Summary Part 3 _________________________________________________________________ Continued. . . I anticipated an angry reply from Courtney. Instead she responded by retaining me to do another more work for her. This work was unrelated to the investigation into Kurt's death. The work was time consuming and when I finished it became obvious she didn't really care about the results. During conversations with Courtney over the next several months, she encouraged me to continue investigating Kurt's death, but she often sabotaged my efforts to obtain information. Whenever I started talking to people close to Courtney about Kurt's death, she'd hire me to do another job. She really had very few options at this point it seemed. Getting angry would just create more suspicion. Cutting off contact would keep her in the dark about what I was doing. Courtney may have also assumed I'd accept more work as a payoff. Courtney often told me she thought Kurt was with Katlin, the drug dealer on Capitol Hill, before he died, but she never asked us for the surveillance video tapes on Katlin's house. At a meeting later in my office in Beverly Hills, Cali told us he checked the greenhouse on Sunday but never looked after that. He said, "It's just a dirty gross little room." The greenhouse is a rather large, clean room. It measures 19' x 23' ! In the May 11th issue of the Seattle Times, Dylan told a Times reporter he didn't know the greenhouse was there. "For alll the times I'd been there, I didn't even realize there was a room above it associated with the house." This contradicted the conversation I had with Dylan in the car on the day Kurt was found. Several weeks later, Courtney told me she gave Cali $30,000 to go to a rehab somewhere back east. She was angry because he took his girlfriend with him. I couldn't help but wonder if this was actually an excuse for a payoff. I finally received copies of the police reports. The reports indicated Kurt has two other Versateller cards in his wallet, along with $120 in cash which was on the floor and $63 in cash, which was found in Kurt's coat pocket. Studying the reports further, I discovered misleading information had been given to me AND the press., ^ As mentioned earlier, the entrance door to the greenhouse had a push and twist lock. Anyone could have locked it and pulled it shut as they left. ^ The stool Sgt. Cameron said was wedged against the entrance doors, was actually just sitting in front of the unlocked balcony doors on the other side of the room. These doors din't allow access since there's no stairway to that balcony. ^ Kurt was NOT barricaded in the room as the police had indicated to me and as the media had reported. ^ Kurts's driver's license had been removed and placed in front of his wallet for a photograph BY AN OFFICER on the scene. Kurt DID NOT leave his license out so his body could be identified as reported in the media. ^ The first officers on the scene had taken 23 Polaroids. The police DID have photographs they could have shown me! ^ The cancelled credit card was NOT in Kurt's possession. ^ There was no attempt in these reports to explain the missing credit card. And yet,... the case was now closed!! I had to wonder, WHY ALL THE DECEPTION? WHAT'S GOING ON HERE? June 4th. Narcotics Detevtive Terry was murdered. He's the first Seattle police officer to be murdered in the line of duty in nine years. I've read the news reports and although it is quite a coincidence, it doesn't appear Detective Terry's murder is connected to the Cobain case. But, I'd like to know more. June 15th. Kristen Pfaff died of an alledged drug overdose, while in her bathtub, on the evening before she was to leave Seattle to go home to Minneapolis. Her body was found on the 16th. In a recent interview, Courtney said she had to go drag Eric away from Kristen's body. I 'm very suspicious of the circumstances of Kristen's death. Evidence will show Kurt was planning to leave Courtney and Seattle shortly after he returned from the rehab in Los Angeles. Kristen was also leaving Seattle, getting away from Courtney. Was this a conincidence?... or was it murder? June 17th. The original so called "suicide" note from Kurt's death was returned to Courtney. The police also returned the note from Rome at this time. Courtney had given the Rome note to the police for handwriting comparison. I find it interesting that the police would return the last pieces of physical evidence in Kurt's death the day after Kristen Pfaff died! As my investgation continued from Beverly Hills, I tried to get Cali back in for additional questioning. He was living in Los Angeles at the time, so it would have been convenient for him to come to my office. Every time I started to focus on Cali, Courtney would give me another time consuming job unrelated to this case. Courtney eventually tried to get me to sign a confidentiality agreement. I told her to send me a copy and I'd look at it. But, I added, "I'm not going to sign anything that could interfere with my investigation." Courtney also said she wanted Cali and Renee Naverette to sign a confidentiality agreement. She said, "Everyone who works for me has to sign it." Why NOW I wondered. She's known Cali for years! The Dec. 15, 1994 issue of Rolling Stone featured an interview with Courtney by David Fricke. This was one of the most interesting interviews I've read so far. It describes Courtney"s mindset and reveals what I consider to be a psychopathic personality. Throughout this interview, Courtney seems preoccupied with convincing everyone how suicidal Kurt was. She tells a story about Kurt bringing a gun to the hospital room when Frances was born and she heroically grabbed the gun from him and said, "I'll go first, I can't have you do it first. I'll go first." This whole story is difficult to believe. I find it interesting that Courtney was so absorbed in promoting the image of Kurt's suicidal tendencies right after his beautiful daughter was born, that she displayed no concern whatsoever for the fact that Frances would have to grow up hearing this horror story once it got published. I don't think this will be the best thing for this little girl's self esteem. I realize my own writing may be read by Frances some day. I don't like that idea, but I feel I have to say these things now in an attempt to protect her in the future. Questions about the Seattle "suicide" note have recently been raised through leaks I've initiated. I firmly believe the note left at the scene in Seattle was not a " suicide" note, but actually a note of retirement written to Kurt's fans. The words at the bottom, "Which will be so much happier without me," appear to have been added to the note. Courtney now says Kurt wrote her another note also. She claims she found it on her bed under a pillow. I know this is NOT TRUE because Thursday morning, well after the time of Kurt's death, I looked under the pillows. I also looked under the bed and between the mattresses. That's where I found a package of Roypnal that I later told Courtney about. Dylan and I were looking everywhere for drugs and drug paraphernalia that might indicate whether or not Kurt had been in the house recently. Even more important, however, is what this "new note" says. Courtney admits it's not suicidal. She quoted from the "new note" in the Dec. 15th, 1994 issue of Rolling Stone. "You know I love you, I love Frances, I'm so sorry. Please don't follow me... I'll be there, I'll protect you. I don't know where I'm going, I just can't be here anymore." This seems to confirm what my investigation has revealed, that Kurt was simply leaving Seattle and wanted to be left alone. Courtney claims she told Sgt. Cameron about this other note. If so, I have to wonder why Sgt. Cameron never mentioned this other note in any police reports and why it was never mentioned to the press. I also have to wonder why Courtney bever told me about this other note during the seven month period following Kurt's death. I continued doing other work for her. She acted as if she wanted me to continue investigating this case but she obviously hadn't told me everything. Now we have two notes left by Kurt. Neither one is suicidal! Both notes simply confirm Kurt wanted out of the music business and he was leaving Seattle to get away from it all. So,... what about the note from the alleged suicide attempt in Rome? Courtney claims there's a line in the Rome note that alludes to suicide. She says the Rome note mostly just trashes her, but she claims, "It says one thing very definetly suicidal." Then Courtney quotes a line from the Rome note written by Kurt, "Dr. Baker says I would have to choose between life and death. I'm choosing death." If this statement really IS on the Rome note, what does it mean? It seems to me the Doctor was simply telling Kurt that if he doesn't get off drugs, he'd eventually die from using them. To think that the Doctor was telling Kurt that suicide was an option for him is absurd! Kurt's response probably meant that he was going to do what he wanted, even if using drugs would eventually kill him. This would be a typical response from a heroin addict. Keep in mind, this incident in Rome was never called a suicide attempt, by anyone, until after Kurt died in Seattle. The doctor in Rome even said he believed the overdose was an accident. Dr. Galleta says, "The last image I have of him, which in light of the tragedy now seems pathetic, is of a young man playing with the little girl. He did not seem like a young man who wanted to end it all." But there's another problem here. We may never know the entire contents of the so called Rome "suicide" note. We may never be able to determine what Kurt actually meant, or if he even wrote the statement attributed to him by Courtney, because this original note has been destroyed. When he returned the note from Rome to her, Courtney claims Sgt. Cameron told her, "This will never do you any good. I'd get rid of this if I were you." So,... she burned it! COURTNEY LOVE, ON THE INSIDE Courtney's personality may be described by reporters and writers as, flamboyant, frivolous, and provocative. But Courtney uses her baby doll appearance, her rambling oratories and her sometime outrageous behavior to cover a host of psychological problems. As an investigator looking for answers to a mysterious death, I viewed Courtney from an entirely different perspective than most. I found Courtney to be extremely intelligent. She's also a psychopath, a pathological liar, and an opportunist who will use anyone and any situation to self-promote her ambitous goals of fame and fortune. No, I'm not a psychologist. Courtney's unbalanced mental condition is so obvious that I don't believe it takes someone with a degree in psychology to identify the problem. The media may see Courtney as a person who's interesting. I see Courtney as a person who's dangerous. Courtney's specialty is an uncanny ability to manipulate MEN to suit her purposes and to serve her needs. She changes her personality like a chameleon. She's adept at becoming the victim whenever she's criticized. She frequently puts on her baby doll act of sweetness and vulnerability while readily admitting, " I never claimed to be an angel." Courtney can cry on a whim. She uses that ability to gain sympathy. Courtney will also admit to being a liar and an opportunist. She wears these titles as badges of honor, often using her habitual lying as an alibi! This most often confuses the observer. In doing so, she's allowed to get away with her schemes. Her antics are usually excused with a shrug, "Well, that's just Courtney!" What's really going on inside this chaotic mind? Listen closely while Courtney speaks. Read her interviews carefully. She'll tell you in her own words! TELEPHONE CONVERSATION WITH ME, April 3, 1994 " In my world, people are pretty scared of me, so they don't f--- with me..." US MAGAZINE, August, 1994 "Brilliant, yes, but a rock star? Kurt? No. I was going to be the more famous of the two of us." "I finally said, 'I'm not on this earth to f--- a rock star, I'm here to BE a rock star.' I would create myself." ROLLING STONE, Dec. 15, 1994 "My thing is, 'Don't f--- with me. In real life,... real, real life, I'm supersensitive.' " My goal keeps me alive... But if you think you're going to stop me from going where I'm going, you're not going to do it." ENTERTAINMENT WEEKLY, Aug. 12, 1994 (On America Online, to those who she felt were trying to exploit Kurt's death)... " I'm on fire, you f---ers,... be afraid,... be very f---ing afraid." WHY SHOULD WE CARE ABOUT A DRUG ADDICT ? Most parents and others over thirty years of age don't understand what this is all about. They see Kurt's death a "another junkie bites the dust." I probably would have felt the same way if I hadn't become so deeply involved in the case and in Kurt's life. No one is more anti-drug than I am. What most parents don't understand is that kids didn't look up to Kurt because he used drugs, they looked up to him because of his talent and the fact that he was basically an honest person who didn't believe in corruption which is often brought on by greed and the pursuit of the almighty dollar. Drug addiction is one of the worst problems our country faces. It's one of the most dangerous and destructive personal problems an individual can have. But drug addiction is still just a flaw. It's a mistake,... it's bad judgement. Kurt wasn't proud of the fact that he was a junkie, but he was honest about it! He didn't like the negative influence he had on kids because of his heroin addiction. As we throw darts of criticism at the drug addict, how many of us can say that our own flaws and imperfections deserve any less condemnation. I do believe there are some evil self-centered people in the world, but I also believe skid row houses a lot of really good people who've suffered rejection because arrogance has overshadowed compassion. Most of us were idealists when we were young. The pressures of having to pay bills and support families can sometimes cause people with good intentions to begin compromising values in order to compete with DISHONEST competitors. Some of us have struggled financially over the years because we've attempted NOT to give in to those compromises. Kurt was determined not to let greed control his life. He lost some minor battles on occasion because of pressure from those around him. But flaws and all, this guy was for real! I grew to admire Kurt as I learned more about him. I've been getting letters from young people who tell me they were so depressed after Kurt's death that they had considered suicide also. I realize several actually did. Please don't ever allow anything that someone else does to influence you so much that you could take your own life. Never let depression get the best of you. Everyone goes through hard times, but life really is worth living if you make the best of what you've been given. When you get down, just look around. There's always someone close by who has it a lot worse and has found a way to cope. Keep your eyes and ears open. I'm up against some pretty powerful and wealthy people here. 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