Chapter 11 I could tell Nick didn't take that last part very well. "Well I am sorry I haven't been the way you wanted. I thought I did everything for you." "Now Nick don't start... I didn't mean it like that." "What you put me down for something and I can't even make a damn statement in my defense." he said forcefully. "There's no point in getting so pissed and cursing at me. I'm not saying all this to offend you but to let you know how I feel. I think I should be able to express myself without everyone bitching... for instance right now." "Look...." he began. "No you look.... I tried to say something that was pissing me off and then you get me pissed off and then I get even more mad." "You're not making sense." he said. "I know that!... because I can not get out exactly what I am trying to say!" "Damn it.... yeah this is a great anniversary present." "Argh.........." I yelled and stormed off and continued yelling and cursin like I never had before. I ran outside wishing I had my car. If I did I would have went home. I sat down on the porch, pissed off. But yet I was sad. I had never ment to make Nick mad. I didn't mean to make it seem like I didn't appreciate him for everything that he had given and done for me. I finally spoke my mind for once but yet I hurt someone I loved so much. "What's I do?" I whispered into the night. "I didn't mean it so harshly. Now I've done it. We've grown apart and now we might not even be together. I sould have kept my mouth shut." I got up and hesitantly went back inside. I saw Nick who was sitting quietly in a chair. He herd me come in and glanced at me. He turned his head. He didn't look at me when I approached him. I sat down on the floor at his feet. I looked ip at him but but he didn't look at me still. I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say. "Nick....... I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me. I didn't mean to hurt you... honestly. Nick please. At least look at me." I said pleaing with him. It didn't work. He just glanced at me and turned away. For that second that he looked at me I saw all the pain and the hurt in his eyes. I've never seen that expression before. I knew I made a mistake. "Nick......" "Look don't worry about it. You've said enough. I don't think I can take anymore." "Well I might as well go home." "No you're mother will know something is wrong and then she'll get involved."   "Nick....." "Please stop. I can't take this..... I'm going to bed." "I...... I'm Sorry." I said in a whisper. "You know I really do love you. But after tonight its really hard to tell you that. What you said seems as if you are just with me for my popularity. I thought you really loved me. But now I am not sure." "I do love you. I really do. I don't know what to say." I said now standing at his side. "Nick I know that there are alot of girls who want you but I don't want to be your girlfriend for that reason. I know now and I knew in the beginning of our relationship that I loved you. I would love you even if you were just an ordinary guy without the celebrity status." "I believe you. Now I am going to bed. GoodNight." He walked into his room and all was silent. I didn't know what to do. I wan't to know what Nick was thinking. I wanted to comfort him. I didn't know what to say. I wanted time to turn back before I said what I said to him. I sat on the couch and curled up and just layed there frightened of being alone and without Nick there with me. And afraid that Nick would break the relationship off. Chapter 12 Back To The Main Page