"Marrisa?" He asked on the other line.
"Yea, it's me." I said softly.
"Wow! How are you?"
"I'm fine. We're in Atlanta right now. How have you been?"
"It's been good, but it would be better if you were here to talk to." He said a little sadly.
"I'm sorry. I should have called sooner. Can you forgive?"
"Yea, don't worry about it. So who are you with anyways?"
"Well I'll tell you only if you promise not to tell a soul, okay?"
"I promise."
"Have you ever herd of the Backstreet Boys?"
"Yea, their some big teen idols or something. What about 'em?"
"Well I'm on tour with them. It's a real long story, so don't try."
"Oh.... cool." He said quietly.
"What's wrong?" I asked at his reaction.
"Nothing personal, but it dose kinda bother me that your cramped on a tour bus with 5 other guys. Ya know?"
"Oh, Justin! Don't be so silly, nothing is happening! It's just a friendship, nothing more. Nor will it ever be anymore. Their just helping me out." I told him. I knew I was lying, but then I couldn't have the heart to tell him how Nick kissed me last night. I mean I liked both of them, but I still didn't know where I stood with Nick or Justin. Truthfully, I didn't know what to do, or who to choose.
"Well okay. That feels a bit better. As much as I hate to say, I have got to go. My mother's gonna get upset with me if she found out about this long distance call. Take care alright?"
"Only if you do the same. Thanks. Bye Justin."
"Bye." I hung up the phone and thought about what I said. 'It's only a friendship, nothing more.' Was it really?
I unlocked the door and left the room to bump right into Nick.
"Oh, hey there! Change already?" I said backing off.
"Ummm... yeah." He said a little quite.
"Alright I'll get out of your way then! See you later." I turned around about to leave. "By the way, Nick." I said turning back around. "That song was real sweet." I said and walked off. I went back to my seat by the stage and watched Mandy Moore perform while the guys changed. She was so cool. A whole lot better of a role model then Sluty Queers, otherwise known as Brittany Spears. I wasn't a big fan of pop music, but I had herd my share of stories. She left the stage and the guys went on. I walked up to her to compliment her performance.
"Hey Mandy! That was a great performance! You sound a whole lot better then some of the female pop artist out there, not to mention any names....."
"Thanks! I think I know who your talking about. little miss Bitchany, am I right?" She said after drinking her water.
"Exactly! Wow, you're cooler then I thought!" I said laughing a little.
"Thanks. I don't really like her anyways. I met her once and she gave me this major attitude! I was like "Excuse you!" And she kept giving me dirty looks all night!"
"She's jealous! She knows your gonna be the next teen pop female sensation, and your gonna take over her role! Atleast your not a slut like her!"
"I know, I can't stand people who are so fake and treat you like their better then everyone else!"
"I'll tell ya though, if I EVER see her on the street of at some show, she will hear from me! Well I wanted to watch the rest of the show, so I better go."
"Yea, maybe we could hang out sometime, cool?"
"Cool! Nice talking to you! Bye!" I shouted to her as I headed towards my seat. When I got there, I looked over at Nick, he seemed disturbed. Like something was upsetting him. I don't know, but I'll cheer him up when we get on the bus.
*~*After THe Concert..... *~*
I walked to the bunks and looked for Nick. The show had ended about a half an hour ago, and the guys had disappeared. No one was on the bus, except Brian. So I decided to see if he knew anything. I walked back to the entertainment room and found him watching Buffy.
"OMG! I completely forgot about Buffy! What have I missed?" It was the newest episode of the season, so I had to watch.
"Not much it just started. Buffy is just moving in her dorm and already starting to feel left out cause Willow and Oz have their own friends to start off with. But Buffy did knock a stack of books off a shelf onto a guy that she liked but Willow caught." He said as a break came on. I picked a seat on the couch and got comfortable.
"Do you know where everyone else ran off to?" I asked after a minute of silence.
"The went clubbing, I don't know where but thats all they told me. I didn't want to go cause I didn't wanna leave me best friend all alone and scared. Plus I was kinda tired."
"Thanks Bri! Your always one to cheer someone up!" I said and gave him a hug. We watched the rest of Buffy and some MTV afterwards. We herd the door close on the bus and I assumed it was the rest of the guys. I saw Kevin collapse on the couch and quickly asked.
"Where's Nick?"
"He's outside. But you..." I didn't let him finish, I was already out the door.
"Wow, Nick. Your lips are so sweet and luscious!" I herd a voice say. I saw what I wished I hadn't.
"Well they don't look as tempting as yours..." Nick said and kissed the girl passionately.
"So do you like playing with my emotions or do you do that with every girl?" I said crossing my arms. Nick stopped kissing her and kept looking at the girl.
"Call me tomorrow okay?" He told her, gave her one last kiss and walked off, brushing his shoulder with mine on the way.
"Answer me damnit!" I shouted walking after him on the bus. He stopped and turned to me.
"You tell me, Marrisa! How dose it feel to play with a persons emotions? Too bad Justin hasn't found out about that kiss!" He shouted back.
"I didn't deserve that." I said quietly.
"I herd the conversation earlier! Don't think I don't know!"
"Nick let me explain something to you! When you kissed me last night, you don't know how I felt! I had 2 of the sweetest guys I had ever met liking me! You kissed me, you left me confused, happy, upset, and almost angry! I didn't know what you meant by that kiss! I didn't know if that meant you liked me, wanted to go with me, if you just wanted me to be your little play toy or whatever! I didn't know what it meant! You never explained it to me today or last night! You almost ignored me today, we hardly talked! That song really made me think! I called Justin to see if he was waiting for me! You know what? He wasn't! He didn't tell me, but I knew! I have had so many guys cheat on me before, so I know what it sounds like when a guy's lying about something like that! I was ready to give my heart to you, and you refused to take it! And that broke it." By now everyone was in the room. Nick just stood there in shock as tears streamed down my face. "So don't you dare ask me what it's like to play with emotions!" I shouted and walked to my bunk. I cried myself to sleep, thinking of Nick. He deserved every word I said. And I meant every word of it. I almost felt like my heart wanted to go up my throat and stay there until I died. But I just wanted to hid in a cave and stay there until it went back down.
"I'll never, I'll never find someone like you,
I promise you girl I'll never,
I'll never find someone like you.
Cause I love the way that you are,
And girl, I won't no I won't let you go.
No one could ever do,
Love you like I love you." I sang out loud. I didn't care if anyone herd me. I sucked at singing, so it didn't matter to me anyways. I
already missed him.....
*~*The Next Morning*~*
I woke up, not wanting to face the battles the world prepared for me today. I got up and walked to the kitchen to get my coffee. I fixed it and walked to the back, saw Nick and left.
"Marrisa, can we talk?" Nick asked coming up behind me.
"Not now. I'm still pretty pissed. Ask me in an hour." I said walking to my bunk I gathered my clothes, and walked to the bathroom as Nick followed. "You do not follow me in here!" I said and slammed the door. I got dressed as he talked.
"When I herd you say that you didn't want anymore then a friendship with us, it tore me apart. I wanted to get back at you. Truth was, is that, the kiss, it meant more to me then anything. I had wanted to do that since the second I saw you. I do really like you and I would like to get to know you better. But I shouldn't have showed it like that. I should have told you that, and I'm sorry. I just hope you forgive me." He finished. I was in tears now. I opened the door and ran straight to his arms.
"I'm so sorry Nick. I didn't mean for you to hear that, and I'm sorry you got the wrong idea." I said into his chest. I totally forgot I was getting dressed so I was standing there in a pair of cut off shorts and a bra.
"Nice look." He said as we let go.
"Whops!" I said looking down at myself. I turned a bright shade of red.
"Well I like the view!" AJ said coming out of the room.
"I need to finish getting dressed don't I?" I said as I covered myself.
"Well, if you leave it up to me, no! You look fine!" Nick said with a grin.
"You would!" I said as I rushed back into the bathroom.
