Nine Times Blue

The two little words hit him hard like a thousand bricks. He couldn’t believe she had just said she couldn’t be with him. After all the touching words he had said her. Words that were the truth! “What do you mean you can’t?!” He managed to force out. “I can’t be with you. Not after you let go once. How do I know you won’t do it again after this tour, huh?” She said, trying to see if those tears he had been trying to hide were being released. Joey held his head down, and walked away from her, sitting on the edge of her couch. He stared at the floor, wondering what he should say to that. “Isn’t my word enough for you? Isn’t me telling you that I would never do that again enough?” He said, lifting his head to look at her face. “Joey, you and I both know that just a word is nothing to go on. It’s not that I think you’re lying to me. It’s just, you may not want me when you have more girls screaming for you, throwing themselves all over you! I can’t deal with that all over again. It would kill me to feel pain like that.” She said, sitting next to him. “And don’t you think it’s killing me too? To not be with you? To have, countless nightmares of how it use to be, and how it should be!” He said, trying to find truth in her eyes. They sat there next to eachother, staring even though they both knew they shouldn’t, for their eyes were leading them to do what they obviously both wanted. Joey moved in closer to Athena, and placed his hand on her thigh. Athena felt as if she was out of her body, and that she could see what was happening, but had no control over what was about to be done. She felt his soft warm lips, touching hers gently. He pulled in even closer, and before she knew it, she was wrapped up in a kiss so passionate, she almost combusted into flames! Suddenly, memories came pouring back. She remembered how good it felt to be kissed by him. How good of a kisser he really was. It made her go weak in the knees almost everytime, and this time was surely one of those times! She felt one of his hands reaching up to the strap on her dress. As she felt it slid off, she knew she had to stop this. “Joey! We can’t!” She said, trying to catch her breath, and trying to push him away. “Yes we can.” He said, continuing to kiss her. He was always very persistent. And she always knew that if she wasn’t always around him when they were going out, that he would be flirting with almost every girl that smiled at him! “No, Joey, we can’t!…….I can’t” She said, pulling her strap up and leaving the couch. “Just go.” She said, with her back facing him. Joey got up from the couch, and walked towards her, placing his had on her shoulder once again. “I SAID GO!” She screamed at him. “Fine, but don’t think this is the end. I will NOT let you get away this time, I’m sure of that. And I will be here everyday until you finally realize that I’ll always be here, loving you!” and with that, he left her apartment, slamming the door behind him.

Athena was in tears as she tried to dial Amber’s number. Surprisingly, she couldn’t remember it, so she took out her address book and looked it up. The phone rang a few times. No one was picking up, but she continued to stay on the phone. Just as she was about to hang up, Amber picked up the phone. “Hell….hello?” She said, sounding as if she had just run a mile or two. “Amber? Are you busy?” Athena asked, wondering what she was doing, and whom she was doing it with! “Um…..well, you can say that. Justin’s here.” She said. Athena’s jaw dropped as she heard Justin in the background saying hi, in the same type of voice Amber was sporting. “What’s wrong? You sound like you’ve been crying?” Amber asked. “I have. Joey just left, and he says he wants me back.” “That’s great, it’s just what you’ve been waiting for! What did you say?” She asked, waiting for her friend to answer, “I said no” there was silence for a moment, and then Amber began to blow up! “YOU SAID WHAT?! ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?! HE COMES ALL THE WAY HERE TO NEW YORK, AND YOU TELL HIM NO? WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?! HE STILL LOVES YOU!” Amber screamed. “Don’t get upset at me. It’s just, I don’t wanna feel the same pain that I’ve felt for the past year or so. I couldn’t live with it.” She said, as she felt the tears running again. “Well, isn’t NOT being with him painful enough?” Amber said, and as Athena thought of what she had just said, she realized that she could just be right. “That’s what I thought, now, Justin tells me that they’re planning on stopping by your apartment tomorrow, with Joey. And we all want you to think about what you would be losing if you let him leave New York without you!” Amber said, hanging up the phone.

The night was hot, and yet Athena still covered herself in her blanket. The blanket that her and Joey use to always cuddle in. She felt herself begin to drift off to sleep, and she could see Joey’s face in her mind. She dreamed of his kiss, and how right it felt. How she still wanted to be with him, but was still so afraid to give into him. She dreamed of making love to him, and she could feel a smile begin to form on her face. She imagined how it use to feel, and how good it felt. Just then, she was woken up from her wonderful dream, by a loud knock on her door. She opened her eyes and got up from where she was dreaming. ‘This better be good!’ she thought to herself. Once she reached her door, she looked out the peak hole. It was Joey! “What is he doing here now?! He better not be here to argue with me again.” She said. As she turned the door knob, she was debating on whether or not she should let him in. She was really tired, and she didn’t have the energy to deal with her emotions. Once she opened the door, Joey stood there, looking as if he was ready for war. He barged into her apartment, closing the door gently behind him. He scooped Athena in his arms, and there was no way anyone could get her out of them. He started to kiss her even more passionately then he did earlier that night. But Athena felt as if she couldn’t stop him. She didn’t want to stop him, because this was what she wanted. What they both wanted. And as Joey led her to the couch that once was known as their, “love making station”, thanks to Justin and Chris, Joey knew he had to do this. And Athena knew she had to give in to this. As he laid her down on the couch, he began taking off his shirt and unbuttoning his pants. And at that moment, Athena knew that this was better than any dream she could ever have!