Hello. Technically this could be yesterday's post since it just turned today, but this is a white theme, and the other one was black. you needed to know that ok? I get my check later today. thank god. they just took the credit card away - and i can't use mine..so i'm pretty much screwed at the moment. I was just listening to various smiths albums for fun and like..i had ALWAYS brushed off 'there is a light that never goes out' and it was always everyones favorite, and i never understood why. but, dude, i am SO into it tonight. its really good. I'm listening to vauxhall now, but i thik i wanna go back to the smiths. hehehe.
SO blah. if you can't tell, i'm feeling loooooonely again. I'm like wait..wuh. i dunno, i'm like caught up in this weird circle. i almost feel like the only thing going for me lately is tori. She's always there. I like really fell back into it the other night. i listened to everything. Shes just..always there for me? You know. its really sad. so bah blah. i feel like i'm building up for something, like i have this goal - and its like september. EVERYfucking thing about september. But then what? Once it happens whats left? the trip to europe is too far in advance to really depend on. So ..i dunno.
i can't help but feel really alone and deserted laetly. i put my heart into this...thing that i dont even know what the hell it is because i should have realized it wasnt very stable because of outside lives and..i let myself fall into it
'i am falling
and there's still
no one to catch me'
so yeah. stupid stupid me. i canNOT even care tho - thats not right. care is the wrong word. i mean, i can't expect it to stop. You dont give up something real so you can talk to someone that you've never even met. It's not like we have anything to say anyways. So moving right along..i have concerts. sean lennon friday, lisa loeb and rufus wainwright saturday and heather nova wed and b52s the following saturday. um. woo. hehehe
my wrist hurts. goodnight, even tho no one reads this. la de da
Hello. Technically this could be yesterday's post since it just turned today, but this is a white theme, and the other one was black. you needed to know that ok? I get my check later today. thank god. they just took the credit card away - and i can't use mine..so i'm pretty much screwed at the moment. I was just listening to various smiths albums for fun and like..i had ALWAYS brushed off 'there is a light that never goes out' and it was always everyones favorite, and i never understood why. but, dude, i am SO into it tonight. its really good. I'm listening to vauxhall now, but i thik i wanna go back to the smiths. hehehe. 