Labels, labels, everyone hates labels, myself included. However, if we didn't have labels grocery shopping would be kinda tough. So, as you may have figured out by now, I was born, physically at least, a boy. At some point along the way, or perhaps at birth, my brain rebeled against this notion. There is portion of my brain, soul, spirit, whatever, that is female and needs to be let outside from time to time. About Ninety-five percent of the time, i'm Mr. Fella walking around doing things that normal folk do, i suppose and I'm pretty happy with my male self, i'm an attractive fella and being a man doesn't bother me. I may not be the most masculine of guys, but i doubt anyone would suspect i prance about in skirts on the weekends.

So, would I ever like to become a female full-time? I don't think so. I've entertained the idea and although the idea isn't horrific to me, i'm not going to run out tomorrow and get my winky cut off. That part of it all seems far too permanent and scary to me. Besides i've grown quite fond of my tiddly-diddly and would hate to lose it. And y'know what? I actually like switching back and forth between genders. I think it's pretty cool, that and i've always had a hard time committing to anything, genders included. Fear of commitment...see there's proof of my maleness! Oh yeah, label....um, I consider myself transgendered. I guess because it sounds fairly cool and there aren't too many preconcieved notions attached to it. So there!

Well, my actual closet is pretty big, it has to be. I've got to fit two bloody wardrobes in it. However, my figuritive closet is fairly large, but its getting smaller. Over the years I've told many friends of mine about my little hobbie for various reasons really. Mostly, i just like being open about it. But i also get a kick out of suprising people, too. I think it's kinda funny! Recently, over the past year or so, i've been coming out to alot more folks than before and i'm looking forward to telling more of the people who are close to me. I'd like to tell some members of my family. Not my parents though, my poor mother would have a fit, blame herself, have to pray for me, yadda, yadda yadda....

Obscure reference to E.L.O

Most of my free time is either spent with friends (drinking, usually..) or involved in some aspect of music. Buying record or CD's, or playing my guitar or my Moog (i also play drums, sadly though my drum kit is all the way across the country right now. grrrrr) and recording on my computer. I took a few classes in digital audio recording and MIDI last summer and hopefully i'll be doing some more of that again soon! I luv rock music mostly, actually i can stand most styles of music except maybe country....i really don't like country music. But in the world of rock i cherish all types. In my book ABBA and AC/DC are as valued to me as Jeff Buckley or Sonic Youth. For the curious, here's a random sampling of the musical loves of my life......

the cars, beach boys, guided by voices, the flaming lips, electric light orchestra, dinosaur jr., the cure, belle and sebastian, james, massive attack, mercury rev, the monkees, my bloody valentine, beth orton, nirvana, bauhaus, run dmc, apples in stereo, pavement, big sugar, boston, the pixies, abba, chemical brothers, prince, built to spill, draco, s. hotel, burt bacharach, liaka, the ramones, tom waits, sebadoh, t.rex, smashing pumpkins, fu manchu, quasi, sonic youth, the london suede, rufus wainwright, swervedriver, xtc, neil young, matthew sweet, white zombie, public enemy, slint, cibo mato, jeff buckley, big star, judas priest, yo la tango, radiohead, beck, coldcut, death cab for cutie, elliot smith, echo and the bunnymen, cat power, pop will eat itself, swirlies, air, the john spencer blues explosion, love and rockets, rush, any james bond theme songs, donovan, bob marley

Well, the list could go on, but I don't want to bore you! Anyway, I hope you see some you like, too. If you hadn't heard of half of these folks, don't be alarmed, I tend to like some pretty obscure stuff.

I've always like what Brett Anderson of the modern glam-rock band the London Suede had to say about his sexuality and that is he considers himself a "non-practicing bi-sexual." So, I think i'm bisexual, but my experience thusfar has only been with GGs (genetic girls). Generally though, I find that i'm attracted to females, the natural born type and otherwise. Rarely do i run across a fella that i'm sexually attracted to, but i have been known to flirt with some guys in chat rooms, but they were very cute!

Would you like to read more stuff about me? Ok, well click on the little pencil and you can read about a weird dream I had when I was a kid and other stuff. Otherwise, you can click on the ballon thing and that'll take you to my homepage.