PEOPLE TALKED TO ME! it never happens
i meant to sleep early last night, but valerie called, and we had a really nice chat, so i didn't get to sleep until 1230 or so - i overslept this morning. i only had 15 min to get ready. oh well, i did make it to my photo class on time - this is where it gets interesting. You remember me mentioning rockabilly boy right? his name is matt :p. random. heh. anyhow, i dunno..like i knew him and i would talk. we had total like body language that we like, WANTED to talk - neither of us ever did tho. more than, when he passed papers back to me he'd smile in his cute james deanish way and say hello.
welllllllll. today. hee. we were learning how to load film onto reels which ive always had a hard time with. and we were supposed to pratice in pairs doing it with dummy rolls. the second he said that matt swung his desk around. and im like, whoa. COOL. hee. we had just gotten our photo passes for the lab - and mine was sitting on my desk - see i scanned in my photo. i think i look like a muppet. anyhow, he looked at it and said 'hi erin'. and proceded to use my name everytime he referred to me. its WEIRD to me when people do that. like every statement said to me was followed with 'erin'. im usually totally fine with talking to people. i dont get too flustered, and i can just like chat. but dude he just intimidated me. he seems like constantly amused and stuff. his cute little squint has a constant grin. so he loaded it in a snap. and then when i tried it i just COULDNT do it. like, retardedly. I personally think its because he was making me nervous. and he was watching me, i just could NOT do it. and he'd tease me and take it away and start it for me and show me how to do it and i STILL couldnt do it and it was EMBARASSING cos im the one thats had a photo class before! geesh! so anyhow, i never did get it loaded :] we talked a bit - he brought up tori. he said he liked her - but he didnt go much farther about how much . hee. i dont want to scare people off. its so hard not to go off about it. we talkeda bout HS and i think he said he graduated 92 which makes him kinda old, but he talks low so i coulda been wrong. oh well :] hee. hes nice. and its nice to have someone to talk to in there. but he makes me so damn nervous. hee. when we were leaving he asked me where i was going and i kinda wanted to get away before i got stupieder so i just said home. hee. and he teased me again for the film roll and winked all cute and patted me on the back. dude, he rocks me. heeeeee. its one of those things where i left the class room talking to myself and teasing myself but like, i had a huge ass grin on my face. hee. it made me giggly.
then in my broadcasting class this random girl asked me if i saw tori at the el rey and i said yes and then she proceeded to talk and talk and talk and TALK about all her grrrrrrrrl music that she likes, but that shes not a lesbian. it was like she was just opening this door to talk and she wouldnt shut up. it was WEIRD. Especially since no one ever talks to me! haaha
then ok it was hot. its really fucking hot. i mean REALLY fucking hot. Its this disgustingly THICK hot hair that you can't even breathe in. it was 111 here today i think. When i was driving around there was just, no breeze and no air coming into my car. all i could think of is i felt like i was drinking boiled water - like before you add the tea. it was so hot i had like headaches. i was totally sticking to my seats it was just. gross. and i got to the damn passport office at 2:03 and it closed at 2 and my birth certificate like MELTED in the car - and it was just so damn hot. then i went to vals and it was still hot. and we went up to hollywood and bought a bunch of photo supplies..but we both felt really sick so i just went home early and its just the heat. now my ears hurt like a bitch - yesterday i went to the doctor. i knew my ears were acting funky. i have a full blown ear and throat infection likei get every few months, but this one is bad. i didnt even feel symptoms until sunday. so like, it sucks. esp with all im doing this month. its just. hi blah? she told me my airplane ride is gonna be hell for my ears. GREAT. SO on top of all this
i get homeand ed has died. blah. my step mom is roaming around with a beer in her hand crying and saying 'could this day get any worse'. its so hard to watch. i dunno if ive mentioned ed. he got diagnosed with cancer and AIDS like 3 weeks ago - ok talk aboout dying quickly? its frucking sad. his lover, bobby, who is the one marcia is especially close to, is like not taking it well at ALL. he wont answer doors and phones and they expect him to like, start burning things. its so sad. they want him to come stay with us - not to be selfish but thats gonna be hard on me. just to have to see it.
is it weird to you that titanic is on video today? its weird to me. freak out.
blah blah blah blah BLAH sept.1 1998 oh. its a sister janet piano suite kinda day
Can you feel them? Jumbo Shrimp. Swimming around in Valeries Stomach.
