philosophies.

RELIGION:
I'm a confirmed Roman Catholic. I went through years and years of CCD, learning about how God loves us and how Jesus died for our sins. But I was questioning back when I was 4. I would say the "Hail Mary" with my mom and she would say, "amen" and I would yell at her and say "awomen" because I found it not fair that it was always men men men... I think things went from there...So now here I am, 14 years later and I am still very much wanting female authority. By belief I am now a witch, but I have never been initiated as one, it is just something I follow. I feel that it makes more sense that the universe is run, not by one ominiscient being, but by a couple. Man and woman. Together they create life down on earth, why is it that they don't create life in the first place? I guess that it is just something that i believe in. I also feel that everyone has magic in them. There is a little spark from the sun in all of us, and if you just let yourself feel, sometimes you can touch it... The air, the water and the earth are all there too. Everything has a little bit of everything else in it, and i find that kinda neat. Like a circle encompassing everyone and everything. So in truth, noone is ever alone.

LIFE AFTER DEATH:
As for life after death, I am a firm believer in reincarnation. Scott always asks me why, and I always look at him and say, "How can you not?" For some reason I've always felt that there were things that i have done and things that I must do. Simple as that. Funny thing is, I keep meeting people that I am drawn to. Physically. I call it the Click factor. You meet, and instantly between the two of you there is a chemical reaction of some sort, linking you to one another, and you know right then , that this person will change you, and show you more about who you are and where you are going. I have met a lot of people who I have experienced this CLICK with. One of the first was Rachel and she and I have been good friends ever since. Others are; Melissa, Damian, Chris, Palmer, Katrina, Capiz, and Scott. Something inside me pulls them closer to me, and makes me want to have them be a part of my world- almost as if they had been there before...
At times I can almost see where I have been with these people. Like Capiz was my older sister at one point, almost in one of those 'Little House on the Prairie' deals. And Melissa and Rachel and I have been through some long stories and hidtories, pulling each other together.
I may be wrong in thinking some of these things. Scott is my voice of reason, wanting to find some scientific reason for WHY. So, maybe one day I'll find it...

LIFE
My take on life? We aren't living it. The moment we are born, we start to die. Everyone is so afraid of their own mortality that they go around every day hiding: avoiding hurt, avoiding pain, avoiding strenuous labor. People don't LIVE anymore. They are all waiting to die. You have to take life at face value and just be. Me? Do I do this? Not anymore. But I am trying to do it again. Trying to dig through the snow to find, once again the sunlight to frolic in. I think that waltzing around in the rain outside the capitol building was a good start. And Starbucks with Mike will be great. Thinking and coffee always help.

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