Goodbye Love

Two words which release him from my once innocent heart.
Tried to be the one he needed in this life yet too many walls
and many lies kept his love hidden from me.
For brief seconds my eyes did not overwhelm with harsh tears
nor did this heart discontinue the ever faithful beating.

Once the thought solidified in its harsh reality did I recall
that no love comes without some sort of a risk.
I fight the bitterness in my mouth from where these teeth
bit into my lip, drawing blood from the small wound.

Still no tears fall.

That is until I hear his voice greeting me from my computer
and only then does the flow escape from my soul.
Ache for my laughter sometime and lay awake your mattress
where our sweat once blended, I silently pray.

Someday I'll smile and remember the way his voice sounded
in my ear from the miles between us and how we shared
chocolate pudding with the M&M hidden on the inside.

So sleep well tonight, my lost lover.
Recall the years between us and shed at least one lone tear for me.
Still I think and yet hate myself for doing so ...
But what I wouldn't give to just hold him one last time.