sing a sad song in a lonely place and try to put a word in for me
its been so long, since i found a space you'd better put in 2 or 3
we as people are just walking around our heads are firmly fixed in the
ground what we dont see well it cant be real what we dont touch we cannot feel
-sad song by oasis (yes oasis)

October 22nd 1997 (2:30 p.m.)
Im putting the time in because i usually do this page sometime after midnight, so im assuming that i will be updating this later on tonight. See, Val ws supposed to come over today and we were gonna watch Truth or Dare, but she had to work at the last minute, so i think im going to see Nicky. Not sure yet. My toes are cold. I'm so bored! I woke up at 10 today because i was late taking davey to school, so i just stayed up. Now THIS is is why i sleep all day. Im bored out of my fucking mind. It sucks. And somethings wrong with my AOL. They want me to wipe it out and re install it and i just DONT feel like doing it, so im using netscape rather than MSIE. That seems to be the problem afterall. Im in this huge oasis mood. Im not sure why. I listened to all the albums and now boots. I downloaded the dont go away video (if you cant tell..) because the imagery in that video is absolutley beautiful. i adore it. Im so tired.

i wanna talk tonite
until the morning light
about how you saved my life
and you and me see how we are

Yesterday i actually went shopping. I went to buy new jeans and shoes for the morrissey shows this weekend. (I am so so excited!). I all of a sudden have this..i dunno, i want to look nice for moz. I mean, it'll be nice for ME, not for most ppl though. Oh well. heh. i don't have the drive to clean up my room but thats okay.

Oh yeah. I have two royally fucked up friendships right now. WOOHA! another one for the dolll. I always do this. When they get so bad i subconciously FORCE myself to become numb to them. LIke i did with jen. and wendye. and even froggy. I care about them so much that for some reason..i just drop them. Without a care. And when i think about them i get so depressed i completley freak out. So i keep shoving them back and back until they're gone. And im doing it again. And i dont want to. I dont want to lose these people. But i dont know what to do. I dont want to think about it. It makes my heart hurt.

erf. i think im gonna go watch Starshaped. Nicky loaned it to me. Ill probably write more about my adventures in claremont when i get back. Bye. and im sorry.


Music~
Be Here Now
Black and White Boot~(esp. whatever, sad song, live forever acoustic and i am the walrus)
Oasis Unplugged Boot
(i *adore* them unplugged. theyre so much better!)