December 2 1997

Eep. Hi. Once again i am VERY drowsy. I think it's over my contacts actually. i went to get new contacts today. (hah. my prescription is now 375. woo) and they were out of mine, so i have flimsy stupid disposables. They bug me. They slip and blur and i never *forget* that im wearing contacts. And i had an awful morning's sleep. I wish my step mom wasn't sick. ALl she does is yell and whine. At first i thought it would be cool for her to be home..ya know, *quality time* since im never home. Ohhhhh no. She kept waking me up to yell at me for various things. I was so close to cussing her out. Sadly, the only reason i stopped was because then i really wouldnt get to go back to sleep if she did. So i ran all these random errands for her. Erf.

My ankle hurt's today. Not a good thing :(. I did a lot of running around. I refunded my Bjork ticket...and bought a ticket for Green Day. And christ and i went to fingerprints. We've decided to do it every tuesday to get the free stuff ;). That store makes me spend money! But i didnt do half bad..with 18$ i got 3 CDs and two vinyls. One CD for my mom..and i got the Kara's Flowers CD and the Devlins first ablum for 92 cents..the the best..i got The Queen is dead and Strangeways on Vinyl for 3 bucks. hehehe..Strangeways is in good condition too. Then christ and i did MORE shopping, but i didnt buy anything. We just went to malls and stuff. And we got back to her house just in time to see the last 45 minutes of the spice girls special! I cant WAIT for the movie. It looks SO GOOD! better than i thought it would be. Even christ wants to see it semi bad. hehe..so it made me wanna listen to Viva Forever..the best song on spice world. Im listening to it now! hee. It's so pretty.

So like, i actually got home early tonight. 11. Buti watched 2 hours of talk shows. LOL. Im so addicted. I LOVE Jerry..and Maury has good shows, but i HATE him as a host. He's awful. The audience pretty much carries the show. IT was another "teen makeover" show but i love those. But what made me like, reflect and stuff...was three of the makeovers were little 12 year old girls that were like..dawn weiner. Constantly made fun of and stuff. One was down right pretty. Hm. But it made me think about my past...i was one of those kids in school. I mean, these girls were teased..basically because they were poor. And they probably had that attitude. You know, the whiner cry baby teachers pet immature kind of person. And even i was like that. So why was i half heartedly accepted? I dunno. Im talking about 7th grade here. Ya know, i wore the stretch pants with matching tops, or the tshirt short sets with puffy paint designs..whatever marcia bought me. I didnt wear body suits or have the stylish "flare". But i wasn't really picked on. Its weird.

And its sad how these kids ..everything is based on apperance. The one main little sad girl, got so cocky with her new look. Like to the point where i wanted to smack her. She had this "im so cool everythings gonna be fine" look. I can just imagine her walking into school in the ONE outfit they gave her..and she'll expect everything to be different. ANd it wont be. I feel sad for that.

And then i started thinking about outward apperance in school. I look at my group of friends now. If we would have gone to high school together, i KNOW i wouldnt be friends with any of them. Nicky was the kind of guy who just stuck to himself, david was the preppy kid that pretty much kept to himself..christ was one of the odd artsy students that talks about a lot of ppl and doesnt hold back, and valerie was one of the snotty girls that was into status. So why are these my best friensd? WHy do i love them so much? Because we dont go to highschool together. And we could actually be ourselves with each other.

It's sick what high school does. Erf.
Okay im tired goodnight. (oh you guys, i hope you didnt take that insulting. Im too tired, it didnt come out right..i hope you know what i mean. yes.)

Love ya. nite nite
dolll

oh yeah...i made so many moz/bjork collages last night. maybe i'll put some up..oh yeah! my web went down last night and i didnt get to write about it..bjork cacnelled her shows.:( pooh

Music~
Smiths-Louder than Bombs
Spice Girls-Spice World