I need to stop this disgusting sleep pattern i'm in. Its 6am and i'm not in bed yet. My parents come home this afternoon, so the pattern won't be quite as bad. Look i'm actually writing like a normal human being. nerrrr. Pathetic Existance. Thats the word i like to use lately. I really need a friggin job. It's getting like, hopeless, i need one so bad. I have to go to Oregon. [sigh]. Hope everyone has noticed the countless page renovations. I've updated my main pages and my personal pages, as well as the journal page and i updated my tori page like a mutha. Alrightie then, my browser is frozen. This just isn't my morning...I'm listening to my Hey Jupiter Promo. Its the only promo i actually listen to. Its the Dakota Mix and original. Sometimes i'm just in the mood for it. I was a Pele girl tonight. Oh, LOOK! there's the sun. ALRIGHT. I took a bath not to long ago. I found this amazing bath & bodyworks like..bath set. It had shampoo, conditioner, lotion, bubble bath & liquid talc. Dude i was in Pulmera heaven. i smell. It usually bothers my allergies, but this is a fruity scent, not perfumey, so its okay. Go me eh? So anyhow, baths make me sad. I've been in that quiet romantic mood all week anyways, so i suppose it didn't take much now did it? There's something so ...sensual? i dunno..about baths. The sound of the water splashing with every movement your body makes. The feeling of the bubbles gliding over your legs. If i had a nicer body, i'd really want to take a bath with someone... [but, y'know]. Now onto my cuddle complaint. Do you know when the last time i slept with someone was? I mean...not sex [duh thats never happened] but just like, cuddled up with a friend and fell asleep in each others arms. Well, i suppose i've only done it with one person, but we did it a lot. For like almost a year. And its been two. And i miss it. i feel so rejected. Its erin's day to bitch.
Anyhow, ONWARD! I got a letter from christ that kinda rattled me. I'm not sure how to respond..i think there's been a lot of mis-communication. So, we'll see...bah. Okay, i just rememberd..no one actually reads these things. Isn't it pathetic i even put THIS much work into it when no one cares?? Mwah! Okay help me, i'm listening to Ani. Umm..and its like, her 2nd album too. Weird. "i am thinking of her fingers as i walk.." la la
Its so easy for me to address certain subjects the way i've written the last two journal entries. So um..do that here . Don't know why im splitting it but i want to so DEAL.
I need to stop this disgusting sleep pattern i'm in. Its 6am and i'm not in bed yet. My parents come home this afternoon, so the pattern won't be quite as bad. Look i'm actually writing like a normal human being. nerrrr. Pathetic Existance. Thats the word i like to use lately. I really need a friggin job. It's getting like, hopeless, i need one so bad. I have to go to Oregon. [sigh]. Hope everyone has noticed the countless page renovations. I've updated my main pages and my personal pages, as well as the journal page and i updated my tori page like a mutha. Alrightie then, my browser is frozen. This just isn't my morning...I'm listening to my Hey Jupiter Promo. Its the only promo i actually listen to. Its the Dakota Mix and original. Sometimes i'm just in the mood for it. I was a Pele girl tonight. Oh, LOOK! there's the sun. ALRIGHT. I took a bath not to long ago. I found this amazing bath & bodyworks like..bath set. It had shampoo, conditioner, lotion, bubble bath & liquid talc. Dude i was in Pulmera heaven. i smell. It usually bothers my allergies, but this is a fruity scent, not perfumey, so its okay. Go me eh? So anyhow, baths make me sad. I've been in that quiet romantic mood all week anyways, so i suppose it didn't take much now did it? There's something so ...sensual? i dunno..about baths. The sound of the water splashing with every movement your body makes. The feeling of the bubbles gliding over your legs. If i had a nicer body, i'd really want to take a bath with someone... [but, y'know]. Now onto my cuddle complaint. Do you know when the last time i slept with someone was? I mean...not sex [duh thats never happened] but just like, cuddled up with a friend and fell asleep in each others arms. Well, i suppose i've only done it with one person, but we did it a lot. For like almost a year. And its been two. And i miss it. i feel so rejected. Its erin's day to bitch.