Subject: i will confide.
Date: 1/31/99 10:28 PM Pacific Standard Time
From: Lazy Divey
Message-id: <19990201012842.01187.00002146@ng-fq1.aol.com>
i had a really strange night. and i don't know what to do. and i appreciate you listening.
i babysat my brother today, who just came home from a week's vacation with my parents, skiing in tahoe. well we were playing and stuff, and jessen came over about 4:30. we were all in the kitchen playing with my brother's toys and just talking and it was really nice. then we started getting innuendic about the trailmix of nuts we were eating. and davey mentioned that he knew what we were talking about...
and he started BAWLING. i mean, sobbing.
it was So weird. he started telling us how he was so afraid that he was going to go to hell because he said and did bad things. he just kept saying "im gonna go to hell, i dont want to" i was like freaked out. jessen handled it REALLY well. because davey, who is 8, went on to tell us that he is (ok he actually said this) "inside of a huge bubble, with all these bad things attatched to it..with one really bad thing. its my secret with god. and im afraid im going to go to hell."
it took jessen about a half an hour to calm him down. i was just like, freaked. he kept saying he did one BIG thing wrong, and that its his secret with god. and...i dont know what to think. i dont know how to interpurt that. it could be him being dramatic, cos he does do a lot of drama, or it could be something stupid. or...by the end of the conversation the vibe was "its not your fault, you're just a kid"
but i dont know if we made it out to be that way. i dont know what to do. something tells me NOT to mention it to my parents. its so weird. i just hugged him and told him he could talk to me about anything anytime he needed to.
i dunno. it was so heartbreaking :\ any tips, i'd appreciate it.
thank you for reading. i needed to talk about it..
erin with a big hella e.
some boy you are.
