"Squall? Are you okay, I heard some yells, and I was worried," I told him truthfully.

"That damn bitch," he snarled, "I...can’t believe HER!" he said yelling down the hall to the thin air.

Keep in mind it was pretty late, and I could hear some stirrings coming from the other room so I quickly coaxed him into my room and sat him down on a chair by my small table.

He managed a soft smile, "Geez, Alec. This is my first time in your dorm, and I never knew... how..... how.... Japanese it is."

I looked around. A table with two chairs, and laid out fuku or floor bed; I had one of my favorite poems inscribed on bamboo and hung on the wall as a scroll. A tea maker in the corner that was in use every morning and some nights(and these would be a definite night for tea) and an oak chest in which I contained my herbs and foods (I hate that Western crap they serve in the cafeteria) I also have a small spring I built in my room, it has hot water in it, so I can use it.

"Does it make you uncomfortable?" I ask looking into his eyes.

"No.... Reminds me of a restaurant back home,"

"I’m making you some green tea and ramen, then we can talk about what happened,"

He nodded.

I put an ivory cup in front of him filled with the freshly made fluid.

"The ramen will take awhile," I say backing up to the oak chest.

"Isn’t it just that packet crap?" he says coldly.

"Not if it’s home made," I say with a smile.

He grins, "Alec...... Why are you always so nice to me....... You act hurt sometimes, but you still do it, you know I deserve crap because I always give it out,"

I turn to him and try to manage a seductive smile. I know it probably looks like one of those smiles you probably see Tori Amos make, closed and mysterious. I tried to make it look like a guy on the cover on a magazine I once saw, but I know it came out wrong.

"Squall....," I begin to say, "You have potential, much stronger than mine. I can not hold a candle to your dents on life so far, but..... if I can ease up your life, I would of fulfilled mine already,"

Squall mutters a thanks, and begins to look at his tea steam. I can not take my eyes off of him. His brown hair, tousled a bit, but it makes it look sexy. His eyes a little puffy from crying, are beginning to close and open in an almost brief pattern. I throw him his ramen and a pair of black lacquered chopsticks (He will know how to use them) and stare at his chest. Muscular, smooth, and trace my sight back and forth across his pecs and nipples. A bright metal ring hangs out of one, previously hard nipple now a drop of liquid on his toned chest.

"When did you get that piercing?" my mouth blurts out.

"Oh.... a few weeks ago. Zell tricked me into doing it. Is it annoying you? I can take it out if you want....,"

"Oh no, no, no!" I say throwing my hands up, "It’s fine... I was just curious,"

"Rinoa..... she liked it," he said beginning to cry again.

His hands covered his eyes, as he began to sob softly.

I began to get excited. It may sound cruel but this was my chance, I could a) Console by holding this beautiful youth, b) Stare at him, or c) Get aggressive and tell him to get over her.

Well the first option is a dream, second is most likely to happen, and third is what would totally ruin his visit. Heck, what the hell I chose, a.

I wrapped my arms around his shoulder and pulled him into my chest. As he began to cry into my chest. Now, I’m not as muscular or as tall as him, but it sure felt good holding him and his problems. I would kiss him on the head, but I think it should wait.... it would happen eventually.

It reminded me of my computer class I have toward the end of the day. We just finished learning how to disarm a bomb via computer when the teacher (Miss Korawata.... or something) said we could use the Internet for once. Squall is in this class but he sits in the back next to Zell, who sits to the left of Seifer, and this immature guy (Sorry, I couldn't tell you his name in a million years) I’ve heard of yaoi and slash before, but never got a chance. I read through (I’m a speed reader) thousands of yaoi stories where stuff like this happen, and they begin to kiss each other madly. I was praying it would happen to me. I could hear Seifer laugh along with his other male buddies at (probably female pornography) something. I rolled my eyes and gave Squall an "it’s okay" glance. Zell surprisingly was looking away. I could never understand that about him.

Squall finally pulled away after three minutes of holding time. He took the last gulp of the tea and started on the ramen.

"Thanks Alec..... you know I can get crazy sometimes," he said finishing the ramen rather quickly.

"It’s okay, you would be there for me too, right?" I said almost laughing because I know what Squall’s dorm looks like. Cluttered, J-Pop posters hung everywhere, his uniform probably under the bed wrinkled under his bed. His gun blade slung to the side. One time I cleaned Squall’s dorm just because.... well I was "bored" and he has never stopped thanking me for it. He was drunk that night and I found him struggling with his keys. I let him in and threw him on the bed. I took every bone in my body from jumping next to him, and fucking him senseless. I cleaned to take my mind off of it. I was there when he woke up, and there when he needed help (He had a huge hangover from god knows what) that whole day. Some tea, and rice took most the credit. I can’t help but think that Squall looks at me like a housekeeper instead of the so desired lover I want him to see.

"I’m never seeing Rinoa ever again!" he vowed to himself and to the room. I wanted to say I’m glad, but I just nodded, "You have your eye on someone else?"

"Actually.... I do," he smirked turning me on even more.

I’m very hard to get excited, but when I do get excited I want to be claimed as soon as I can.

"Oh....," I say smiling, "I wont ask who, but I can’t wait to see who your next "victim" is," I say jokingly.

He laughs too. "You’d be surprised....," he said.

Come the future, I would soon find out how true he was.

I remember one mission Seifer, Zell, Squall and I were all assigned on. It was not a big one, just protect the typical northern town from those damn Idea cult freaks. I can remember it so vividly too.

"Can I check out your gun blade Squall, man?" Zell said energetically.

I looked at the ever quiet Squall, who said nothing.

Seifer said some smart ass remark (My memory is not as good as I do remember) and put his feet on the leather table.

I knew what was going to happen.

"Squall, is something the matter?" Zell asked.

"It’s none of your....," Squall began. Him and Quistis finished "Business,"

Zell shrugged his shoulders and began thinking loudly.

I began to wonder if he ever sat still in his life.

I’ve always thought Zell was cute and attractive, but I’ve always liked Squall was always so much cuter and sophisticated. Squall sometimes reminded me of that Trent character on that show Daria, except better looking and has better judgment. But, the smart ones always fall for the ones they sometimes are obsessed with changing.

Zell stood up and started practicing his moves for the battle.

"Stop that," Seifer said, "It is annoying me,"

Zell began to fume and step towards him.

"No," I said blocking Seifer with my hand (like that would of helped) "Zell, I would love to see what you can do. Since, this is my first mission with you, I would like to see what you can do,"

Zell’s eyes beamed with pride as he started to pummel the thin air.

Squall looked me over with a glance that could alienate me from him forever.

I flashed him a smile and winked and mouthed "you’ll see"

A few minutes later Zell threw himself on the seat again. "Man! That felt great! Hey... Alec what is your weapon,"

Squall and Seifer both looked up and towards me.

"That’s right," said Seifer, "I’ve never seen you use a weapon. I forget what it was....,"

"Me neither," said Squall trying to think, "I forget too,"

I grew uncomfortable with all these eyes focusing on me and I stammered, "It is umm.... a staff. A Celtic staff, I use,"

"Does it work?" said Seifer, "It may look ancient but it is no use to us in battle if it doesn’t do anything.

Quintis protected me (I will always be in her gratitude) "Of course it is. It is so powerful (About as tough as Selphie’s weapon) you haven’t seen it,"

Zell laughed," It could make your gun blade look like a safety clip with bullets,"

Seifer growled. Then he said mocking Zell, "Can I check out you staff Alec, man?"

"It’s none of your....," began Quintis. Squall, Quintis and I finished, "Business,"

I would of laughed but Squall’s eyes had once again caught my attention.

The mission was a success, and they were fascinated by my weapon, but most likely next mission they would ask me the same question.