Date: 4/20/99 1:25 AM Pacific Daylight Time
From: Lazy Divey
Message-id: <19990420042556.16581.00003374@ng-fd1.aol.com>
my sweetest friends.
i return from a gloomy evening to find everyone just as gloomy as myself, if not more. so i send happy hugs to those in need. i hope things change if thats what is needed and wanted. or improvments in..life. blah.
lack of energy.
i'm going through one of those stupid dramatic 'i wanna dissapear for a few days' things right now. we'll see if it lasts. so ill be lurking until i stop, if anyone wonders.
i hate that feeling of. i can't even describe it. pushing your face into the wind and feeling like it might just be ok for once. and then something leaves you, subtly and you sit back and hurt. insecurity. neediness. all the qualities that make me suck. hahaha, if that makes sense.
so, love you guys. tons n tons. and i miss you guys. i wanna see ya'all again and give you a big hug. it was ok when we were all together. ugh. i feel like i keep putting my foot in my mouth, hah.
Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to.
Somebody caused me strife
And it's not what I was seeking.
Didn't you see me, didn't you hear me?
Didn't you see me standing there.
Why did you turn out the lights?
Did you know that I was sleeping?
Say I prayer for me.
Help me to feel the strength I did.
My identity, Has it been taken?
Is my heart breakin'on me?
All my plans fell through my hands.
They fell through my hands on me.
All my dreams, It suddenly seems,
It suddenly seems empty...
erin
