My poetry....

Wake up
Startled
Cold, alone
Maybe Im still dreaming
Toss and turn
Am I trying to sleep?
Or am I trying to
     escape my reality?
Clutch my pillow
Tears soaking my face
I wake-up
Go back to sleep
Cant decide
Is this my hell?
My life-
A nightmare?
A dream?
Reality?
Help me
Wake me
Let me sleep
I want-
I need-
You here

Falling
Tears streaming
Pain
Suffering
My life
Oh...why?!?!
I dont want to be here
I dont need to be here
I want to go away
I want to fade
Gone, Forever, Away
Fade
I want to fade
Pain no more
The last tear falls
A crimson red
I am going
Leaving
Gone
All over now
I was-
I am-
Just a memory

Come in
Sit down
Look at me
Walk around
Music playing
I am speaking
Are you listening?
Can you hear me?
Why do you fear me?
I am gone now
Disappeared
In the shadows
I lurk about
Are you afraid
Let it out
Im coming for you
Take you away
In my world
We will play
Look around
What do you see?
Darkness, the past
You and me

Shadows of the past
My suffering will last
Old friends
False Smiles
Is living here worth while?
Take it in
Covered in sin
Lies
Time flies
Close your eyes
Take it in

I cry- tears
I cry- pain
I cry- sorrow
I cry- suffer
I cry- regret
I cry- why
I cry- help
I cry- understand me
I cry- please try
I cry- so long
I cry- goodbye

Burning insanity
Blind rage
Im alone
Locked in a cage
No one understands me
No one ever will
Thoughts running
    through my head
Murder, Death, Kill
You'll never know this pain
Thats all I feel
Finding comfort,
in one thing
One day I will rest,
No more pain

Living in a fake world
Obey, all work, no play
Say one thing
Do another
Only to please
People are a disease
Puppets on a string
Molded by society
Puppets on a string
Only lies and poverty
Puppets on a string
No one is their own
Puppets on a string
Only here to entertain
Puppets on a string
Follow never lead
Puppets on a string
Full of hate and greed
Puppets on a string
Live for god and perish slow
Puppets on a string
The truth you'll never know
You're just a puppet on a string

A sad day
Filled with lonliness
My love so far
In my heart always
But not in my arms
I just want to hold you
Is that so wrong?
I dream of you in slumber
I think of you when I wake
Me and you forever
I'll do anything it takes
How much longer can I wait?
--till the end of time, Im sure
A foolish notion perhaps
But my love for you will last
I can wait
I hope you can too
Still waiting for the day
When I can hold you

Breath
Take it in
All the lies
Your empty mind
A sigh of relief
Hollow, Shallow
I know you
You lose
You're weak
Empty
Consumed by your drugs
A dependant soul
Your game of life now over
You've lost
Never a second chance
You're breathing
But...
Still not living
Its over
Empty
Forever alone