hi there. i didn't mean to write to you again, but right now i feel like you're the only one listening. i hope you don't mind. i had a good day today. i want to express its goodness - it makes me happy.
it actually didn't start out good. i woke up for class, and i left after a half an hour. it was a video, i didn't care. then i came home and napped. probabably wasnt a good idea. i woke up in time to go into my photo lab. i needed to mount my contrast filter prints - due tomorrow morning. so i went in..and i walk in, and there he is. charlie. standing talking to this cute girl. i almost turned around and left when i saw him. i didn't want him to think i was following him or anything. it was completley by chance. The second he saw me i had his full attention. it was odd. at first i thought he was there WITH that pretty girl. but he wasn't. and so we worked together.
i kind of wish he wasnt there. i feel like he makes me mess up. he makes me all nervous. but he was totally helping me tack down my mountboard. but he kept making me move it and i'd get all nervous. I really didn't WANT to see him today. i was wearing my jackie shirt, and it makes me feel very very fat sora. i always feel fat in light colors. And i had that gross 'nap' feeling. But, nonetheless he was there. And we worked for about an hour. Now he's teasing me for my height [i couldnt reach the handles on the press's too well] and - he teases me a lot. playful teasing. what does that mean?
after we finished i kind of wanted to wait till he left..so i pretended to read signs on the door..and he asked me for a ride. ohh. so i gave him one. i was just ..extremley apologetic as to how dirty my car was and he was like 'its just because you have a boy in it.' Oh my. am i that obvious? We had a nice little drive, and when i dropped him off his sister came bouncing out. She just jumped in my car and began to talk volkswagens with me. For a good five minutes sora. She was so nice. It was a strange feeling. I dont know why geting along with his sister made me so happy..
then i came home. and my friend called me. She collect called me from inside the venue in Memphis. In between the devlins set, and tori's. She was so excited. Tonight was the devlins last show. And, well sora, last week i sent a letter to colin, the singer. I had my friend deliver it yesterday in Tulsa. She gave it to my other friend, and she gave it to colin. wasnt that sweet? Well since today was their last show, colin brought out a bag of goodies for all the regulars that had been supporting them. Inside was my letter. Well, the envelope, with a little note to me writte on it. At least this is what she tells me. Can you believe that sora? He took the time to write back to me. I was on cloud nine! and just now shes told me, after the show, he made sure the letter got to me. isn't he so sweet!? My god i love him.
and then...it was time for dawson's creek. god how i had looked forward to this new episode. I spent the entire first half curled up in a ball kicking away saying 'yay' every minute or so. So good. That show has NOT let me down yet. it just..makes me so happy. i try and try every week to explain why i love that show so...but i just..can't put it into words. It's more than i show i love, its the way My So Called Life affected me for so long. The show is like, inside of me. I hope you know what i mean sora. i know you watch it sometimes, but i don't know what its meant to you - probably just another show [wry grin].
You could say that i've had a good day, all things considering. the experiences with charlie made me happy enough, and now..the devlins? beautiful, wish you were here.
