110702, 1222hr, central time

right after i wrote yesterday's entry, i saw donny on icq, and he offered to burn me a copy of the whole vcd set of fushigi yugi, and also a copy of battle royale. such a nice guy. he says it's for my poor ankle. nonetheless the whole of me thanks him. especially now that i know i don't have to trudge all the way to the video store to get my fushigi yugi anymore. yippee!

i've not been checking my horoscope for ages now, though i'm subscribed to this daily horoscope thing that they send to my mailbox everyday, i usually just delete them as they come. but somehow, yesterday, i opened the mail. it's quite weird, to see this:

"There is absolutely no way to reclaim the past, so don't go stalking off into the night with the intention of reclaiming that long-lost love. Instead, try to figure out how they, and that time in your life, can still live inside your heart. See what you can do to construct similar circumstances so that you can manifest someone who touches you on equally profound levels. This will be much more satisfying, especially since the love you seek is probably right under your nose."

so many ways to interpret this, as all horoscope predictions go. i can't really be bothered to crack my brain over this, which i think that's a good thing too, cos i think the times when i do try to interpret horoscope advice are the times when i'm just driving myself further into the darkness of over-analysis and paranoia. but it is interesting, isn't it? taking it to mean just what i thought it meant when i first read it, it kinda matches my most recent thoughts, in trying to move forward instead of looking back. appreciate the love around me rather than pine for the unreachable. hmm. i like it.

in other news, i received an email from the program coordinator from IES Tokyo, he reminded me that i've yet to submit my resume and personal statement for the job attachment they're trying to plan for me. oooh. i don't know, as i read the email i just had this rush in my head. it's like i almost forgot that i'm going to tokyo, and wham bham i get a feeling that exciting things are just waiting to happen, once i get there. there's a sense of refreshed excitement, as well as some old feelings of fear, and it's all coming back to me. well, the most immediate reaction is that i don't even have a resume ready, so i had to write one today, which turned out pretty sad looking. uesugi-san also asked for my computer and language skills to be included in my resume. doubly doubly pathetic. oops.

but anyway, his email kinda recharged my enthusiasm in looking forward to my semester in tokyo. also reminded me that i need to hurry up and revise my japanese. until my ankle is well enough though, i doubt i'm gonna try to make it to the japanese conversation table anymore. hehe. excuses excuses, cindy you lazy girl! i realize my ankle is also my excuse for not exercising. wahahahaha...look for the silver lining, i say. the silver lining!

the doctor didn't call me back after all, guess there's nothing wrong in my xrays, and my ligaments feel quite okay. ankle is still swollen but i think the bandages and ankle protective gear have helped, it seems to be getting better. i would probably still be on crutches for the next few days, just cos doc says i need to use them for at least a week. okay, one week it is then, no more than that. i'm quite a good girl, eh?

i think i've stopped feeling sorry for myself. thank god.

so happy.