February 17, 2001
"How priceless is your unfailing love!
Both high and low among men
find refuge in the shadow of your wings." Psalm 36:7
A friend shared this scripture with me the other day to help me through a tough moment and it caused me to think, wrestle and then get overwhelmed (my choice not her intent). I've spent much time thinking & meditating on this verse in the last few days not doubting the truth of it but realizing that I can't connect with it emotionally. I believe that it's true but my inability to feel it causes me greater frustration and then lose sight of God.
What I realize this morning is very simply that it's true whether I feel it or not. I am not at a place in life emotionally or spiritually where I can 'feel' those things; fortunately that doesn't change the truth of it. It is true, in my rough moments I have found refuge in the shadow of his wings. Because I am a child of his and I am protected by his love, because I have friends who care enough to take the time, who share their hearts and pour themselves out to help me and pray for me. Someday I will grow to the point where I connect emotionally with all those things -- for today I know that whether I can 'see or feel' God's presence it is true -- that's enough for my heart.