p.m.
Mood::: stuffy!
Listening to:::Tohru sings the intro to Fruits Basket
Gaah, i'm still sick, but i'm happy. I forgot to study for the map quiz, but I did all my homework on Saturday, did service work this morning, got valentines from preschoolers, made a website for Oli (which by the way, i'm very proud of!) and had fun talking to Soupy Today. Oh! also this moring, I finished I My Me! Strawberry Eggs! And it ws good.. but I was so mad that *ENDING SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!!!* .... Kuzuha didn't go with Fukae! Hahaha, that upset me for some reason, but oh well. And Also! I also finished Mahoromatic today too! Hehehe, it was really eechi, but hilarious and cute nonetheless.
But right now.. augh.. I feel like I am missing something! And I don't know what it is! Hmm, I really want to compile a list of my top favorite animes. That should be hard.... D'OH!! and I still have to start making my costume for the Colossal Con on March 14th! *rips out hair*
January 29, 2002
Time:::12:25 p.m.
Mood::: eh?
Listening to:::---
Woo.. I leave today, but I feel so crappy that im not that excited. We didn't have school (AGAIN!) today, so I feel a little more relived. Blah, I don't have anything else to say.
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January 27, 2002
Time:::11:39 a.m.
Mood::: peaceful
Listening to:::Breezy- FF8 OST
I had a terrible moring, and to top it all off, there wasn't any school because it was -13 degrees outside. Normally This would be a good thing, but I lost sleep last night trying to finish off all my homework, and my mom told me that I didn't have a ride to school, so we got into a huge fight over priorities, and I had to call my dad to take me. Turns out, noone was there *sigh.* Well of course I was in a bad mood, so watched some of Now and Then, Here and there, and I didn't have the next episode, so I watched Spirited Away. That was an amazing movie, I cried twice! It was so good I just can't get over it!! EVERYONE NEEDS TO SEE THIS MOVIE!!! I want to show it to the world!! -_-;; ...heh.. I really have no idea what to do with the rest of my day, but I want it to be something productive. Maybe I will go study..yep, thats what I'll do! Hehe, I'll show everyone that I can get good grades, just you wait!!!
January 24, 2002
Time:::4:25 p.m.
Mood::: ?_? @_@
Listening to:::Ayumi Hamasaki- Evolution (From the .Hack Soundtrack)
Wow.. I just finished .Hack today, and it was amazing!!! The music was amazing!!! The World was amazing!! Everything was amazing!! Haha, now i'm currently on the OVA's, just waiting for the last one to download now. But while I was waiting, I watch THE MOST ON CRACK ANIME SHOW EVER. I can't even begin to explain how messed up it was, but dammit, it was the most fucking hilarious show I've ever seen. I guess it was the OVA's for Excel Saga, and its not hentai! >_> Haha, well, I found some pictures JUST TO SHOW YOU FURTHER HOW CRAZY IT IS!!! 
January 18, 2002
Time:::??? p.m.
Mood::: sick!?
Listening to:::Some pretty Fruits Basket song
Woo, nothing happening this week- I might do something fun with ashley today, hehe, I'm going to force her to watch fruits basket! *evil gleam in eyes* muahahaha. OH!!! hehe, i went to the mall on friday and bought tons of anime/manga stuffs!!! *is so happy* but AUGH!! I just need the LAST love hina manga to finish it, and I can't find a place to buy it ANYWHERE!!! *goes crazah*
January 16, 2002
Time:::8:08 p.m.
Mood::: Revived!
Listening to:::Revolution- Revolutionary Girl Utena
I've finally realized something important today! I'm gonna do my best to change everything! Even though i'm only halfway ou of my coffin, I feel like i've just done something huge! I can't wait for tommarow, and the next day, I feel like I've just taken off my blindfold and I'm just so happy! I can't even describe it, but I want to share it with everyone else!
January 12, 2002
Time:::6:16 p.m.
Mood::: very content ^-^
Listening to:::Phantom of the opera techno... muahaha
Hehehe. I would just like to say 3 things.... BEST. WEEKEND. EVAR!!!! I just got back earlier today from the Ohayocon anime/manga/videogame convention, and it was just amazing! The people were just like me/ashley/tiffany and everyone was so cool!! plus, I had a ton of fun with melissa, got TONS of new anime stuffs (3 plushies, a folder, 2 pins, 6 movies, a manga, and a new bookbag!!!!) Hehe, and last night, ashley was to tierd to go out after the cosplaying and so tiff and I went to the dance, met CLOUD. (and yes, by cloud, I mean, CLOUD STRIFE!!!!) and he *tried* to teach us how to dance to techno. Big failure, hehe. Then we ended up sliding around the tile in our socks and then hanging around the pool just talking with him until around 5:30 in the morning. That kid actually taught me a lot about life, even though I didn't realize it at first. Hehe god I could go on for HOURS about all the fun stuff we did at the convention, but I don't really feel like typing it all out. I can't wait until the next con!! OH!!! and we met Donell (sp?) (the change bitch that quit at Walsh) and he was a dealer selling anime merch, I love that guy!! Hes so nice! And he said he would be at the con up in cleveland, so hopefully I meet him again there (along with jerry [a.k.a. cloud] hehe). I LOVE YOU LIFE!!!!
January 6, 2002
Time:::10:32 p.m.
Mood::: depressed..sort of..
Listening to:::Colorblind- Counting Crows
I guess not everyone has it all together. I myself, am about to break. School started, things happened, and my mom just came to me.. crying. I didn't know what to say to her, not a damn thing came out of my mouth. I feel like the biggest piece of shit in the world. I kept telling her, "Go for it mom! Everything will turn out okay in the end!" And it all just ..crashed. If it wasn't for me, she would have been okay. I always fuck things up. I get myself into inescapeable trouble, and theres not a single way to deal with it. .. I don't want to sleep tonight. not at all... I think I will just have some coffee, go up to the attic and wait for the sunrise. That always calms me, but it makes me think about everything I don't want to think about. For what reason do I always hurt myself? The end results are never worth it... maybe I should call ashley, but.. I don't think she would understand. No one, truely, understands me.
December 25, 2002
Time:::11:03 p.m.
Mood::: overly bored
Listening to:::David Grey- Please forgive me
Augh, this song always makes me think about *ahem* a certain person that I don't particuarly want to think about. So why am I listining to it, you ask? Well johnny, thats because I have nothing else to do right now. I kind of got motion sickness from playing Jet Set radio Future. Oh yeah, well, I guess I could start packing, but I just don't wanna. I honestly feel like sitting in one spot for 3 hours without moving. Crazah, I tell you. Ah yes, I forgot to mention that I'm leaving for a wedding in new york tommarow morning. *cries* 8 Hour Drive=Tons of not fun. its gonna suck, i'm really not looking forward to it at all. Although, my cousin will be there at the wedding, so that will make up for some of it, I guess. Hes so much fun to hang out with. That lucky ******* is also going to the bahamas right after the wedding. *cries* *is actually jelous*
December 25, 2002
Time:::10:59 p.m.
Mood::: Loving!! ^___^
Listening to:::Momiji's Onsen song, from Fruits basket
*hugs you so tightly you pop* hehehehehe, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! Today has been such a great day!! I started with two new animes, and they are reaallllllyyyy great! The first one is Revolutionary Girl Utena, and the other one is One Piece. Hehehehe, and I didn't even get what I asked for for christmas, but Its okay!!! BECAUSE I GOT 15 PAIRS OF PAJAMA PANTS!!!! *hugs enormous pile of pjs* tee hehehehe. And what makes it even better is, I just watched my two favorite episodes of Fruits Basket, and The Love Hina Christmas Special. They made me so happy, so theres no room for me to piss and moan about my misfourtunes! Life is so great!! Feh, I was actually really mad at myself this morning, because I was dissapointed. :P How selfish!! Theres no need to think like that!! Heh heh heh, now, I wonder what i'm going to do for new years?
December 24, 2002
Time:::1:20 p.m.
Mood::: Bored :\
Listening to:::Main theme of Star Ocen EX
*puts hand next to mouth* Oh ho ho ho ho ho. >_< I LOVE doing that!!! hehehe I had tons of fun last night! I went to ashleys and she gave me 4 XMAS PRESENTS!!! I got a Invader Zim charm bracelet and giant poster, the first Love Hina Manga, and a SAMEWISE GAMGEE FROM LOTR ACTION FIGURE!!! Hehehehehehe, and sam comes with a frying pan and karate chop action, so allll night long I got into the habit of having sam him a plastic skeleton in the face with a frying pan. Extreeme Entertainment!!! Hehehe, she also showed me the anime of Star Ocen EX and Hikaru no Go. They were both hilarious! Oh! And speaking of anime, I finished Pretear this morning!!! And yes, once again, I cried!! AUGH
*melts* I'm such a softie!! heheheh, I am OH SO EXCITED for tommarrow and tonight! Dance Dance Revolution and Halo BABEEE!! -_- gomen nasai. EH! and I also have found myself saying little phrases in Japaneese instead of English! >_> Nobody('cept for ashley) Has any idea what i'm talking about. EEP! My house almost burnt down last night, and it was my fault! *drools*
December 23, 2002
Time:::12:55 p.m.
Mood::: Happy ^_^
Listening to:::Main theme of Fruits Basket
lets stay together... always. ^_^ I just finished the Fruits Basket series, and I was crying so hard! Ayah, I have become so emotional latley! Demo, they were happy tears, so its okay! Hehe, like I've said before one zillion times, I learned so much from it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I made a promise to myself, from now on, I will always be kind to everyone, and really mean it! I want to love the whole world!!! Really I do! I have found my own, true happiness, and I want to help others find it too! That may sound naive, but thats what I want to do!
December 22, 2002
Time:::1:05 p.m.
Mood::: cheerful
Listening to:::Ritsuko Okazaki- Fruits Basket song
*sigh* I woke up and watched to episode of 16 of Fruits Basket. I swear, I wish I could marry that show. Tee hee! I have learned so much from it, about life, about happiness, and about strength. *giggles* im in such a peaceful mood right now. My neko-chan (Chadwinn, my kitty) is sleeping in my lap, and hes so warm! Heh, although both my legs are asleep, and hes kinda heavy, its okay! ^^ Heh, oh yeah! And jake imed me, and he said that he liked my present. Yokata(im glad)(sp?) I was really worried that he wouldn't like it for somereason. I wonder why I worried so much? Hehe, guess what! I get 100 bucks today, and you know what I'm gonna buy with it? I really really really want to buy one of those square tables, that are really low to the ground, and have electric blankets that hand over the edges. I've seen them in a bunch of animes, and they look ideal for studying! Hehe, geek! *points to self*
December 20, 2002
Time:::7:41 p.m.
Mood::: so very happy
Listening to:::Chrono Cross End Song
Wow.. I couldn't be in a happier mood right now. Its not hyperactive, happy eaither. I just am so happy with life. I got home from our last day of school (we are on break now) and I watched all the Fruits Basket episodes I downloaded, and I swear, except for 3, all of the episodes made me teary-eyed. My eyes were watering because I was so happy, those episodes seriously just filled me with "love and peace" as Vash would say. After that, I ran around our (empty) house filled with giddy excitement, saying random things, and then laughing some more. What a loser I must have looked like, but oh well, its okay. If you don't understand what im feeling right now, let me just say this: I am so happy, studying seems like a great idea. "Oh how I wish I could fly"
December 19, 2002
Time:::6:16 p.m.
Mood::: aggrivated
Listening to:::Tank!- Cowboy Bebop soundtrack
Jesus H Christ. This is sucking majorly!!! *shakes fist at online websites* AUGH! half of my orders STILL haven't came in the mail yet!!! And they were supposed to come today so I could still get them to all my friends as Xmas presents by tommarow!!! UNGH! *cries* Well, they will just have to wait I guess? *Is a bad friend* So stressful... oh, and Jakes present, sheesh! you think they could screw me over a little more, eh!? I have only PART of his, so I am going to have to give him a half-ass present! *hates self even more* what am I to do, what am I to do. I swear, the internet hates me. Oh yeah, and guess what, someone asked me to internet/cyber-date them, and then marry them! X_x what am I supposed to say!?! I wish soupy would get on so I could talk to him. *shoots christmas in the leg*
December 18, 2002
Time:::4:39 p.m.
Mood::: happy
Listening to:::The Scientist- Coldplay
My eyes are still glassy, and streaks on my face are dry from where the tears fell. My nose is still a bit runny, and right now, I just want to be surrounded by people I love. I really hope they know how much they mean to me. I'm so happy that they are all in my life. I hate how everyday I take them and so much more for granted. "Nobody said it was easy. Nobody said it was so hard" I really should speak up.
December 17, 2002
Time:::5:08 p.m.
Mood::: dissapointed
Listening to:::---
...I don't think today could have sucked anymore. I went to art club today, because it counts as service work, and then I realize that i'm not allowed to be there, because I am on acedemic probation. I lied to my dad to get out of going with my grandparents to see the Rokets.I told him I had three tests to study for. I don't have any. And whats worse, is that I forgot to bring home my binders. So I have absolutley nothing to even pretend to study off off. I feel so guilty. To add to the list, I watched two two more episodes of Ayashi no Ceres, and I don't think I could have cried harder. That was probably the saddest episode I've ever seen. Its like someone punches you in the stomach, stabs you in the chest, and rips off your arm, just because. God, I want this week to end. And its only tuesday. Oh yeah, and two more things. I just found out that my cousin ISN'T going to come with me to colorado in feburary. We could have had a blast. I don't even want to go now. The other thing is that the ****ing website I ordered stuff off of only sent me half of my order, and I can't get through to them to find out what happened. Jakes, Ashleys, and soupys presents didn't come. I don't know what I'm going to do, but pray to God that it comes in these next few days, before friday. I seriously just want to cry right now, I can't handle anything more.
December 14, 2002
Time:::8:33 p.m.
Mood::: tierd
Listening to:::Clocks- Coldplay
Today was a half busy, half boring day. This morning I left with my cousin and went xmas shopping for my mom and dad. I finished my dad, but i still have to go out and get stuff with my mom. I also bought a dress for the my half-cousins wedding. Its sort of mideival/gothic looking, but different. pretty I guess. Heh, we also got our picture taken with santa.. and yeah, i was sexually harassed by santa. ah well. im bored. I can't wait until Adult swim is on...oh yeah, and speaking of anime, I finished Serial Experiments: Lain today, it really made me think...it was a matrix/ghost in the shell/akira type movies. good stuff I tell ya.
December 12, 2002
Time:::9:15 p.m.
Mood::: ARG...EH?
Crazah Crazah Crazah! Thats how I feel. I've been getting ALL of my homework done lately! *pats self on the back* I feel so proud! Heh, so I have had time to watch lots and lots of anime! I finished Love hina, and btw, THE LAST EPISODE PISSED ME OFFF!!!! And I Finished Trigun! (made me cry), I'm on ep 6 of Serial Experiments Lain (thats scary shit I tell ya!), and I'm on Episode 4 of Ayashi no Ceres (I like!!!*____*). Hehehe *stamps the word: LOSER on forehead*. God, I'm in an odd mood. Oh! Hehe, and I've made a new habit of tackling Robbie in the hall! wooo!!! And one more thing, my cousin invited me to go with him to.. *thinks* okay, I can't remember where over Xmas vacation, but it sounds like it will be tons of fun! LUVIES!!!! *waves*
December 08, 2002
Time:::12:55 p.m.
Mood::: ow..
Listening to:::Suna no Hoshi- from Trigun
My body hurts.. I have been bruised and damaged! T.T but thats okay. Last night wasn't as fun as I thought it would be, some of the bands sucked, lots of hott guys there though. Trendy was amazing, but they had to stop in the middle of their set because some crowdsufer fell on his neck and wasn't moving, except he said that he wantted his ciggarettes.. it was scary. But, after trendy played, things were very uneventful. I found myself thinking more about life and such that I have before. I came to a few conclusions too.. very strange indeed. After that, I slept at courtneys last night, so I didn't get to watch adult swim. depressing
December 07, 2002
Time:::10:54 p.m.
Mood::: yeahah!
Listening to:::Dragonfly- song from Dance Dance Revolution
yesterday was TONS of fun! even though my grades a sucking arse, im in a scrumtrulescent (made up word from snl) mood! Hahaha yesterday I payed the MOST VICIOUS game of capture the flag in halo EVER. 56 kills by cone(r)! (thats me!) Heh, even though that was 3rd place cause matt and john both got 60/65 kills respectivly, and ashley kicked ass too! gya ha ha ha ha ha I talked to ashley on the phone for (what seemed like) 2 hours last night, and it was one of the best conversations! of course, it was still extremly random. Augh, GUESS WHAT!?!?! I might actually get off my lazy butt and get out tonight!! Trendy will be headlining Punk fest at the Odeon tonight!!! And whats even better is.. all of my friends are going to be there!! Finally!!! Hahaha, For xmas, besides an xbox, I want dance dance revolution!!! No.. not for the daning, for the songs!!! hahahahahahahahahaha *evil laughter*
December 04, 2002
Time:::7:22 p.m.
Mood::: odd
Listening to:::Blue and yellow- the used
I'm almost done with trigun... just one more episode... *sighs* today was not a good day.. I almost felt forced into happiness.. and I hate it when people ask, whats wrong? Because I'm not entirely sure myself. I kind of felt broken, just not all together, you know? All I wanted was to be alone, but that of course is not possible when your at school. I just want space to myself and time to think... and I think I've fallen again.. But, I've had this bad feeling even since I've gotten home, I wish I knew what it meant.
December 02, 2002
Time:::1:01 a.m.
Mood::: happy and calm
Listening to:::---
hehe, time to start homeworks! ^_^ Lesse here, I have sucessfully slacked off all weekend, played FFX up until sin, had ashley sleep over on one night, had thanksgiving dinner twice, and *dun dun dun dun!* Got a new computer! Augh, I could ramble on and on about how much I love this baby! yet.. I still have to come up with a kick arse name for it.. I'd love some suggestions! Ah yes, and I'm in the process of downloading Neon Genesis Evanglion and Trigun! They're both soooo amazing!!! Everyone should download it... *smiles* hmm.. do de do de do ah yes, I have 3 more days to buy tickets for the Ohayocon in January. I already got the hotel room! *is reallllly excited* hehehe, Its going to be soo much fun! A whole 3 days of anime and video games! *smile widens* Heh.. oh, and one last thing!! Soupy and I are giving guided horseback tours! Hehe, come join! :P I love being a dumbass ^_^
November 27, 2002
Time:::1:42 p.m.
Mood::: exhausted
Listening to:::Ningyo Hime- Chobits soundtrack
Augh, I just finished setting up for thanksgiving dinner tommarow night, and what a workout that was! Hah, I'm so weak from being completly lethargic. ...*sigh* I should be at shool right now, but my computer crashd yesertday and so I couldn't finish my lab report. I'm actually pretty pissed cause I wasted my free-day. I don't even feel like playing in the snow today (it snowed probably 3 inches last night!). And tonight I go to my dads, where I will F I N A L L Y order christmas presents online. I seem to have the worst habit of putting everything into my cart and then I sign off, making it impossible to buy what I wanted. It hapens EVERY TIME. ah well, thats what I get for being dumb. I'm outtie!
November 26, 2002
Time:::4:36 p.m.
Mood::: *gives a half-assed Woooo*
Listening to:::Tank!- Cowboy Bebop soundtrack ^^
Grr... I just got my ass severly kicked by matt and john (again) at halo! What girls! haha oh!!! ITS SNOOOWING!!! everything is soo white!!! *is in heaven* hehehe If my mom wasn't forcing me to put up christmas ornaments on the tree tonight, I would go out and make a snowman!! I mean, who doesn't like snowmans! They remind me of christmas! That reminds me.. I still have to order everyones gifts! Ungh.. T_T I'm so broke...
November 25, 2002
Time:::6:55 p.m.
Mood::: arrrg
Listening to:::Tank!- Cowboy Bebop soundtrack ^^
Eesh, I have had the wierdest day today.. first I was upset, then I was depressed, then I was hyper! I'm such a queer... for some reason.. I feel like crazy dancing! but no... I must study.. infact.. why am I not studying right now? I have a huge chemistry test tommarow!! ........*sighs* I ramble too much. I guess I'll stop here before I confuse myself further.. luvies!!
November 24, 2002
Time:::12:01 p.m.
Mood::: blaaaahhh
Listening to:::Du Hast- Rammstein
Wowww, So far I've gotten lots of positive feedback for this site! Heh.. OH! hehe, I decided to get a guest map, post on it!! (you can either click here:
, or go to my random stuffs section and click on it there) *sighs* I've done nothing productive this weekend, except sleep, watch movies, and work on my site. X_x, and I still have 3 giant tests to study for tommarow! *cries* I'm such a lazy ass... *scratches head* and I need a shower!
November 23, 2002
Time:::2:18 p.m.
Mood::: hehe ^_^
Listening to:::Simple and Clean- Utada Hikaru
WAI!!! ITS DONE!! THE LAYOUT IS DONE!!! PARTAY!!!! hehe, I'm just glad its over! That was a lot of work! The girl up top is (dark) Chii from chobits, sugoi! Heh heh heh, I know the font color is kinda dark, but oh well! -_- also, the right side is really long now... *cries* hopefully it will even out once I write more entries... *yawn* I think I'm gonna go back to bed.. g'nite everyone!! ... Enjoy!
November 23, 2002
Time:::9:30 a.m.
Mood::: *yawn*
Listening to:::Still Alone- Ayumi Hamasaki
Ohayou minna-san!!(Good morning everyone!!) hehe, I'm so excited, 'cause I haven't posted her in soooo long!! *giggles* life has been going great, and to top it all off, it snowed 1 1/2 inches last night! It was the first snow that actually stuck to the ground!!! *sighs* christmas is comming up soon, and I caaaan't wait!! I know just what im gonna get everyone, and all I'm asking for is video games and anime! *is really excited* la la la, im in such a good mood now, *gives you a hug.* I KNOW!! IM GONNA MAKE A PUT UP A NEW LAYOUT!!! WOO!!!!!
