Don't Blame Me

By Melissa

Disclaimer: Don't sue, I don't own, They belong to Joss

Authors note: This is my second try at a fanfic and I now realize they need to be longer, so here goes nothing, Buffys in College, Angels in L.A., She isn't depressed over Park but she begins to think back to Angel... Email wanted and I realize the last time there was no email address, so heres mine. Mel_anne99@hotmail.com


Buffy sits up in her bed and looked over to her right at a sleeping Willow. Its late and she really should get some sleep, but there is one thing on her mind that she can't just get out. She gets up from her bed as quietly as possible, put some clothes on, brush out her hair and head out the door.

Buffy really doesn't know where she's going or what the point of this is, but she kept on walking, until of course, she ended up at the grave yard. She ploped down on a grave stone and look up, another star studded night. Buffy heard leaves rustle behind me and turn around only to see Spike behind me.

"Hey Blonde," he snorts

"Go away," Buffy replied

"Oh, whats wrong with the little slayer, not feeling well tonight?" he said while hopping up onto the gravestone in front of me, "I know your dieing to ask so go ahead, please"

"What are you talking about?"

"You want to know about Angel, you know, what happened when I visited him in L.A."

"Not extensively."

"Oh come on, I bet your first question would be, so who's he dating now, right?"

"Wrong."

"He's actually just moping around right now," he continued, obviously ignoring me,"but you should have seen the look on his face when I told him about you and your little lover, thats right I told him, no need for the look. I mean he was being tortured pyhsically and all but I thought it might be fun to hurt him on the inside a little, you know..." But it was to late for him to finish his sentence, she took one swing at him and he lay flat on the ground, and Buffy just walked off into the darkness.

Buffy continued down the street for about an hour until she ran into someone, in a weird army looking outfit, but she just ignored it and continued. I walked and walked until I stood before his mantion. Strange how I'de ended up here. So Buffy just walks on inside, without really thinking about it, until I see some dark intruder picking something up off the floor, I lunge at him until I discover who it is.

"What are you doing here?" Buffy said in the most concealed voice shecould forge.

"Umm, just picking up somethings that I had left, I didn't know that I would run into you."

"Yeah me neither."

The silence swallowed us whole, her mind set on what Spike had told him and if he would hate me forever for it, but the look on his face only showed love. I heard a noise outside and turned to see who it was. Moments later was followed by darkness and unconciouness overtook me. Buffy woke up a few seconds later to see Angel fighting off Drusilla and then noticed that other vampires had formed in the doorway, one eyeing me. Buffy tried to get up but it prooved next to impossible, until, Buffy saw Drusilla punch Angel hard in the face. Buffy lunged at her and knocked her to the ground. 3 vampires ambushed me and Angel got up and started fight Dru again. I kicked one and turned around to stake another. One threw me off balance but I kicked him hard in the back af the knee, making him fall to the ground. Buffy plunged the stake into his heart, and the other one came running toward me and knocked me down on my back, he ot on top of her and as soon as he tried to bite her someone pulled him off her from behind and started fighting him, the fight yells became more distance as I drifted off.

Buffy woke up in a warm comfortable bed hearing Angel talk in the background.

"Well I couldn't just leave her lying there, I'll be back when its over, ok, you too, bye"

Buffy shifted around in the bed and he looked over at me.

"Oh, your up."

"Yeah, umm, what happened?"

"Dru tried to ambush us, luckily after you were knocked out, Spike came and surprisingly helped out. He's in the kitchen now, making some tea."

"Oh."

We sat there for a while, neither of us talking, until the door opened to a gloating vampire.

"Aww, sleeping Beauty finally awoke."

"Ugh, just shut up."

"Now is the the kind of attitude you take to your heros?"

"Yes," replied Buffy and Angel in unison

"Hey," Buffy said

"Ok, so anyway, look who's back in town," Angel said

"Yeah so, not like I can't handle her."

Spike and Angel gave her looks of utter disbelief.

"What? Not like I can't handle her, I would have if she hadn't took a board to my head, that is what she used, right?"

"Technically, yeah, how is your head anyway?"
"Hurts like hell."

"Here take this," he said offering some tea and tylenol.

"Thanks, so, why were you both here at the mansion?"

"Like I said needed some clothes and I had arranged with Spike to meet me here, he's going to be living here now."

"Oh, well um, thanks guys for the help, but I think I should go now, Willow and the guys will be worried."

"Yeah Willow and Parker you mean,"Spike said under his breath which caught both the eye of Angel and Buffy.

"Well, I really sould get going."

She began to get out of bed and stood up but stumbled and would have fallen off her feet if it wasn't for the sturdy arms of Angel. He quickly distangled himself from her and she began to leave the room. He trailed after her leaving a chuckling Spike behind.

"Buffy wait!" Angel called after her.

"What?"

"You shouldn't go out there by yourself its not safe."

"Yeah well, since when do you start caring about what happens to me?" she said a little under her breath.

"What?"

"Nothing, fine, lets get going."

They began to walk out the mansion and down the road, no one talked, not a word, until Buffy lets it blurt out.

"So, you miss me?"

By his startled look on his face she knew it was a mistake in asking.

"Sorry, that just kinda, came out, old habit."

"No, its alright, I do, miss you that is."

"Oh, well um, I miss you to."

"But, I bet your thinking something awful of yourself right now."

"Um, well yeah kinda, I just, I h ated you so bad for leaving, and I wanted someone I could open my heart to, and he broke it, and now, I belive I have just about given up. Wow, that was a rush."

"No, I'm glad you can tell me this, and please don't regret, it must have been harder on you than I thought it would have been. But, its not like I'm taking this to lightly myself, and working, with Cordelia, well lets just say she won't let you forgot. I mope, alot actually, but it'll take time, and time is what I have alot of right now, but you don't, you need to get on with your life."

"Oh, just shut up about it, I'm fine, not the happiest person alive, but hey, at least I'm alive, I don't need you making all the decisions in my life, I may never find someone I love as much as I love you, it just won't happen. So just forget it ever happened."

"Sorry, I-I just thought the I could help."

"Angel, I love you, but help isn't what I need right now, I need you, but since I can't have you, please, don't blame me if I can't move on. Its just to hard."

He looked at her, stared into her eyes, for once he just got lost in the moment and he kissed her. After a few minutes, she looked up at him and began to cry.

"Why can't we be like this, oh god, nevermind, I forgot, its because...(sniff) you don't want to be with me, well if you don't, then just leave, please."

"I'm sorry Buffy, but I lied, you know I wanna be with you, but it will never last, and I must."

"You mean you wanna be with me?"

"Oh course, but I must go now, goodbye."

He bent over and kissed her on the forhead and turned to leave.

"Please, don't blame me, for I can't."

The End...For Now