November 7, 1997-
Well...like I've said before. I'm honest in my journal...but there are just some things I feel I can't say. I think though...that there are a couple things I really should say. Hm..eek. First of all...I think I'm going to stop deceiving myself and admit that...I think Nick and I are right for eachother. So many times I've looked into his dark brown eyes...and wanted to run my fingers through his thick curls. I mean I used to think I was a lesbian..but that one physical encounter with Christina just..made me realize that it's not for me. Sorry Christ...it's me..you were wonderful. With that in mind...I'm really concerned about all you gay people. Recently I've rediscovered my friendship with Jesus, we've been having little conversations lately..he tells me that I should be worried about my friends. That's why I'm so excited about Christmas this year. I'm really looking forward to celebrating our Savior's birth! I don't think I'll be starting school next Semester. I think the best thing for me to do is join up with one of those Christian fellowships that hands out pamphlets in Santa Monica or at the airport...I dunno. But in the meantime, I want you to know that I'm praying for your souls. Especially you, Stanley...I can't help but feel that there may be hope for you. Jesus is helping me deal with my overwhelming desire for sex also. I just think of Jesus dying on the cross and i'm just like "wow, my suffering is NOTHING in comparison to THAT!" I think I've said enough for one night...Eruh, I'm tired. Oh. I'd really like feedback on what i wrote. Let me know what you think please? e-mail me.

Music~
Reba McIntire
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Read part two of this journal entry here.