Song~You'll be in my heart~Phil Collins

Dear Gabriel

A whole year has gone by since I lost you my son. Mommy still misses you like crazy.

A year ago I was still carrying you in my womb.

I was so happy and proud that I had been chosen to be your mom. I still am my darling.

Though I have been so sad since I lost you I'm still glad that you were there with me.

And I'm still so proud to be your mommy.

I never met you but my heart knows you and I see you in my daydreams so I still know

what you look like and I know what kind of soul you are. You are a gentle soul.

Curious and always wondering about every little thing.

Never wild except when your sister teases you to be wild with her.

You really love her and she is the only one who can make you stop what you are doing to go and play.

You love stories, and you love to take things apart to see what makes them work,

but you are always very careful not to break anything.

If you break something by accident you get so unhappy and won't stop crying

until one of the bigger angels helps you fix it again.

You are such a serious little boy, always worried about me when you see that I'm sad or crying.

Mommy knows its hard for you to understand sadness and you don't want me to cry.

You never got to experience sadness and I'm thankful for that.

But here on earth there is a lot of sadness sometimes, but you don't have to worry about me darling.

Sadness is a part of life and when I one day go to heaven there will be no more sadness and all the

tears mommy have cried will disappear in the sunshine.So don't worry my sweetheart.

Go play with you sister in the Lords garden. Go chase some butterflies or play in the small creeks.

Make your sister a garland of yellow flowers, I know how much she loves them.

Makes her feel like the little princess she is.

You know she will dance her little dance for you and I know that it always make you laugh.

And today I want you to laugh.

Its the anniversary of the day you earned your angel wings. And mommy is very proud of you.

If you see mommy cry, please don't worry about me, I'm just sad because I miss you.

But its okay to be sad sometimes.

Do you remember this song? It's your lullaby.

I hope you have a nice day in heaven my darling.

And remember your my special little guy.

Love you forever.

Love.

Mommy

 

 

 

Forever Painting you

 

Painting Memories

Painting the gray sky blue

Painting memories

Sweet memories of you

 

A heavy heart weeps

Empty Arms are aching

Your souls are free

Mine is forever breaking

 

Your eyes never opened

Mine will always weep

Your little hearts stopped beating

And then you fell asleep

 

Forever I will miss you

Forever I will cry

Forever will I see you

Playing in the sky

 

Eydna H. Mortensen~ July 17th. 2002