I know i know im REALLY far behind in this. I actually wrote a journal entry last week or so, and it was REALLY good and REALLY long with a new poem, but Geocities erased every trace of it. Whatever. Ohh i'm listening to Ani right now. Joyful girl la la..i haven't listned in so long. Her new album comes out next week. I heard the new song on the radio today while i was glazing, and i'm like.. "ahh..this song is...bad". Hm, we'll see. Rolling Stone gave it a "she's raelly good but the album really isn't" kinda review.
So what have i been up to? I've spent a lot of time online lately. I've felt like messing with my pages. I've gotten a start on my version of the dent..but for Scott Weiland. We'll see. And my Leo digest is taking its toll on me. My Leo site was added to Yahoo, and ive gotten like, 4,000 hits in 4 days, and over 200 new subscribers. It's getting somewhat..stressful. Hm. I'm going scanner happy. If you notice the new logo on my journal page. And my entry page actually. I'd like to try and change it SEMI-frequently. Anywho.
So blah where do i go from here? Things have been okay. I'm having my ups and down. With my friendships. Things were kinda stressssed last weekend. i discussed a lot of my...personality traits and flaws with Nicky and Christ and it was a really tough thing to hear. They thought i "missed the whole point" but i really didn't. I am trying. I don't want to, simply because i feel that it's *giving in*. And i don't want to do that. But we'll see. The major loss i saw was..a felt a huge gap form between me and Christina. I kinda feel like i've lost my trust in her for the time being. And i'm not sure why. It's a really huge loss. I don't know how to read her. But, bah. I hope it mends itself. We've got da radiohead coming up.
Titanic has lots of Oscar™ nominations. Yay. School is blah. I like it a lot tho. I just hate the parking. I would do ANYTHING to change it. Today i glazed for the first time. I had my arm in the vat of glaze up to my elbow mixing it around. Major fun :p. I enjoy that class a lot. And spending time with Grace, the girl that sits next to me. La la la.
Last night david came over randomly. Heh. we had red robin and music shopping and watched the new Marilyn Manson video. Which was semi-interesting. hehe. And a kick ass jerry springer is gonna be on tonight. I'm really excited about that :) Things were bad..and now they seem good. So im happy about that. Im feeling *inspired*to be nice...i hope it lasts. I didn't realize how far i let it go. But its never gonna go away. if anything, just smooth out the edges. So like after we watched TV we came in my room and somehow got to reading some old letters of mine..then i went through my filing cabinet and found old chats..with cindi, sean all my old "TCBY" friends and matt. It was odd.The evil of Valentines day is coming upon us. Just another day to feel lonlier. Whatever. I dyed my hair turquoise the other day. Er, i tried. I only put it on like, the front of my hair, since i have so much. And it's semi greenish and i dunt like it. Hah. i like the change but its even LESS Flattering (if that's possible). Oh well. I;'m only stuck with it for a month. Okay thats enough for now. im really tired. I feel like re-doing all my pages. Bye bye.
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