August 23rd
My quote of the day!
( Idea stolen from Tigerlily's page)
"I've been waking up slowly
savoring the same old dream
and somewhere between
the folds of your memory
I was sleeping soundly"
-- Ani Difranco 'Hell Yeah'
My thoughts.....
Well this has definitely been an interesting weekend...i had lots of fun tho, so all of the chaos was definitely worth it. but i did see my life in a fairly different light. This weekend i faced fear, love, reminiscence, annoyance, pain and friendship. And i realized that this weekend was very symbolic of my life...of the way i live my life and the people that are in it. It's like the past is so much a part of my life at all times. And i think that's one of the reasons i get hurt so much. I live in the present, but my heart spends so much of its life in the past. i grab on to memories that are good and bad, and i hold onto them for dear life. I'm always longing for things "to be like they used to be" and now i'm realizing that things will never be like they used to. Things change...life goes on, right? Like this weekend, i hung out with two great friends, ones i really care about, and it felt nice you know...like old times. just sittin around, talking about life. I miss those times when we'd stay up late talking in someone's room about nothing. we'd stay up for hours on the computer or listening to music, or just hangin out. And this weekend was just like that. But it made me sad, cuz things aren't going to be like that much anymore...things are changing. And i'm gonna miss those times with all of my heart...i'm gonna miss just having them there...i'm gonna miss the closeness that i felt with them last semester, and then again this weekend. i hope we can still do that again...i hope that it isn't too late. I hope the present hasn't taken us too far ahead of the old times...and we'll still be able to see the good times well enough to grasp them, and experience them again.