February 1, 2001
"So do not fear I am with you;
Do not be dismayed for I am your God.
I will strengthen and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10
Today I see God's limitless patience with me. But even more than that, in the times I feel I am least deserving (not that I ever have a right to anything) is when I see and feel his love and patience most of all. Today my feelings and thoughts ran more to wondering why God isn't tired of me yet.There are some things I just don't get and as a result I question God and wonder where he is in my life. Then I encounter scriptures like the one above and I can only marvel. God knows who I am. He knows that I am weak, that I have moments of weakness greater than what I can work through on my own. He promises to strengthen and help. He doesn't leave me floundering around. Doesn't leave me stuck or tangled up in my own thoughts and feelings. He steps out and meets my needs. Sometimes through his word, sometimes in prayer he gives wisdom and insight and sometimes through people in my life. However, he chooses to work he always leaves me feeling taken care of... today I am especially grateful because after pouring out my confused and very obviously entangled heart/thoughts the response from a friend was, "I want to help you, I can see some of the ways Satan is trying to trip you up and I want to help you work that out." There are no more refreshing words because I know God is at work.
"And Saul's son Jonathan went to David at Horesh and helped him find strength in God." 1 Samuel 23:16