These are poems that I love … The Gift That You Are Startled and fascinated by the beauty and fragility of your wings, I watch as you move so gently so quietly almost unexpectedly through my world And then I watch as you move on, fluttering softly into the distance. Pleading silently, I beg you, please ... don't go. I haven't yet had the time to memorize to remember to understand the uniqueness of the beauty that is yours. I know I cannot hold you for long, capturing you for my world. But, rest gently with me if only for a moment. That I may treasure the memory and the beauty of the gift that you are. … Author unknown One Year Ago ... They took you from within me, with all kind of hope … That you would breath and scream in life … But I guess you just couldn’t cope. I do remember you, all freshly scrubbed for me to see, That you were the little angel boy I’d seen I all my dreams. I’m sorry we didn’t spend much time with you, only a day or two. It really was so very hard and I just didn’t have any clue. I couldn’t believe you had left us, when all our love was there. I still cry for you every day, and scream that life isn’t fair. I carry your memory within my heart and know I’ll never forget That you are my little angel boy, the child I barely met. You live within my heart and in every breath I take. I know I’ll meet you again someday, when the time is just more right. So until happy that day, Joshua my little angle boy, I’ll whisper my good-night And blow you lots of kisses, as you rise in your gentle heavenly flight. Written by: Deborah Shillito (Joshua’s Mommy) To the Child of My Heart Precious, tiny, sweet little one You will always be to me So perfect, pure, and innocent Just as you were meant to be. We dreamed of you and your life And all that it would be We waited and longed for you to come And join our family. We never had the chance to play, To laugh, to rock, to wiggle. We long to hold you, touch you now And listen to you giggle. I'll always be your mother. He'll always be your dad. You will always be our child, The child that we had. But now you're gone...but yet you're here. We sense you everywhere. You are our sorrow and our joy. There's love in every tear. Just know our love goes deep and strong. We'll forget you never The child we had, but never had, And yet will have forever. - Author unknown Little Cherub Angel I went out the other day, to find what I thought would be The very first outfit, that Joshua would see. Like any of the mothers do, I would search for the one, That would show all of those around, that he was indeed our son. I would show him off so proudly, holding back my fears, As I stand beside his casket, shedding all those tears. It was just so hard to realize, that it really had to be The first and last day, he would ever spend with me. For God has called my Joshua, to spread his wings and fly, Never did I ever think, that he would really die. Who knows why my angel took, that brave and heavenly flight, Didn’t he know that I would have given anything, for him to stay and fight. But there must be such a wonderful place, for my little one to face. That he would forever be, the little cherub angel, that’s looking out for me. Written by Deborah Shillito (Joshua’s Mommy) The Butterfly A butterfly flutters softly beside us like a sunbeam. and for a brief moment its glory and beauty belong in our world. But then it flies on again. and although we wish it could have stayed, we feel so lucky to have seen it at all. - Author unknown