PART TWO
Chapter
Eight
Down
below, the sea broke on the jagged chaos of rock. A stiff dry
breeze blowing from distant Turkey fanned his face. The
harbour, protected from the sea by a concrete mole, thrust
itself in an irregular arc into the shore-line. And
overlooking it all were the tiny white cottages of the town's
outskirts perched on the slopes of the mountain range which
broke off abruptly at the sea.
It
was quiet here in the old park outside of the town. Yellow
maple leaves floated slowly down onto its grass-grown paths.
The
old Persian cabby who had driven Pavel out here from town
could not help asking as his strange fare alighted:
"Why
come here of all places? No young ladies, no amusements.
Nothing but the jackals. . . . What will you do here? Better
let me drive you back to town, mister tovarish!"
Pavel
paid him and the old man drove away.
The
park was indeed a wilderness. Pavel found a bench on a cliff
overlooking the sea, and sat down, lifting his face to the now
mild autumn sun.
He
had come to this quiet spot to think things over and consider
what to do with his life. The time had come to review the
situation and take some decision.
His
second visit to the Kyutsams had brought the family strife to
a head. The old man on learning of his arrival had flown into
a rage. It fell naturally to Korchagin to lead the resistance.
The old man unexpectedly encountered a vigorous rebuff from
his wife and daughters, and from the first day of Pavel's
arrival the house split into two hostile camps. The door
leading to the parents' half of the house was locked and one
of the small side rooms was rented to Korchagin. Pavel paid
the rent in advance and the old man was somewhat mollified by
the arrangement; now that his daughters had cut themselves off
from him he would no longer be expected to support them.
For
diplomatic reasons Albina remained with her husband. As for
the old man, he kept strictly to his side of the house and
avoided meeting the man he so heartily detested. But outside
in the yard he made as much noise as possible to show that he
was still the master.
Before
he went to work in the co-operative shop, old Kyutsam had
earned his living by shoemaking and carpentry and had built
himself a small workshop in the backyard. To annoy his lodger,
he shifted his work bench from the shed to a spot in the yard
right under Pavel's window where he hammered furiously for
hours on end, deriving a malicious satisfaction from the
knowledge that he was interfering with Korchagin's reading.
"Just
you wait," he hissed to himself, "I'll get you out
of here. .. ."
Far
away a steamer laid a small dark trail of smoke over the sea
at the very horizon. A flock of gulls skimmed the waves with
piercing cries.
Pavel,
his chin resting in his hand, sat lost in thought. His whole
life passed swiftly before his mind's eye, from his childhood
to the present. How had these twenty-four years of his been
lived? Worthily or unworthily? He went over them again, year
by year, subjecting them to sober, impartial judgement, and he
found to his immense relief that he had not done so badly with
his life. Mistakes there had been, the mistakes of youth, and
chiefly of ignorance. But in the stormy days of struggle for
Soviet power he had been in the thick of the fighting and on
the crimson banner of Revolution there were a few drops of his
own life's blood.
He
had remained in the ranks until his strength had failed him.
And now, struck down and unable to hold his place in the
firing lines, there was nothing left for him but the field
hospital. He remembered the time when they had stormed Warsaw
and how, at the height of battle, one of the men had been hit.
He fell to the ground under his horse's hooves. His comrades
quickly bandaged his wounds, turned him over to the
stretcher-bearers and sped onward in pursuit of the enemy. The
squadron had not halted its advance for the sake of one fallen
soldier. Thus it was in the fight for a great cause and thus
it had to be. True, there were exceptions. He had seen legless
machine-gunners on gun carriages in battle. These men had
struck terror into the enemy's ranks, their guns had sown
death and destruction, and their steel-like courage and
unerring eye had made them the pride of their units. But such
men were few.
What
was he to do now that defeat had overtaken him and there was
no longer any hope of returning to the ranks? Had he not
extracted from Bazhanova the admission that the future held
even worse torment in store for him? What was to be done? The
question was like a yawning abyss spreading at his feet.
What
was there to live for now that he had lost what he prized most
— the ability to fight? How was he to justify his existence
today and in the cheerless tomorrow? How was he to fill his
days? Exist merely to breathe, to eat and to drink? Remain a
helpless bystander watching his comrades fight their way
forward? Be a burden to the detachment? No, better to destroy
his treacherous body! A bullet in the heart — and be done
with it! A timely end to a life well lived. Who would condemn
the soldier for putting himself out of his agony?
He
felt the flat body of his Browning in his pocket. His fingers
closed over the grip, and slowly he drew out the weapon.
"Who
would have thought that you would come to this?"
The
muzzle stared back at him with cold contempt. Pavel laid the
pistol on his knee and cursed bitterly.
"Cheap
heroics, my lad! Any fool can shoot himself. That is the
easiest way out, the coward's way. You can always put a bullet
through your head when life hits you too hard. But have you
tried getting the better of life? Are you sure you have done
everything you can to break out of the steel trap? Have you
forgotten the fighting at Novograd-Volynsky when we went into
the attack seventeen times in one day until finally, in spite
of everything, we won through? Put away that gun and never
breathe a word of this to anyone. Learn how to go on living
when life becomes unbearable. Make your life useful."
He
got up and went down to the road. A passing mountaineer gave
him a lift on his cart. When they reached town he got off and
bought a newspaper and read the announcement of a meeting of
the city Party group in the Demyan Bedny Club. It was very
late when he returned home that night. He had made a speech at
the meeting, little suspecting that it was the last he was
ever to make at a large public gathering.
Taya
was still awake when he got home. She had been worried at
Pavel's prolonged absence. What had happened to him? She
remembered the grim, cold look she had observed that morning
in his eyes, always so live and warm. He never liked to talk
about himself, but she felt that he was under some severe
mental strain.
As
the clock in her mother's room chimed two she heard the gate
creak and, slipping on her jacket, she went to open the door.
Lola, asleep in her own room, murmured restlessly as Taya
passed her.
"I
was beginning to get worried," Taya whispered with relief
when Pavel came in.
"Nothing
is going to happen to me as long as I live, Taya," he
whispered. "Lola's asleep? I am not the least bit sleepy
for some reason. I have something to tell you. Let's go to
your room so as not to wake Lola."
Taya
hesitated. It was very late. How could she let him come to her
room at this late hour? What would mother think? But she could
not refuse for fear of offending him. What could he have to
say to her, she wondered, as she led the way to her room.
"This
is how it is, Taya," Pavel began in a low voice. He sat
down opposite her in the dimly-lighted room, so close that she
could feel his breath. "Life takes such strange turns
that you begin to wonder sometimes. I have had a bad time of
it these past few days. I did not know how I could go on
living. Life had never seemed so black. But today I held a
meeting of my own private 'political bureau' and adopted a
decision of tremendous importance. Don't be surprised at what
I have to say."
He
told her what he had gone through in the past few months and
much of what had passed through his mind during his visit to
the park.
"That
is the situation. Now for the most important thing. The storm
in this family is only beginning. We must get out of here into
the fresh air and as far away from this hole as possible. We
must start life afresh. Once I have taken a hand in this fight
I'm going to see it through. Our life, yours and mine, is none
too happy at present. I have decided to breathe some warmth
into it. Do you know what I mean? Will you be my life's
companion, my wife?"
Taya
was deeply moved by his confession, but these last words
startled her.
"I
am not asking you for an answer tonight," he went on.
"You must think it over carefully. I suppose you cannot
understand how such things can be put so bluntly without the
usual courting. But you and I have no need of all that
nonsense. I give you my hand, little girl, here it is. If you
will put your trust in me you will not be mistaken. We can
both give each other a great deal. Now, here is what I have
decided: our compact will be in force until you grow up to be
a real human being, a true Bolshevik. If I can't help you in
that I am not worth a kopek. We must not break our compact
until then. But when you grow up you will be freed of all
obligations. Who knows what may happen? I may become a
complete physical wreck, and in that case, remember, you must
not consider yourself bound to me in any way."
He
fell silent for a few moments, then he went on in tender,
caressing voice: "And for the present, I offer you my
friendship and my love."
He
held her fingers in his, feeling at peace, as if she had
already given her consent.
"Do
you promise never to leave me?" "I can only give you
my word, Taya. It is for you to believe that men like me do
not betray their friends. . . . I only hope they will not
betray me," he added bitterly. "I can't give you an
answer tonight. It is all very sudden," she replied.
Pavel got up.
"Go
to bed, Taya. It will soon be morning." He went to his
own room and lay down on the bed without undressing and was
asleep as soon as his head touched the pillow.
The
desk by the window in Pavel's room was piled high with books
from the Party library, newspapers and several notebooks
filled with notes. A bed, two chairs and a huge map of China
dotted with tiny black and red flags pinned up over the door
between his room and Taya's, completed the furnishings. The
people in the local Party Committee had agreed to supply Pavel
with books and periodicals and had promised to instruct the
manager of the biggest public library in town to send him
whatever he needed. Before long large parcels of books began
to arrive. Lola was amazed at the way he would sit over his
books from early morning, reading and making notes all day
long with only short breaks for breakfast and dinner. In the
evenings, which he always spent with the two sisters, he would
relate to them what he had read.
Long
past midnight old Kyutsam would see a chink of light between
the shutters of the room occupied by his unwelcome lodger. He
would creep over to the window on tiptoe and peer in through
the crack at the head bent over the books.
"Decent
folks are in their beds at this hour but he keeps the light
burning all night long. He behaves as if he were the master
here. The girls have got altogether out of hand since he
came," the old man would grumble to himself as he retired
to his own quarters.
For
the first time in eight years Pavel found himself with plenty
of time on his hands, and no duties of any kind to attend to.
He made good use of his time, reading with the avid eagerness
of the newly-enlightened. He studied eighteen hours a day. How
much longer his health could have withstood the strain is hard
to say, but a seemingly casual remark from Taya one day
changed everything.
"I
have moved the chest of drawers away from the door leading to
your room. If ever you want to talk to me you can come
straight in. You don't need to go through Lola's room."
The
blood rushed to Pavel's cheeks. Taya smiled happily. Their
compact was sealed.
The
old man no longer saw the chink of light through the shuttered
window of the corner room, and Taya's mother began to notice a
glow in her daughter's eyes that betrayed a happiness she
could not conceal. The faint shadows under her eyes spoke of
sleepless nights. Often now Taya's singing and the strumming
of a guitar echoed through the little house.
Yet
Taya's happiness was not unmarred; her awakened womanhood
rebelled against the clandestine relationship. She trembled at
every sound, fancying that she heard her mother's footsteps.
What if they asked her why she had taken to closing her door
on the latch at night? The thought tormented her. Pavel
noticed her fears and tried to comfort her.
"What
are you afraid of?" he would say tenderly. "After
all, you and I are grown-up people. Sleep in peace. No one
shall intrude on our lives."
Comforted,
she would press her cheek against his breast, and fall asleep,
her arms around her loved one. And he would lie awake,
listening to her steady breathing, keeping quite still lest he
disturb her slumber, his whole being flooded with a deep
tenderness for this girl who had entrusted her life to him.
Lola
was the first to discover the reason for the shining light in
Taya's eyes, and from that day the shadow of estrangement fell
between the two sisters. Soon the mother too found out, or
rather, guessed. And she was troubled. She had not expected it
of Korchagin.
"Taya
is not the wife for him," she remarked to Lola.
"What will come of it, I wonder?"
Alarming
thoughts beset her but she could not muster the courage to
speak to Korchagin.
Young
people began visiting Pavel, and sometimes his little room
could barely hold them all. The sound of their voices like the
beehive's hum reached the old man's ears and often he could
hear them singing in chorus:
Forbidding
is this sea of ours,
Night
and day its angry voice is heard. . . |
and
Pavel's favourite:
The
whole wide world is drenched with tears....
|
It
was the study circle of young workers which the Party
Committee had assigned to Pavel in response to his insistent
request for propaganda work.
Once
more he had gripped the helm firmly with both hands, and the
ship of life, having veered dangerously a few times, was now
steering a new course. His dream of returning to the ranks
through study and learning was on the way to being realised.
But
life continued to heap obstacles in his path, and bitterly he
saw each obstacle as a further delay to the attainment of his
goal.
One
day the ill-starred student George turned up from Moscow,
bringing a wife with him. He put up at the house of his
father-in-law, a lawyer, and from there continued to pester
his mother with demands for money.
George's
coming widened the rift in the Kyutsam family. George at once
sided with his father, and together with his wife's family,
which was inclined to be anti-Soviet, he sought by underhand
means to drive Korchagin out of the house and induce Taya to
break with him.
Two
weeks after George's arrival Lola got a job in another town
and she left, taking her mother and her little son with her.
Soon afterward, Pavel and Taya moved to a distant seaside
town.
Artem
did not often receive letters from his brother and the sight
of an envelope with the familiar handwriting waiting for him
on his desk in the City Soviet always made his heart beat
faster. Today too as he opened the envelope he thought
tenderly:
"Ah,
Pavel! If only you lived nearer to me. I could do with your
advice, lad."
"Artem,"
he read. "I am writing to tell you all that has happened
to me lately. I do not write such things to anyone but you.
But I know I can confide in you because you know me well and
you will understand.
"Life
continues to press down on me on the health front, dealing me
blow upon blow. I hardly managed to struggle to my feet after
one blow when another, more merciless than the last, lays me
low. The most terrible thing is that I am powerless to resist.
First I lost the power of my left arm. And now, as if that
were not enough, my legs have failed me. I could barely move
about (within the limits of the room, of course) as it was,
but now I have difficulty in crawling from bed to table. And I
daresay there is worse to come. What tomorrow will bring me no
one knows.
"I
never leave the house now, and only a tiny fragment of the sea
is visible from my window. Can there be a greater tragedy than
that of a man who combines in himself a treacherous body that
refuses to obey him, and the heart of a Bolshevik, a Bolshevik
who passionately yearns to work, to be with all of you in the
ranks of the fighters advancing along the whole front in the
midst of the stormy avalanche?
"I
still believe that I shall return to the ranks, that in time
my bayonet will take its place in the attacking columns. I
must believe that, I have no right not to. For ten years the
Party and the Komsomol taught me to fight, and the leader's
words, spoken to all of us, apply equally to me: 'There are no
fortresses Bolsheviks cannot take.'
"My
life now is spent entirely in study. Books, books and more
books. I have accomplished a great deal, Artem. I have read
and studied all the classics, and have passed my examinations
in the first year of the correspondence course at the
Communist University. In the evenings I lead a study circle of
Communist youth. These young comrades are my link with the
practical life of the Party organisation. Then there is Taya's
education, and of course love, and the tender caresses of my
little wife. Taya and I are the best of friends. Our household
is very simply run — with my pension of thirty-two rubles
and Taya's earnings we get along quite well. Taya is following
the path I myself took to the Party: for a time she worked as
a domestic servant, and now has a job as a dishwasher in a
canteen (there is no industry in this town).
"The
other day she proudly showed me her first delegate's
credentials issued by the Women's Department. This is not
simply a strip of cardboard to her. In her I see the birth of
the new woman, and I am doing my best to help in this birth.
The time will come when she will work in a big factory, where
as part of a large working community she will become
politically mature. But she is taking the only possible course
open to her here.
"Taya's
mother has visited us twice. Unconsciously she is trying to
drag Taya back to a life of petty, personal selfish cares. I
tried to make Albina see that she ought not to allow the
shadow of her own unhappy past to darken the path her daughter
has chosen. But it was no use. I feel that one day the mother
will try to stand in her daughter's way and then a clash will
be unavoidable. I shake your hand.
"Your
Pavel."
Sanatorium
No. 5 in Old Matsesta.... A three-storey brick building
standing on a ledge hewed into the mountain-side. Thick woods
all around and a road winding down to the sea. The windows are
open and the breeze carries the smell of the sulphur springs
into the room. Pavel Korchagin is alone in the room. Tomorrow
new patients will arrive and then he will have a room-mate. He
hears steps outside the window and the sound of a familiar
voice. Several people are talking. But where has he heard that
deep bass voice before? From the dim recesses of his memory,
hidden away but not forgotten, comes the name: "Ledenev.
He and none other."
Pavel
confidently called to his friend, and a moment later Ledenev
was beside his bed shaking his hand warmly.
"So
Korchagin is still going strong? Well, and what have you got
to say for yourself? Don't tell me you have decided to get
sick in real earnest? That will never do! You should take an
example from me. The doctors have tried to put me on the shelf
too, but I keep going just to spite them." And Ledenev
laughed merrily.
But
Pavel felt the sympathy and distress hidden behind that
laughter.
They
spent two hours together. Ledenev told Pavel all the latest
news from Moscow. From him Pavel first heard of the important
decisions taken by the Party on the collectivisation of
agriculture and the reorganisation of life in the village and
he eagerly drank in every word.
"Here
I was thinking you were busy stirring things up somewhere at
home in the Ukraine," said Ledenev. "You disappoint
me. But never mind, I was in an even worse way. I thought I'd
be tied to my bed for good, and now you see I'm still on my
feet. There's no taking life easy nowadays. It simply won't
work! I must confess I find myself thinking sometimes how nice
it would be to take a little rest, just to catch your breath.
After all, I'm not as young as I was, and ten and twelve
hours' work a day is a bit hard on me at times. Well, I think
about it for a while and even try to ease the load a little,
but it's no use. Before you know it, you're up to your ears
again, never getting home before midnight. The more powerful
the machine, the faster the wheels run, and with us the speed
increases every day, so that we old folk simply have to stay
young."
Ledenev
passed a hand over his high forehead and said in a kindly
manner:
"And
now tell me about yourself."
Pavel
gave Ledenev an account of his life since they had last met,
and as he talked he felt his friend's warm approving glance on
him.
Under
the shade of spreading trees in one corner of the terrace a
group of sanatorium patients were seated around a small table.
One of them was reading the Pravda, his bushy eyebrows
knitted. The black Russian shirt, the shabby old cap and the
unshaved face with deep-sunken blue eyes all bespoke the
veteran miner. It was twelve years since Khrisanf Chernokozov
had left the mines to take up an important post in the
government, yet he seemed to have just come up from the pit.
Everything about him, his bearing, his gait, his manner of
speaking, betrayed his profession.
Chernokozov
was a member of the Territorial Party Bureau besides. A
painful disease was sapping his strength: Chernokozov hated
his gangrenous leg which had kept him tied to his bed for
nearly half a year now.
Opposite
him, puffing thoughtfully on her cigarette, was Zhigareva —
Alexandra Alexeyevna Zhigareva, who had been a Party member
for nineteen of her thirty-seven years. "Shurochka the
metalworker", as her comrades in the Petersburg
underground movement used to call her, had been hardly more
than a girl when she was exiled to Siberia.
The
third member of the group was Pankov. His handsome head with
the sculptured profile was bent over a German magazine, and
now and then he raised his hand to adjust his enormous
horn-rimmed spectacles. It was painful to see this
thirty-year-old man of athletic build dragging his paralysed
leg after him. An editor and writer, Pankov worked in the
People's Commissariat of Education. He was an authority on
Europe and knew several foreign languages. He was a man of
considerable erudition and even the reserved Chernokozov
treated him with great respect.
"So
that is your room-mate?" Zhigareva whispered to
Chernokozov, nodding toward the chair in which Pavel Korchagin
was seated.
Chernokozov
looked up from his newspaper and his brow cleared at once.
"Yes!
That's Korchagin. You ought to know him, Shura. It's too bad
illness has put many a spoke in his wheel, otherwise that lad
would be a great help to us in tight spots. He belongs to the
first Komsomol generation. I am convinced that if we give him
our support — and that's what I have decided to do — he
will still be able to work."
Pankov
too listened to what Chernokozov was saying.
"What
is he suffering from?" Shura Zhigareva asked softly.
"The
aftermath of the Civil War. Some trouble with his spine. I
spoke to the doctor here and he told me there is a danger of
total paralysis. Poor lad!"
"I
shall go and bring him over here," said Shura.
That
was the beginning of their friendship. Pavel did not know then
that Zhigareva and Chernokozov were to become very dear to him
and that in the years of illness ahead of him they were to be
his mainstays.
Life
flowed on as before. Taya worked and Pavel studied. Before he
had time to resume his work with the study groups another
disaster stole upon him unawares. Both his legs were
completely paralysed. Now only his right hand obeyed him. He
bit his lips until the blood came when after repeated efforts
he finally realised that he could not move. Taya bravely hid
her despair and bitterness at being powerless to help him. But
he said to her with an apologetic smile:
"You
and I must separate, Taya. After all, this was not in our
compact. I shall think it over properly today, little
girl!"
She
would not let him speak. The sobs burst forth and she hid her
face against his chest in a paroxysm of weeping.
When
Artem learned of his brother's latest misfortune he wrote to
his mother. Maria Yakovlevna left everything and went at once
to her son. Now the three lived together. Taya and the old
lady took to each other from the first.
Pavel
carried on with his studies in spite of everything.
One
winter's evening Taya came home to report her first victory
— she had been elected to the City Soviet. After that Pavel
saw very little of her. When her day's work in the sanatorium
kitchen was over Taya would go straight to the Soviet,
returning home late at night weary but full of impressions.
She was about to apply for candidate membership in the Party
and was preparing for the long-awaited day with eager
anticipation. And then misfortune struck another blow. The
steadily progressing disease was doing its work. A burning
excruciating pain suddenly seared Pavel's right eye, spreading
rapidly to the left. A black curtain fell, blotting out all
about him, and for the first time in his life Pavel knew the
horror of total blindness.
A
new obstacle had moved noiselessly onto his path barring his
way. A terrifying, seemingly insurmountable obstacle. It
plunged Taya and his mother into despair. But he, frigidly
calm, resolved:
"I
must wait and see what happens. If there is really no
possibility of advancing, if everything I have done to return
to the ranks has been swept away by this blindness I must put
an end to it all."
Pavel
wrote to his friends and they wrote back urging him to take
courage and carry on the fight.
It
was in these days of grim struggle for him that Taya came home
radiant and announced:
"I
am a candidate to the Party, Pavel!"
Pavel
listened to her excited account of the meeting at which her
application was accepted and remembered his own initial steps
in the Party.
"Well,
Comrade Korchagina, you and I are a Communist faction
now," he said, squeezing her hand.
The
next day he wrote to the secretary of the District Party
Committee asking the latter to come and see him. The same
evening a mud-spattered car drew up outside the house and in a
few moments Volmer, a middle-aged Lett with a spreading beard
that reached to his ears, was pumping Pavel's hand.
"Well,
how goes it? What do you mean by behaving like this, eh? Up
with you and we'll send you off to work in the village at
once," he said with a breezy laugh. He stayed for two
hours, forgetting all about the conference he was to have
attended. He paced up and down the room, listening to Pavel's
impassioned appeal for work.
"Stop
talking about study groups," he said when Pavel had
finished. "You've got to rest. And we must see about your
eyes. It may still be possible to do something. What about
going to Moscow and consulting a specialist? You ought to
think it over.. . ." But Pavel interrupted him:
"I
want people, Comrade Volmer, live, flesh-and-blood people! I
need them now more than ever before. I cannot go on living
alone. Send the youth to me, those with the least experience.
They're veering too much to the left out there in the
villages, the collective farms don't give them enough scope,
they want to organise communes. You know the Komsomols, if you
don't hold them back they're liable to try and dash forward
ahead of the lines. I was like that myself." Volmer
stopped in his tracks.
"How
do you come to know about that? They only brought the news in
today from the district." Pavel smiled.
"My
wife told me. Perhaps you remember her? She was admitted to
the Party yesterday."
"Korchagina,
the dishwasher? So that's your wife! I didn't know that!"
He fell silent for a few moments, then he slapped his forehead
as an idea occurred to him. "I know whom we'll send you.
Lev Bersenev. You couldn't wish for a better comrade. He's a
man after your own heart, the two of you ought to get along
famously. Like two high-voltage transformers. I was an
electrician once, you know. Lev will rig up a wireless for
you, he's an expert at that sort of thing. I often sit up till
two in the morning at his place with those earphones. The wife
actually got suspicious. Wanted to know what I meant by coming
home so late." Korchagin smiled. "Who is
Bersenev?" he asked. Volmer ceased his pacing and sat
down. "He's our notary public, although he's no more
notary public really than I am a ballet dancer. He held an
important post until quite recently. Been in the movement
since 1912 and a Party member since the Revolution. Served in
the Civil War on the revolutionary tribunal of the Second
Cavalry Army; that was the time they were combing out the
Whiteguard lice in the Caucasus. He was in Tsaritsyn too, and
on the Southern Front as well. Then for a time he was a member
of the Supreme Military Court of the Far Eastern Republic. Had
a very tough time of it there. Finally tuberculosis got him.
He left the Far East and came down here to the Caucasus. At
first he worked as chairman of a gubernia court, and
vice-chairman of a territorial court. And then his lung
trouble knocked him out completely. It was a matter of coming
down here and taking it easy or giving up the ghost. So that's
how we come to have such a remarkable notary. It's a nice
quiet job too, just the thing for him. Well, gradually the
people here got him to take up a group. After that he was
elected to the District Committee, then, before he knew it, he
had charge of a political school, and now they've put him on
the Control Commission. He's a permanent member on all
important commissions appointed to unravel nasty tangles.
Apart from all that he goes in for hunting, he's a passionate
radio fan, and although he has only one lung, you wouldn't
believe it to look at him. He is simply bursting with energy.
When he dies it'll be somewhere on the way between the
District Committee and the court."
Pavel
cut him short.
"Why
do you load him down like that?" he asked sharply.
"He is doing more work here than before!"
Volmer
gave him a quizzical look:
"And
if I give you a study circle and something else Lev would be
sure to say: 'Why must you load him down like that?' But he
himself says he'd rather have one year of intensive work than
five years on his back in hospital. It looks as if we'll have
to build socialism before we can take proper care of our
people."
"That's
true. I too prefer one year of life to five years of
stagnation, but we are sometimes criminally wasteful of our
energies. I know now that this is less a sign of heroism than
of inefficiency and irresponsibility. Only now have I begun to
see that I had no right to be so stupidly careless about my
own health. I see now that there was nothing heroic about it
at all. I might have held out a few more years if it hadn't
been for that misguided Spartanism. In other words, the
infantile disease of leftism is one of the chief
dangers."
"That's
what he says now," thought Volmer, "but let him get
back on his feet and he'll forget everything but work."
But he said nothing.
The
following evening Lev Bersenev came. It was midnight before he
left Pavel. He went away feeling as if he had found a brother.
In
the morning a wireless antenna was set up on the roof of
Korchagin's house, while Lev busied himself inside the house
with the receiving set, regaling Pavel the while with
interesting stories from his past. Pavel could not see him,
but from what Taya had told him he knew that Lev was a tall,
fair-haired, blue-eyed young man with impulsive gestures,
which was exactly as Pavel had pictured him the moment they
had first met.
When
evening came three valves began to glow in the room. Lev
triumphantly handed Pavel the earphones. A chaos of sounds
filled the ether. The transmitters in the port chirped like so
many birds, and somewhere not far out at sea a ship's wireless
was sending out an endless stream of dots and dashes. But in
this vortex of noises and sounds jostling one another the
tuning coil picked out and clung to a calm and confident
voice:
"This
is Moscow calling...."
The
tiny wireless set brought sixty broadcasting stations in
different parts of the world within Pavel's reach. The life
from which he had been debarred broke through to him from the
earphone membranes, and once again he felt its mighty pulse.
Noticing
the glow of pleasure in Pavel's eyes, the weary Bersenev
smiled with satisfaction.
The
big house was hushed. Taya murmured restlessly in her sleep.
Pavel saw little of his wife these days. She came home late,
worn out and shivering from cold. Her work claimed more and
more of her time and seldom did she have a free evening. Pavel
remembered what Bersenev had told him on this score:
"If
a Bolshevik has a wife who is his Party comrade they rarely
see one another. But this has two advantages: they never get
tired of each other, and there's no time to quarrel!"
And
indeed, how could he object? It was only to be expected. There
was a time when Taya had devoted all her evenings to him.
There had been more warmth and tenderness in their
relationship then. But she had been only a wife, a mate to
him; now she was his pupil and his Party comrade.
He
knew that the more Taya matured politically, the less time she
would be able to give him, and he bowed to the inevitable.
He
was given a study group to lead and once again a noisy hum of
voices filled the house in the evenings. These hours spent
with the youth infused Pavel with new energy and vigour.
The
rest of the time went in listening to the radio, and his
mother had difficulty in tearing him away from the earphones
at mealtimes.
The
radio gave him what his blindness had taken from him — the
opportunity to acquire knowledge, and this consuming passion
for learning helped him to forget the pain that racked his
body, the fire that seared his eyes and all the misery an
unkind fate had heaped upon him.
When
the radio brought the news from Magnitostroi of the exploits
of the Komsomols who had succeeded Pavel's generation he was
filled with happiness.
He
pictured the cruel blizzards, the bitter Urals frosts as
vicious as a pack of hungry wolves. He heard the howling of
the wind and saw amid the whirling of the snow a detachment of
second-generation Komsomols working in the light of arc lamps
on the roof of the giant factory buildings to save the first
sections of the huge plant from the ravages of snow and ice.
Compared to this, how tiny seemed the forest construction job
on which the first generation of Kiev Komsomols had battled
with the elements! The country had grown, and with it, the
people.
And
on the Dnieper, the water had burst through the steel barriers
and swept away men and machines. And again the Komsomol youth
had hurled themselves into the breach, and after a furious
two-day battle had brought the unruly torrent back under
control. A new Komsomol generation marched in the van of this
great struggle. And among the heroes Pavel heard with pride
the name of his old comrade Ignat Pankratov.
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