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EVERYTHING ELSE Dear I'm Not Bitter; I am a lonely female who found your site while wandering alone endlessly, after I found out the truth. You wouldn't believe what my boyfriend did to me. Greg left me and went back to his live-in girlfriend who has a weekend boyfriend. I met Greg through my brother, Chip and his wife Lisa. They hated to see Greg going home alone every weekend because his girlfriend Heidi went to spend her weekends and sometimes weeks with another man. They knew that my self-esteem was more than damaged after my last break-up and they thought that we could help each other heal, grow and move on. Neither Greg nor I liked the idea of being set-up with someone else and we stayed barely on talking terms for over 2 months. Then Greg started making it a point to sit next to me at get togethers and such. We found that we had things in common and that we liked talking to each other. He found it difficult to believe that I listened to him let alone considered his opinion on things we discussed. What he found even more difficult to believe is that I didn't find his appearance grotesque. I thought him thin but very handsome. He was very tall 6 foot 3 or 4 inches and weighing about 150 pounds. The top of his head was balding but he wore the back shoulder length usually in a ponytail. He had the most beautiful green eyes that I found warmth and comfort in. He suffered from a condition that left lumps over his arms and head that were build-ups of fatty tissue. They weren't painful yet they we unusual looking. But, in fact I didn't notice them until Greg pointed them out. Heidi never failed to point out to him his "grotesque appearance" and remind him that "he could never find anyone that would find him attractive." I thought that horrible and hated the thought that he lived that way. Okay, so my heart melted and I took the lost puppy home. Things were bumpy but good. He stayed with me much of the time because Heidi refused to move out. She was devastated that he wouldn't stay at the apartment. Not that she was upset because Greg had a girlfriend she just hated to live alone. Besides, she didn't have a vehicle and she had to use his. Heidi pulled out all the stops. She cried, she begged, she pleaded. Then she did the only thing she knew would bring him back. She came home from her weekend boyfriend's beat-up. Greg called me from his work and explained what had happened to her and we agreed that he was to go see what he could do and then call me. He showed up at my house a few hours later crying saying that she looked awful and he felt bad but he just couldn't stay with her. "I just don't love her. She depends on me, she doesn't love me. If Dale hadn't beat her she wouldn't care where I was right now." I felt sad for Heidi, but secretly I was very proud of Greg for not falling for this obvious ploy. My brother said she provoked Dale whenever Greg looked like he was leaving. This time it didn't work. A few days later for my 30th birthday Greg brought me 30 long stem red roses. I was thrilled. It wasn't the cost, or the extravagance, nor was it was the fact that I just loved red roses, it was the thought. Besides no one in all my 30 years had done anything for my birthday on my birthday. He gave me a rose for each year telling me that it represented the years it took for me to grow just a sweet as the smell of the roses or some such romantic dribble. My heart fell to the deepest part in the well of love. ![]() Just two days later he called me to tell me that he had stopped at our local hangout to talk to Chip. I said, "Great, I have dinner waiting so try not to be long. Love ya." For no apparent reason he started screaming at me telling me the relationship was over and slamming down the phone. Despite the fact that my brother and sister-in-law told me to just give it time I felt like I had been betrayed. Greg had moved back in with Heidi and was treating me like a leper. Chip and Lisa contributed to the split of my new dating partner sure that Greg was coming back to me soon. Chip tried to talk to Greg but it ended in a fight and Greg hating me even more. Then I found and started dating George. When Greg found out he left me a single rose on the doorstep as a reminder of the 30 roses I received on my birthday or so I believe. I cut it up and sent it back to him. That left my boyfriend Greg very upset and me wondering why he didn't love me like he did her.I wish I had been sitting on his doorstep the day he received that single rose chopped into bits and sent back in an unaddressed envelope. I bet he nearly choked on his tongue. Don't you think that my story belongs on your Other page? No longer bitter, A.K.A. ~ Jacqueline Michelle Lincoln E-Mail: JacquelineML@mindspring.com Web Site: http://www.geocities.com/JacquelineMich Submitted: 5/18/98 Dear I'm Not Bitter; I am a lonely female who found your site because I was told about it, after I found out the truth. You wouldn't believe what my boyfriend did to me. He dragged me into a relationship I didn't want to be in and then he told me to get out. He dragged me into a relationship I didn't want to be in. I wanted to pawn him off on my friend, but he wouldn't let me go. He told me he loved me after knowing me only a week. I was cynical and didn't believe him, and then suddenly, one day I let my guard down. I realized that I did truly love him. Or so I thought. Then, a mere week or so later.....I got the boot. He sat there and told me all the things that were wrong with me. Perhaps mere coincidence that this was less than a week after seeing the ex he used to live with. I don't buy it. He claimed it was hard for him too, but he's already moved in another freakin' sonofab****. Either with a mutual good friend or his ex, or maybe none of the above. His ex would be funny considering he said that I was doing all the things he didn't like about her, and that she has somehow miraculously changed. It's his damn fault that I am now up at 2:45 am, unable to sleep because my brain is too active, trying to console my heart from the freakin' rejection that happened over a month ago that I was just never willing to accept. May he rot in h***, and I hope the cigarettes kill him. Too bad he wasn't in a car when it crashed. Then I did absolutely nothing. Is that pathetic or what? He beat me to finding someone, so I can't even show him that it doesn't matter. And when I do he won't even care since he's already moved on. That left my boyfriend alive with his ex or someone and me wishing he weren't.I hope I finally find someone that matches everything I want. I want my ex to be tormented with the dreams I have, of him begging me to take him back, of watching me marry someone else. I want him to be begging me for mercy, to come crawling back to me. And then I want to tell him to go f*** himself.. Don't you think that my story belongs on your Other page? No longer bitter, Barb E-Mail: Skandranon@aol.com Web Site: http://members.aol.com/skandranon/index.html Submitted: 4/19/98 Dear I'm Not Bitter; I am a lonely female who found your site on my own, after I found out the truth. You wouldn't believe what my boyfriend did to me. After bugging me for 3 months for a date and then dating for 2 months, Lenay told me to be ready friday night at 8:00 p.m., to go out, and he never showed up. Lenay used to come into the Long John Silvers I worked at and buy two fish dinners every friday on his way from college to home. I assumed one meal was for him and one for his wife or girlfriend so I didn't pay much attention to his flirting. He assumed the big ring on my finger meant I was engaged to someone with a pretty decent job. Amazing how real a cubic zircona looks. I was amazed to see Lenay when I changed jobs from Long Johns to Speedway Petroleum. "Are you following me from job to job?" I asked when he walked in to pay for his gas. He laughed and smiled, taking special notice of the fact that I no longer wore my ring. (The rings may look real, but the bands never hold up for more than a few months.) "Feel like dinner after work?" he asked. "I don't think so," I replied, "but thanks." Undaunted, he tried again the next week, "Now I never ask more than twice so if you say no this time I won't ask again. Since you don't like to eat, maybe you'd like to go for coffee after work." "No thanks, I'm sorry, but I don't know you very well and I don't date people I don't know." A week later Lenay was back, "Okay. Just because it's you, I'll try one more time. Would you please accompany me to the circus tomarrow? Daylight and everything." I just shook my head, "No, I just can't." The next week Lenay came into the gas station just as I was lingering around visiting the girl that had relieved me. "So what are you doing here?" he asked with a big smile. "Waiting for you," I replied, being in an unusually cocky mood. "Great, I have to drop my stuff and a meal off to my mom and then we can go for a ride," he suggested. "I don't know," I started to waver. "You can't back out now," he prodded, "now when you have my hopes up and all." "Go," the girl who relieved me encouraged. "Look over this face and remember it, and that red car out there is his. If I'm not back in one hour call the cops," I told her. "And here's my license plate number," Lenay offered as he handed her torn sheet of paper. The night was crisp and clear. I was surprised at how comfortable I felt with him. I didn't feel nervous at all, until he pulled down a semi-deserted road and turned off the car. Before I had time to think he pulled me next to him and kissed me. That done, he started the car, gripped the steering wheel with both hands, and sat staring into the night sky. I was too dumbfounded to move. I didn't know what to think. Here I was sitting in a car, on a deserted street with a guy over six foot tall and outweighing me by at least 75 pounds. "Well, you haven't hit me yet," he ventured. "I'm thinking," I stammered. "I think I'd feel better if we were in an area that was better lighted and more populated." With that he put the car in drive and we drove away. Over the next month-and-a-half Lenay and I spent nearly every minute of every weekend together. We talked about what we wanted in the future and how much we cared for each other. He even mentioned that "when" we were married he would love to buy a house some place near his mother's home. Then one friday afternoon he called me and told me he'd pick me up after he came home from school, showered, and changed. I took special care getting ready that night. I thought Lenay had been acting funny on the phone so I supposed he was up to some special surprise. Boy was I ever right. He never showed up, and when I found him the next day he wouldn't talk to me. He shoved me away from his car, leaving me standing alongside the road crying. Then I stumbled around feeling an overwhelming amount of despair. It wasn't so much for what I felt for Lenay, but for what I dreamed I could and would feel if he had meant all he had said. Four years later, as I was cleaning out my filing cabinet (I'm a bit of a pack-rat) I found Lenay's telephone number. I wasn't sure what I wanted to say, but I knew I had to talk to him. Doubting the number would be right, or that he would still live with his mother, I dialed. When his mother answered I asked for Lenay. She asked for my name but I told her I'd rather not give it. She called Lenay and in the background I heard him say, "If it's Karen tell her that I'm not home." I supposed that Karen was the one looking for Lenay now. When I heard him say hello I knew exactly what I wanted to say, "Lenay, I just thought I'd tell you that your son turned 4 today." That said, I hung up on stunned silence. Let him think that one over. Maybe he will, maybe he won't, but if it makes him run across my crying face and he feels one ounce of regret then I will have achieved more than anyone else ever did with him. But, then again he may have recieved several similar calls, and they may have been real. That left my with a feeling of elation. I felt like a heavy weight had been pulled from me.I wish I had kept his number so I could have called him again later and told him what I had done. I hope he hasn't spent to much time looking for a son that doesn't exist. Well maybe I don't hope...... Don't you think that my story belongs on your Other page? No longer bitter, A.K.A. ~ Jacqueline Michelle Lincoln E-Mail: JacquelineML@mindspring.com Web Site: http://www.geocities.com/JacquelineMich Submitted: 2/28/98 Home | Member Directory | Guidelines Story Submission Form | Pick-up Line Submission Form Pick-up Lines | Money | Best Friends | Bars | Sports Shopping | The Guys | The Gals | Everything Else FallenAngel's Page | Male Jokes | JML'S Page This page is hosted by ![]() |