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For me raves are personal. Some people go to the church, some people go fishing, others get wasted on booze... I do this at raves. A kind of reconciliation for everything that I've done before. Sure its loads of fun, but often I just stop, look at the lights.. and everyone that's there, and the time slows down.. It's like opening my eyes to see myself and what I've done. I can see everything .. and sometimes it can spoil my mood, but one more glance at everything helps, and I think .. "It doesn't matter what's happened. It's done and over with" ... and I can put it behind me, whatever doubts and sorrows I had before. I can smile to myself, and go ravin', find my friends again and be part of everyone there. :)))
About the running away thing.. its all the days that are hard, and the thoughts that bother me, that I can run away from. And then face them. The trance helps.. nothing that I don't want to think about can get through, and I can submerge in the rythm. This is my ground.. It's hard to explain .. I'm sure half of you will think I'm talking trash, but I don't think I can do this any better. Maybe later, I'll come up with something. For now.. spare me ;). <--back