Fallen from Grace ~ Online

Perhaps I tried too hard
Giving and not requesting enough in return
Unable to say the words which will bring forth the truth
Because sometimes it's too scary to know what it truly is
He no longer messages "hello" each morning
The messages are less and the responses are fewer

Could he have found another and simply not letting me know?
Or am I merely like every other woman before?

Living in a digital world sucks
Where IMs take the place of a phone call
An email offers a dry, emotionless piece of conversation
Strange how an Electronic smileys is the replacement of true faces

If I grin and email cheerful little tales, will the reality seem less painful?
Putting on the plastic smile, I continue to reach out
Ever hopeful that he will look beyond the imperfections I carry

To forgive and lose this sudden coldness which has become our thing

Blaring sad, soulful love songs on the computer speakers
And pretending that the heart is not wallowing in mucky despair
Maybe today will be different and he'll remember the sweetness we'd shared
And will realize his importance to this heart