hey look at me i'm all gothed out! hahaha. so. look at my new layout. i got very sad and i didn't know what to write, since i never write anymore...and this just came to me. i'm not sure if i like it yet...but i suppose we'll see....its a change at least. i was trying to get this new layout onto freespeech.org but its confusing me ..oh well...now with the new layout im sleepy, so i shall just leave you will MMC posts that can give you an idea of whats been happening...well there isnt much. because i haven't done much. i saw star wars with valerie last night. it was actually quite good. much better than i expected. NOT what i expected. i quite quite enjoyed it. before we saw Star wars i bought Milennium and I am appaled at how...good it is. and how much i enjoy it. Today i also came to the realization that i LIKE no doubt. i just need to stop fighing it because it isnt 'cool' or its too cool or whatever. theyre good. i like them. stop pressuring me!
Subject: mini whiskers: on the rise.
Date: 5/25/99 1:05 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Lazy Divey
Message-id: <19990525040507.11731.00000104@ng-fe1.aol.com>

this is corny. so skip if your eyes are *usually* rolled at me :p

ok. hi. so i just watched the felicity from...two weeks ago? (thank you thank you THANK YOu april)

and um. its like. hi. i fall for this show more and more. and i dont know how to measure my feelings for it right now. how ironic it is that the 'ben' episode was saved for me to watch after the meeting?

i just found myself. enthralled and in love with him being in every scene. so much ... clinging to this character. and i'm confused. i dont know why it is? im wondering if it has to do with meeting him, or just the evolution of the character.

Because, last tuesday, the episode made me swoon a bit for him. i was very pro ben/felicity if you recall. but now im just....yeah. and he was never a favorite of mine.

but um, this show is catching up to the importance of dawsons creek.. dawson is actually...getting so dramatic and unrealistic...im almost...finding it to be on my nerves.

so now i sit here and listen to the felicity soundtrack and sigh. hahahahahahahahaa. am i cheesy or what?

you know whats freaky? when i got the felicity soundtrack i carried it with me every day. (well for like 4 days) and i was like 'im gonna carry this all the time incase i meet any of them' and the day of the cranberries show, i took it out and put my cranberries cds there instead.

kind of odd.

but um. yeah. so .... felicity

ok and that silverchair in the episode made me pee (now you've come. could i be readdddddd if i was seeeee through)

erin who wants it that way

am i your fire
your one desire
Yes, i know its too late
TELL ME WHY
you are my fire
the one desire
you are...

Lazy Divey: im gonna go watch felicity woo
Ck twinkle: your boyfriend your boyfriend :p


why did i wait so long to buy disentigration? it really is the best album ever...sigh. and this is hardcore. i meant to buy it for the past year. its super good. la la. umm..i know there was something i wanted to say...grr....ah well, im tired. oh yeah. ben lee announced a date here!! i dont have time for a job. too many concerts! woo ha. la la. what else ? i bought a polaroid camera tonight. i cant get it to work right. its all blurry and shit. hrm. i miss talking to lauryn. its been forever.

friday we bought torit ickets online. it was madness. they went on a half hour late cos the website was late launching, ticketmaster completley crashed..me nick val and david were on the phone yelling at each other...whoever got through first. so much for my little chart. we got fantastic east coast seats. my worst seat is row F in atlanta. And my best row 2 for the birthday show in nashville. go me. most are like 3rd and 4th row. West coast tickets, on the other hand..lets not talk about that ok? haha. theyre bad

lord knows i charged over a thousand dollars on them. those were so expensive! hmmm..ok i think thats all. its 4:30, im hittin the hay. i miss talking to cat. 1