the dreaded day had come. My last tori show. I was so not okay with this. i would later become much more emotional than i thought. We got to the venue about 7:45 in the morn, which was obscenley early if you consider that i live in LA. But im glad we did..there were 20 people by 9. I was lucky #2 today. yay :]
It was drizzling all morning so we took refuge under some academic building and we all sat around and talked all morning. it was fun. I got to meet rod and nickyerin which was really cool, and michael was there today - and i was really happy to see him again :] It was a very kick back 'were going to pretend this isnt our last show' kinda day. Jason and the rest of us also drafted a realistic dream set list that we all signed and decided to give to tori - more on that later.
it got really bad. there were about 10 people we thought could be problems, and we had no idea where EXACTLy the baracades would be. about 2:30 we all walked over by the buses and sat under another building. as they finally set up the baracades we all lined up by number. dor had to do a lot of talking to get people to listen, but it did work thankfully. about 4 o'clock we all walked over and it went really really well. i was SO stressed about it, and thankful that everyone followed the numbers. it was kinda cool cos all the west coasters lined the baracades.
she finally showed up..and i dunno..i just got really sad. i kept thinking, hi, this is it. it took her quite some time to get over. when she got to david he hugged her, took another picture, asked about lucifer and just, told her how much fun he'd had on the tour and all that stuff..which kinda choked me up. She got in front of me and started signing things. i'll never forget she was looking down signing a rolling stone, and while she was looking down said 'hi erin how are you?' and i was just like 'pretty good and you?' 'im good' hah. anyhow..god what did i say. i said 'thank you so much for alamo the other night, it meant so much to me and it was really beautiful' and i'll never forget her just staring intently into my eyes while i said all that. she was looking just, RIGHT into my eyes...she said 'oh your very welcome, and i'm glad you liked it..vegas was a lot of fun' and she signed my set list with an actual normal looking heart. Then i said 'tonight is my last show and..its just been really great..pretty much everything that david just said' because at that moment i started to choke up and i felt the tears coming and i didnt want to cry, and then she reached up and just gave me this really tight hug. she started to move on and i asked her if i could get one last picture with her, and she told me to hold on and then came over and took it....the second baracade was really far away, so i look like im leaning funny..but it was really emotional and sad. i was trying not to break down.
i know nick also told her it was his last show and she made a comment like 'its everyone last's show isnt it?' or something, and she told him that she was sad to see us go because we were a 'real yummy bunch'. awww...she also said she'd try and do sister janet for him. cindy was talking to tori about a voice teacher or something, and she mentioned bjork, and nick randomly asked the last time she'd seen her...and she said 'the last time i saw bjork she was doing coke in a bathroom' and i was like 'ah..' and she was like 'oh its ok, shes just a party girl'. it was classic. then she went bye bye. david nick cindy and i went and had dinner at boston market and came back right after she finsihed soundchecking..we kinda stood around and i said bye to a lot of people i had just seen around at shows and i cried a little.
then we went in..dude this is a small venue...steep as hell..it was like walking down a mountain or something. kinda scary. we had us some kick ass seats. 2nd row DEAD ass center pit. rocked me so hard. esp. cos i thought it would be a sit down show. I was right in front of colins mic :] Peter once again smiled and waved when i stood up on the way out..they gave a really good set..and i totally enjoyed it, and cried a lot during alone in the dark, which is ofcourse, the last song. i was just like, totally bawling..it was the last time i'd see them, and i have one hell of a crush on colin. Then dor came over and saw me crying and gave me this huge hug and was talking to me while we were hugging and it was really touching and made me cry a WHOLE LOT more. Then i found a bunch of other people and i was talking to them and crying.
Michael came up to me and i commented that i wanted to find steve [sanchez] and say goodbye, and so michael said 'ok lets go' and i walked over to steve and i asked him if he had a second and he said sure..and i told him that this was my last show and that i wanted to thank him for being so great about everything and he just put out his arms to me and i hugged him. And he was like 'thank you for being so great, its nice to see you everyday, and you're such a sweetheart, feel free to come around anytime you'd like' which made me bawl even more..it was REALLY nice and he was SO SWEET it just made me fucking bawl.
so i spent more time running around talking to people and crying and i heard the song come on, so i ran back down to our seats...
first of all...remember that set list i mentioned that jason gave her at the meet and greet? let me tell you what it said...it said:
Precious Things - Little Amsterdam - Black-Dove (January) - Caught A Lite Sneeze - iieee - Liquid Diamonds - Mother - Flying Dutchman - Purple People - Tori's Choice - Father Lucifer - The Waitress - 1st Encore: - She's Your Cocaine - Raspberry Swirl 2nd Encore: Hotel - Sister Janet
that is our setlist EXACTLY. Well this is what she played
Precious Things
Little Amsterdam
Black-Dove (January)
Caught A Lite Sneeze
iieee
Liquid Diamonds
Mother (solo)
Flying Dutchman (solo)
Putting The Damage On
Tear In Your Hand
Father Lucifer
The Waitress
1st Encore:
She's Your Cocaine
Raspberry Swirl
2nd Encore:
Sister Janet (solo)
Hotel
The only difference was Putting the Damage on [which matt page requested] instead of purple people, and sister janet and hotel switched places. But on the actual set list it had it our way. She played our setlist, she did it for us.
But more about the show now - when the lights went down people stood up to the stage. so we climbed over the seats, so i was i suppose second row..i was right behind people on the rail, and i could for the most part see tori just fine. the second the lights went down i was bawling, nick was bawling, and david was bawling. the three of us are just like racked with sobbs all through precious things. the people in front of us kept giving us funny looks...we were just, bawling. I think we were the only west coasters in the front - the only ones she could really see. By Sneeze we had realized that she was doing our setlist, and we were totally excited and touched by that.
I'm not sure which song it was...it was either before Black Dove or Sneeze that tori looked at us and waved and said, something like 'this is our last show in california' and at that point, david and nick and i just kinda screamed out these dramatic sobs, and she looked at us with a sad look on her face and rubbed her finger to her cheek like she had a tear on it too..and she basically told us that we should go with her to the midwest because theyre boring or something. hah. it was really funny but made us cry a lot. She just looked at us a LOT during the shows, when we were crying she gave us these really sad looks that made it worse - but by liquid diamnds i was all cried out, and i couldnt cry anymore..and then i started to look happy, and she was flashing huge grins at us. [the crowd was obnixious]
flying dutchman was beautiful. when she started the familiar notes we all went wild and started screaming. we were SO AFRAID she wouldnt do it. She was so into it..i dont think she saw him, so she'd look off into space with this HUGE grin on her face..it was really long..she did the background vocals for him..all i remember was 'hide your head' and she did some of runnin' up that hill in it. totally wonderful.
tear in your hand got to me because of the 'wave goodbye' part. Father lucifer made david absolutley giddy and she messed up in the middle and said something like 'i dont remember the lyrics to this part..' it was cute and i was happy for david who had been asking her since eugene :] For cocaine the guy in front of me asked me if i wanted to stand in his spot and i was TOTALLY grateful and touched that he offered me his spot on the rail. it meant just like, tons to me. I totally dig cocain live now..i just love the black sabbath part. its so rockin. And i was making faces at caton and he kept laughing at me and that made me happy...i kinda wanted to say goodbye to each person i had any type of communication with, and i felt like i did with caton at that moment. Swirl was totally fun and i cried a little at that one realizing it wasmy last time dancing to it, because thats probably my favorite part of the show. nick kept playing with my head and making it dance. haha.
then she came out and did sister janet which made nick bawl again and she kept smiling at him and it was really beautiful, and then she did hotel. and we were floored. she was gone. bye bye. kaput.
some of us were in the meet n greet, and some werent. david and i were set on not seeing her again because we already said ourgoodbyes, so we went around a building and sat around and talked and pretended we didnt know she was out there..then when she left we walked over and said our goodbyes to everyone. I've never hugged so many people and meant it in my entire life. i hugged like, evereyone. Sary and Michael had the most comforting hugs. It was really nice, and made me even sadder...but ended the perfect sad evening, to the perfect and magical 3 week experience.
i'm gonna miss that darn tori amos, and everything that goes alone with her and the shows.
thank you tori. thank you awesome crew members for taking the time to smile at me, thank you band members for waving little hellos, thank you fans for being assholes, thank you fans for being wonderful. Thank everything for every little elemnt of every show. i had the fucking time of my life.
it got really bad. there were about 10 people we thought could be problems, and we had no idea where EXACTLy the baracades would be. about 2:30 we all walked over by the buses and sat under another building. as they finally set up the baracades we all lined up by number. dor had to do a lot of talking to get people to listen, but it did work thankfully. about 4 o'clock we all walked over and it went really really well. i was SO stressed about it, and thankful that everyone followed the numbers. it was kinda cool cos all the west coasters lined the baracades.
