HI
BLUE. blue blue erin. hi. i just got done watching Dawson's Creek. You know, the season finale where they finally kiss? I just curl up in that show. it makes me so warm. every ten minutes i would say 'makes me want to die.' Now i'm watching the encore of Felicity. It's so good. We watched it last night. And the new Buffy. WB is getting good. These shows just, make me want to die. I want to live in them. I want to be a part of their perfectly tragic world. I want to fit into it, and its dramas somehow. I want to fly.
instead i have this strange blue pathetic existance. i've been so meloncholoy lately. I feel like i have so little to hold onto now. Everything that was important to me has been taken away from me. Either i ended it, or they took it away. i feel like i have nothing. all i want to do is go on the road and have fun and fuck life, like i felt like i was doing for two weeks. i was having fun. no worries, at least nothing beyond how close to the front of the baracade would i be, and would someone be falling asleep at the wheel. i dont know. i feel trapped. today, i woke up in time for class, i woke up early...but i didn't go. simply because i didn't feel like getting dressed, or leaving the house. thats a bad sign.
instead i have this strange blue pathetic existance. i've been so meloncholoy lately. I feel like i have so little to hold onto now. Everything that was important to me has been taken away from me. Either i ended it, or they took it away. i feel like i have nothing. all i want to do is go on the road and have fun and fuck life, like i felt like i was doing for two weeks. i was having fun. no worries, at least nothing beyond how close to the front of the baracade would i be, and would someone be falling asleep at the wheel. i dont know. i feel trapped. today, i woke up in time for class, i woke up early...but i didn't go. simply because i didn't feel like getting dressed, or leaving the house. thats a bad sign.
