100702, 2258hr, central time

i believe good things happen all at one go. and today's my day of goodness!

i came home exhausted, as usual, from class. decided to take a nap, because my arms were aching so badly i was hoping a miracle would happen and i shall be well again when i wake up. haha. yeah, i tend to be quite an escapist.

i slept for a really long time, i dreamt that i went back to singapore, for duanwu jie, which is really strange. i dreamt that i was supposed to give my dad a surprise, so i checked myself into a hotel. yeah, my ankle was still sprained, even in the dream. but i felt happy, cheeky even. then my rented car got stolen, so i called Amex to make them get me another car, but they had some pretty good customer service so i wasn't so mad. then i remembered that my crutches and all my other belongings were still in the stolen car. and i sort of lost my bearings on what to do from then on. there was a band performance that night, and i saw a friend in the band who was so happy to see me, but i wasn't in the mood to talk. i felt bad brushing my friend off. and crappy that i lost my things. i didn't get to see my dad after all too, so i lost interest in the dream and it just stopped there. like it just "hanged".

i don't know how long i stayed in that dream, but i woke up in pain, because i guess i didn't position my foot the right way, and i forgot to take my painkillers in the afternoon. i looked at the clock, and realized that i've slept through the entire afternoon. which was bad, because my fushigi yugi tapes were overdue. "crap!" i was gonna throw myself back in bed in typical escapist style, but my dreams didn't seem all that comforting either, so i got up.

i went upstairs, and lucky i did, cos that's when the miracles happened.

i opened the fridge to get the stuff to cook, and there it was. papaya milk with bubbles! from evo! my favorite drink from my favorite [or actually the only] bubble tea place on campus. i knew it can't be chee wai's cos he doesn't like this favor, so it must be mine! at first i thought chee wai bought it for me, but i checked my email, it turns out it's from lamlap. he came in the afternoon to see me, after finding out that i've sprained my ankle, and he bought the drink for me. i guess i didn't hear the doorbell while i was sleeping, so he climbed into the house to leave the drink for me in the fridge. such a sweet sweet man. honestly, i felt so touched, because he really didn't have to do that for me. and he actually remembers the flavor i like too, he's very thoughtful.

then i checked my mailbox, and there i found two postcards for me. i seldom get even one piece of personal mail, and today there's two!

the first was from lynn, who's in germany. in complete lynn style, the postcard was no ordinary touristy postcard. but more importantly, in her sprawling words, she speaks of the sunny days in germany reminding her of our summer together two years ago. oh yes, that summer, i remember those days too, perhaps even a little too well. it's comforting that she remembers too, and that she remembers to drop me a postcard despite having so much fun in germany. we email and all, but nothing beats personal handwriting.

then the 2nd postcard is a bigger surprise still. it's from my soulmate rasee in bangkok! gosh, a total surprise. at first i wondered how she would have my address, then i realize i enrolled myself in her stories of love project. in her sweet neat handwriting, she wrote, "a soul mate is someone who has locks that fit our keys and keys to fit our locks...[snip]...our soul mate is the one who makes life come to life." honestly, i wonder how she managed to get such a beautiful message to me at a time when i needed it most. i'm speechless.

ultimately, the video tape problem got solved too, cos yufen came by to pick me up so we could go to the video store together to return them. she persuaded me to rent more, she says she can always come drive me to the video store to return them whenever i need to.

i also re-watched the clip kim sent me. it's a powerpoint presentation full of the funniest calvin and hobbes comic strips about his sadistic creations of snowmen. it's absolutely hilarious. it's like the final icing on top of the beautiful multi-layered cake my friends' goodwill have created for me, because i also remember the many funny attachments kim had sent me, to cheer me up. it's like i suddenly opened my eyes, and i realized there're so many kind people watching over me.

i do feel so blessed. it is a miracle, isn't it? all my crappy mood disppeared within the last 2 hours, from finding one pleasant surprise after another. now my physical pain doesn't seem so bad anymore. it also doesn't seem so bad that he doesn't love me, since there're plenty of others who do. plenty of others who probably deserve my love more. my friends, they're the best.

besides, wallace broke his foot, in singapore. he's probably in more pain than i am, i don't even have a cast on my foot. i really ought to stop whining. lalalala...

moo ichido, ganbatte ne, atashi!