so la la. LA show. henry fonda. never been there before. i brought my rufus AND ben cd. nicky and david. its friggin HOT. HELLO summer. we found the bus and sat on the curb cos we could watch the door and the driveway. for some reason, rufus was psychic. he showed up 15 minutes early, pretty early for a soundcheck. that was nice. in a green truck. i stood up, and smiled when he looked over so he knew we were there for him. i had EVERY intention of making nicky and david talk to them first but when i told them to get up and approach they both gave me this paniced 'no no' look....they woulda let him walk by. they're so funny. so as he walked around the car i think i said something like 'hi...do you have a second?' and he said sure. he was super adorable. i just love his talking voice. hee.

first i gave him the orange envelope and told him a friend couldnt make it, but that he told me to give him this. i told him that i was in san diego and how much i enjoyed it and he thanked me, and i jokingly asked if the marines ever showed up and he laughed and said no. i think he commented on it being really hot then. hmm..then, ok erin got pushy.



i asked him to sign my cd with my silver pen again, and when he did i said 'can you sign it to erin' cos i hate that he doesnt personalize. hahahahha. so he asked me how to spell it and he did, then i asked to take a photo with him...and he said sure, and i gave nicky the camera and i just attacked him when he put his arm around me..i kinda half hugged him..then i settled in for the pose. ok and here is the picture. he looks pissy, and i look retarted. i remember angling my head weird, but its like in this obnixious tilt, and im smiling a HUGE open mouthed teeth showing picture.



i dont think i like it. i look so cheery and obnixious. i havent shown teeth since last september! i think i was just so happy holding onto him i was like "YAY ME :D" or something. hahahha. so im not sure if i like the picture or not. then he signed nicky and davids stuff...and he personalized to them..which is only cos i made the intial request for that..hahahaha. go me. anyhow, they didnt say anything to him i think. after he finshed we thanked him and he said 'ok ill see you guys later tonight ok?' and he like...kinda grabbed my arm and squeezed it and smiled and walked in. it was really nice. i saw him walk to the bus a few times after that cos we sat in the sun TWO more hours starving sweaty and sunburned before giving up..waiting for ben lee. oh well.

we had dinner and walked around west hollywood a bit...and went back to the venue. the first person we saw in the parking lot was..oh god..from newsradio? dave foley? something like that. we went in and i bought a ben lee shirt cos theyre so damn cute. and..i saw a flyer saying ben had an instore tomorrow! so i begged at nicky..and some girls heard me and asked me if i wanted a ben lee poster, so i have three now. wasnt that sweet?

we went in and sat down in this tiny ass little theatre. we watched martha. pretty voice, bad lyrics. then david went over to his seat alone. oh yeah, our seats were 5th row right in front of the piano. just like in san diego for the MOST part. then ben lee came on. oh GOD

the audience first of all, was HORRIBLE. they were so fake and LA. Ben tried talking to us but he got no response, so he gave up. not at all like san diego. i was afraid nicky would hate it and not wanna sit through it but he said he ended up liking it more than rufus's set, which i did as well. it was just SO good and fantastic. and the set was different than in san diego so that was cool. the most memorable part for me tho, was once again sleepwalking. he asked the crew to turn off EVERYTHING on the stage. the lights the mics the amp..everything. he started playing and asked if we could hear.

and he walked to the edge of the stage and sang it. no mic, no nothing. it was so quiet. it reminded me of jen playing her guitar in her living room. it was so quiet. we were listening to HIM, not the speakers. he got so into it...it was so emotional, so charged...so...sad. half way through he sat down and played the rest of the song with his eyes closed..at the very end of the song it got more passionate and he his the wrong notes and his voice cracked and it looked like he was on the verge of tears ...or actually, it looked like he was crying..and ofcourse...i bursted into tears and had to like stifle sobs..because for some reason it hit ME really hard. and then he said thank you and walked off...the damn lights came up..people buzzed around and my head was burried in nicks shoulder crying asking if ben was ok.

kinda silly of me, but..i cant even explain how it made me feel. it was....so geniune and raw..and real..i dunno

then..it was rufus time. he was wearing an ugly striped shirt that reminded me of my grandpa. he wasnt as cute or charming, he didnt hit the notes very well...he barely talked..he didnt seem to enjoy it..he seemed nervous..i really didnt enjoy it. i just kept thinking of ben. even nick says it wasnt that great and that he enjoyed ben more. and would come with me to the instore. and...well rufus did the same set. talked a bit about being in the calendar and that jane needed to spruce the place up. the crowd was so obnixious. to curtious and fake. i wanted to smack them all. hah. so yeah. i was excited about the instore the next day tho! :]