i didn't even look up at this beautiful person. i saw saw a blurry figure walking towards me, and i knew. i uttered a very low 'oh my god' sound to dorothy, i couldn't even get it out. and i looked up at this woman just as she got near us. and she stopped. cocked her head and looked. and then looked again. "dorothy?!"
dorothy looks up.. "hey silly what are you doing here!" and they hug the most sincere hug i've ever seen in my life. it's tori. it is my tori. right there. it was unbelievable. it was so nice. i've begun to miss tori. i haven't ever missed her like this before. it was really ... calming to see her. after she hugged dor she looked at me and said something like "oh and you too!" and gave me the NICEST hug EVER. ive only hugged her once not in a baracade (leno), but this was SO nice and tight and warm. this sounds corny, and roll your eyes all you want. but i feel at peace.
while we talked, i felt like there was no one in the world, no one on that slab of concrete other than us. it was just the three of us, chatting like old friends. she seemed so happy to see us. SO happy. and she looked _ SO GOOD_. it was nice to see her looking so good. she was wearing those short black pants and a pinkish shirt. we cant remember if she had a hat on or not. but i did notice her prada purse with a evian bottle in it. hee. i can't even explain this. i felt like old friends. one thing i felt was that, ofcourse, since she knew dor she'd talk to her more directly. and it started that way...but she went like OUT of her way to talk to us equaly. she was looking back and forth at us. i remember looking into her eyes, like right bam in front of me and thinking, its tori. wow. and when she mentioned a dentist i remember looking at her teeth. and her earrings, because they were different. hee.
we talked about school, and dor told her how we were both doing well and she seemed so happy about that. we talked for 3 or 4 minutes, and then john walked up and she exclaimed "john look! friends!" and like held her arms out to us. and he smiled and said hi (i believe he was carrying all her shopping bags. hee. she has good taste). then we wound up the conversation and she gave us another really tight warm fuzzy dryer sheet hug. told us to send valerie hugs (dor thinks she associates val with me. it was random. we didnt even bring her up) and smiled and walked on her merry way.
dorothy and i rounded the corner, and screamed like we had never met tori before. it was just so unbelievable. if you would've asked me two days ago - think you'll be seeing tori in the next 6 months. i wouldn't have hesitated to say no. but there she was. looking more beautiful than ever.
dor and i were discussing how.. REAL she looked. i can't even explain it. she just looked like. tori. heh. i dunno. its undescribable how amazing it was. she saw us and just welcomed us with open arms. it was fucking amazing. it was so nice to have her recognize me. its the best feeling ever. i just remember staring at her trying to concentrate on what shes talking about, and then having her eyes look into mine and realizing that i was looking into her eyes. i dunno. and just the fact that there was no one there. i didnt have a row of fans behind me passing things upt o have signed. it was just tori. randomly out in her daily routine. and it was tori that stopped and said hi to us. it was just. fucking amazing.
its been an emotional day. it hasn't really sunk in yet. its just. quite. and peaceful. and fulfilling. this tour brought me really close to her. in an odd way. if that makes sense. i wasnt quite as attatched to the woman last tour. last tour it was the music. but shes just. amazing
ok im babbling. thank you for reading.
goodnight. everyone.
