hi there. how are ya'all? its so weird. Lately i've been SO INTO a SINGLE song that i'd ignored like, forever. Yesterday i was just IN TUNE with Ricidulious Thoughts [cranberries] and i'd never given that song the time of day. Today it's Justify my Love. I've never even listened to that song before. Bizarre i tell you. So hi, how is everyone? I'm actually in a pretty good mood....

Yesterday Nicky and Dor randomly came over and i ...[insert home alone face] COOKED THEM DINNER! It was like fruit salad, raw veggies and dip, egg drop soup and like, a pasta dish. And i made kool aide :] I NEVER make food for anyone. It wasnt hard or anything, but it was like random of me. Since we saved money on dinner we thought we could afford an art flick, so we saw Billy's Hollywood Screen Kiss. It was so good! Even tho the acting was HORRIBLE. It was just really cute. And dude, i'd forget he wasn't brad pitt. The bed scene was sooooooooooo cute. No Dyke Diana. Anyhow, and then we killed time but i have no clue what we did..let me think..oh yeah we went to Westwood [UCLA] and had diddy resse cookies ..we love it there. 3 cookies and milk for a buck. I even treated nick :p Then we picked up david from work, ate again [hahaha] and went to a random park [this was 2am] and like, discussed masturbation all night. Typical evening for us actually. hahahahahahahhahaha [this is mel rubbing off on me. hahahha].

Then today i dragged my ass out of bed at like 3pm [early for me] and..i DID stuff. I went to the travel agency, are you proud? So i am GOING to oregon baby!!!!! Wheeeeee. It was like shocking sitting there with the tickets in my hand. It like hit me, i am GOING. Wow. The guys so didn't really know what they were doing but it was okay. For some reason i found the gay travel agency. hahaha. even tho it was my local one, they were all fags! like old ones. but it was cute :] And i also booked our room in vegas. Ahhhhh yeah.

anyhow, i'm excited...and scared. So much is gonna happen in like, 3 weeks. First i fly off to oregon [with a lovely 3 hour stop over in san fran when im ALONE] which is gonna be the most emotional part. It could go wonderfully, or it could go badly. [im rooting for wonderful]. It could tie me in knots. It could get weird. i DUNNO! And in the midst of all that, i see tori. And to make it better/worse i get to see tori in a general admission atmosphere...which is going to STRESS me the hell out. I can't imagine going to a tori show and not meetin her..and unless someone in my part is willing to wait in line while i and [i wont meet her without jeni] jeni meet her, i just won't get to. And i have so much to say to her - and i have to say it to her WHILE in oregon. She MUST play my song too. hehe. so anyhow, yeah. General admission tori shows make me crazy. Then i come home and recoup for 2 days and i have the rest of my tori shows...6 more shows - 2 more general admission and the craziness of leno..i'm going to have to be around a lot of people i don't like and would love to give a good ass whooping too, i may get shoved to the back of the M&G which i could not handle and..blah! i dunno. See stress? :] hehe. oh and then in vegas..i just might run into cindi! that would be weird. I dunno, i suppose we'll see..now wont we. Strike a Pose ......... Well enough of that. The ridiculious thoughts is perfect. Watching it again and the INTENSITY of it [duh, elijah is so hot in it, but thats not what i mean] just MAKES the song...mean so much more to me. iTS ON THE DANCE FLOOR! C'mon VOGUE!. OKay so tomorrow david and i are getting Cheesecake Factory, and then we're teaming up with val to finish my camera shopping and pick up some hookers on Hollywood Blvd. Not really but ..... ya know, celebrity glossies. Whatever. Fun week ahead. Free Shonen Knife and jen's last show before she goes away to school. that will be weird. Maybe she'll let me take photos with my new camera. It would be weird to ask. But i'd like to have some. I think she actually got signed now. Weird. I may have known someone famous. duuuuuuude. I just want everyone to know that i am fat [i have thoughts like mexican jumping beans i swear]. Like seriously. NIcky and i were watching an episode of Roseanne and we always do the 'am i that fat' game and i realized, i AM roseannes size. and he agreed. and im just like, dude. WHEN did this happen. I've always been fat..but not like THAT fat. i've gained 30 pounds since last summer. Its SO WRONG. BLAH! i have the grossest body. I know everyone hates their body but i mean, my thighs are the worst of it all. Okay this is stuff you so don't want to know. I love food. Okay i'll stop. Goodnight!

erin [kiss kiss] august 10 1998










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