owned
How ridiculous and what a stranger he is who is surprised at anything which happens in life --Marcus Aurelius, Meditations
i am an owned.
that has been running through my mind all day. i am owned now, officially. i am collared. the world can see that a girl is property, possession of Mr Domain. she is His.
i have been His for a while now in my heart. i knew that He owned me, that there was nothing i could deny Him, nothing i would ever hold from Him if He asked. my soul was open to His touch. but now... now it is official. a girl is fully property now, for all to see.
the day has been so filled with joy for me today. i felt as though i was walking on air. what could be more precious to me than to be owned completely by the man that i love. He has always been my all, and now E/everyone could know, could see.
ah, but not everyone. my collar is just online and when i walked away from the computer today i felt an ache in my stomach. i wanted to have something with me all day, something that would bear His mark, something that would keep me close to Him, never letting me forget for a moment that i was His slave. i thought at first that what i wanted was a collar to wear r/l, but then i realized that when i next have a collar placed on my neck, it should be placed by His hands. perhaps an anklet then... something... something concrete to tie a girl to her Master every moment.
perhaps a girl will beg her Master for such a gift for Christmas, but then that seems so far away.
and perhaps in a day or so the ache from being away from the computer, away from the visible, concrete evidence of my collar will fade away. for now though, all i want to do is sit and stare at it, looking at the mark of His propriety on me.
i can't wait to see Master tonight. my heart is already thundering.
be well and happy til next W/we meet --di.