The Psychiatrist - Chapter 6 “What the?” Sendoh shouted. Rukawa was already out of the car. Sendoh got out too. “Sendoh, what are you trying to do? I love Kaoru... I love HER!!” Rukawa shouted. He hated Sendoh for what he had tried to do (espressing his feeling). Indeed, he sort of like Sendoh too. In fact, Sendoh was the only one he could rely on, and throughout the few weeks together, Sendoh had become more than a friend. He realised that because the feeling now was just the same two years ago when he started to fall for Kaoru. But, it just could not... could not... because he loved Kaoru, Kaoru!! Disappointment as well as anger ran into Sendoh, “Why? Why? Rukawa what past is past... I know you love Kaoru but you are no longer together, for God's sake you have no idea where she is... why?” “I... you don’t understand,” Rukawa had no idea what to say. “Tell me you honestly you nothing for me? Nothing?,” Sendoh could not hold it much longer, he needed to know. “I...” Rukawa was even more lost. “Then what? You feel guily towards Kaoru if you are with me... I’m losing to a girl inside your brain. Someone not even here... If there was someone you’re going out with, at least I know what I’m up against... at least I understand... but this... this is just plain dumb!!” Sendoh fired some more. “You don’t understand me... Kaoru was someone special... So what if I want to live in a world of my own?! Me and Kaoru had our own world inside my heart that you would never understand,” Rukawa felt hurt saying those words toward Sendoh. Rukawa loved him too but what he said was truth. Kaoru was someone special, someone you just could not replace... for he once loved Kaoru more than anything else, his first love, and Sendoh... could he ever replace... could he love Sendoh more than Kaoru? “I understand... I could never live in your world. Not that I can’t, just that you would not let me into it. I love you Kaede but I’m so sad and sorry that you can’t say the same to me.” With that Sendoh walked away into the dark and left Rukawa alone. More than a week had passed and Sendoh was sitting in his office. How he missed the basketball game he had with Rukawa, the dinner after the game, the angry face of Rukawa everytime he beat him in their one on one. He smiled, recalling back all those memories. He even remembered the first day he met Rukawa in his office, how Rukawa lost his temper and burst out of the room. Then, he frowned as he remembered the incident more than a week ago. He never saw Rukawa since then. How he missed him. That days' basketball practice was cancelled. All the team members were going out to a pub for a drink. Although they were always adviced that alcoholic drinks are bad for atletes like them but a glass would never harm them. They urged Rukawa to come along. Rukawa was in his moods again which was surprising as they had never seen it for the past few weeks. All thought that the appointment with a pshychiatrist was doing him good but now... Onizuka tried asking Sendoh about it but Sendoh would not spill a single word. “Come on Rukawa drink up,” urge Onizuka. “What’s on your mind these days my friend? We’re kinda worried you know,” asked Yutaka. “Nothing,” Rukawa replied coldly and that ended all the conversation. He was still thinking of Sendoh. He did not know why but he could not get Sendoh out of his brain. He had been thinking about him ever since the incident more than a week ago. What exactly was his feelings toward Sendoh? He was really hurt when Sendoh walked away that day. And the feeling of playing basketball without him was just different. Did he really love Sendoh? Yes, he did. But did he love Sendoh more than Kaoru? “Hey, I loved this next song. The lyrics are quite good not that I fancy boy bands and stuff,” “Huh?” Rukawa caught that sentence. “What’s the song?” Rukawa suddenly asked, surprising everyone. “‘This I Promise You’ from N’sync” Onizuka answered. The song Sendoh was talking about. The song he asked me to listen. He remembered, 'next time you hear it, listen to the lyrics' that was what Sendoh said. He quickly paid attention to the words though the song had started playing already and the first few lines were missed. I’ll be your strengh I’ll give you hope Keeping your faith when it’s gone The one you should call was standing here all a long And i will take you in mine arms and hold you right where you belong Till the day my life is through this i promise you This i promise you I’ve love you forever in lifetimes before And i promise you never will you hurt anymore I give you my word, i give you my heart This is a battle we won And with this vow forever has now began Just close your eyes each loving day And know this feeling won’t go away Every word i say is true This i promise you THIS I PROMISE YOU. Rukawa cried. 'Don’t forget i’m the one who told you to listen,' he remembered Sendoh’s word. This song was meant to be sung to him by Sendoh. He finally realised how much he loved Sendoh, how important he was, the one and only person that could ever taken Kaoru’s place, the one he love. He wipe of the tears and smile, the song touches him greatly. He needed to find Sendoh. Everyone else thought Rukawa was beginning to act weirdly and worried even more. “I need to go,” Rukawa stood up and began to leave. Two men entered the bar as he was leaving. “Did you see? There was a man trying to commit suicide on top of a tall building few blocks away,” “Yah, and there seems to be a pshychiatrist trying to persuade him not to do so. Both of them sitting on the edge of the building, one slipped and... wew... I don’t even want to think about it, boy is that pshychiatrist brave,” “Yah, and his hair, all up towards the sky, haha... in fact that’s the only thing i could made out of him since they are so high,” Rukawa knew exactly who that pshychiatrist was... Sendoh!!! he quickly rushed to the spot and as he reach there he saw a figure falling downwards from a twenty story building (^^ high enough?). “ NO!!!!!!!” Rukawa shouted, not now, just when i realise how much i love you, Akira. “No, it can't be....,” Rukawa said to himself. To be Continued... **Previous**Next**