Oh sigh. Last night valerie and i decided that we were depressed. All we do is eat and shop. And there's no apparent reason WHY we're depressed. Other than lonliness. Its getting really pathetic. I personally feel my eating disorder coming back. I can't seem to stop. Let me explain. Even tho i have a blast with Val (and going out with my friends is the *only* thing keeping me sane), we still find it necessary to..well eat and shop. Yesterday my dad brought home chinese food. i ate like half because i knew i was going out. So i get to Valeries about 8. I meet the CK model (Woo!) and we head towards sunset. First we stop at arons records where i aquire a moz promo and anges gooch. Then we stopped at the french quarter for dinner. I have a nice large bowl of French Onion Soup. Then we spot some music buses and we go to the bel age hotel trying to figure out what band it is..but we leave. Then we go to another hotel and climb to the roof ..and it was just so beautiful. Seeing the whole city like that. All windy and full of lights. Then we decided we needed desert. Its just. Sick. we eat way too much.

Today like every friday, david came over. We went to see a Life Less Ordinary. Oh yeah. I *finally* got to see the Titanic Preview. After crying every time i see a movie. It was beautiful. A life less ordinary was a WONDERFUL movie. You must go see it. But it made me sad. and lonely. what else is new? So after david left i got into this quiet peaceful mood. I put on enya real loud, and i drew myself a milk bath and lit candles with a bottle of white wine. I feel so clean. and almost that sense of a ..quiet peaceful sad that he always said meant i was in danger of "serious" depression. So im sitting here typing by candles being all warm from my white wine. I need to write morriseey a letter. Maybe now would be the best time to. Val needs to call me too. I get to see the great mozzer on sunday. and monday. yay. im starting to feel a little tipsy. bye bye.

music~
save ferris
the memory of trees~enya