angel
she's vastly different from me. i've known her, as an acquaintance since rgs times, since she's in gep as well.
we got close for staying in the same dorm during freshman year. having lousy dorm food together, having her roommate come seek my help in math problems, having long talks sitting on her bed despite promising to do our work, taking a 24-hour bus ride to philadephia together...all sweet memories i will not forget.
for a while i went to church with her. but i realised that it wasn't for me, so i stopped. she remains active in her christianity faith, maybe that's how we drifted away from each other. her boyfriend stays in the same house as i do, so i see more of her these days. but things have already changed.
she's a good girl, maybe that's why i say she's so different from me.
we spend so much time together, we at one point became sick of each other. haha. she studies electrical engineering as well, but she doubles in economics, while i double in political science. i guess some distance is good.
she's been through some difficulties, troubles beyond the scope of my own life, which sometimes make me wonder how i can help her. the only thing i can do is listen, and perhaps console some of her pain away. but essentially, many times, i am as helpless as anyone can be, i could only wipe her tears away, but i couldn't stop them.
she's a generous girl, with her hugs, her kind words, her love. essentially, that makes her more vulnerable than others, i worry for her. but on the other hand, she's a blessing for me, because i feel glad to know at least she appreciates our friendship. i still remember the times she would bake brownies and leave a piece for me. or the time when she would make fried rice for me so i don't have to eat crap for dinner.
we stay in the same house, so it's always been easy, having meals together, studying late into the night in my room, walking to class together. she's going to france for a semester this year, so i won't get to do those things with her anymore. but it's still ok, because i know that she will email her characteristic hilarious emails.
may god bless her.
the last time i wrote about her, i said that she was a walking bunch of contradictions. i still believe in that. she still remember it. haha.
same house, but i don't spend as much time with her as i do with li. maybe because she's perfectly happy spending her time in her room with her boyfriend. not that they do kinky stuff there, i believe. i think. hmm.
our friendship is cemented by our summer experience in 2000, our car [baby tc!!], our regular dinner dates with each other. bitching sessions with her are always fun, because she's not one who's wishy-washy about what she thinks. maybe it's a rgs-bred bitchiness, we click into action when we talk.
we always talk of going pubbing together, but in actual fact, we don't do that often enough. she is however, the only one who's ever seen me puke from drunkedness.
she's not someone easily defined by words. all i know is, don't ever assume to know her well enough. she still surprises.
she's also someone i spend a lot of time with. partly because we study the same course, and she's so darn good at it, it's good studying with her by my side. haha.
the actual blossoming of our friendship happened in during our california trip in 1999, when we were the only 2 girls in a group of 5. for personal reasons, she was so essential to me then, she was the one who made the trip so much more fun. we went to new york city together in fall 2000. and hiking in texas in spring 2001 [with li as well]. she's a reliable travel partner, definitely.
down to earth and kind, she's forever so sweet to me, like a big sis i never had. of course, she gets a fair share of my teasing. especially when it comes to guys. i guess that's the essence of our friendship. i let my guards down, i don't have to be smart, independent or strong. i can let myself be a simple girl. because she is such a girl herself. though i am the more giggly one. but at least i speak proper english. haha. private joke.
it's a very simple relationship we have, i want to keep it that way. it's not often i get to whine so shamelessly to someone, and receive nondiscriminatory consolation and indulgence. she's a sweetie.
i was rather close to him in our freshman year, because we would always go for breakfast together after our math class in the morning. which is when he would tell me about his funny theories. his reason for taking his jacket off before we go into the dining hall.
then somehow, we drifted apart at the end of 1999, maybe because we didn't go to the same classes anymore. at the end of that year, he shocked me by asking me to be his girlfriend. i said no. essentially, we're good friends now, we stay in the same house, he's still such a sweetie, and that's all.
whether our friendship will last beyond our years in uiuc remains to be seen. but i know he will always remember me, as the girl who still talked to him, and consoled him even when he was quarantined for TB. and i will always remember him as the guy who bought me ice-cream when he saw me crying, and wouldn't give up trying to cheer me up.
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alvin
