Wa Ta Chee, this is me :


My words, my thoughts, my beliefs, and who I am
First I owe my parents more than I could ever repay...not until I got older of course did I know this, hahha , as a child, they were the dummies, ya know?? I am who I am because they instilled in me a strong sence of beliefs and morals I knew to be true for me to follow. Those have never failed me..nor have they, my parents... to you Mom and Dad, I thank you for these things..it made me a strong person in the ways I needed and the ways that helped me to be who I am today. I believe in God, one higher being that created all things, all living and all we do not know or understand completely. I believe he is our creator and that he gave us many paths in which to follow him. I believe non are wrong really, and none are totaly right.
I believe that what ever we do that keeps peace and love and honor to him,that brings us closer to his understanding...is good..
I believe that we use cermonies to help us become closer to he who created us, as a way of commitment and showing we want to recieve him and follow his path he sets before us. I do not believe one cermony is right over another , but what ever is right for u.
I believe that truth is within the hearts of all of us, we need our brothers and sisiters of this world to help hold our hands once in awhile to let us know that we are not alone in our seeking of truth. I believe that truth is found with the spirit of our creator, or how ever your understanding of God may be.
I believe in the basic nature of humanness, that we all are indeed connected together in the circle of all living things from the sky above to the depth of the ocean waters below and all in between.
I believe that everything is Sacred, EVERYTHING... I believe in the song of the winged friends, the music of the flowers, the dance of the winds, the balance of the impossible with the possible.
I believe in the spirit of all things connected to he who made me.
I believe in Love and the power of prayers. I believe in the silence of wisdom and the rush of sounds it makes when some special awakening has come unto me... I believe in peace and the difference it makes, I believe in the kindness of a thought even when no spoken word... I believe that to love is to bring peace, truth and honesty within.. I believe no one is without hope, nor laughter,happiness,and the sun. I believe we have many times we loose connections for whatever reasons, however, I believe we learn from this , and a lesson is not without meaning if we learn from it, and pass it to another..
I believe that no matter the medium, one can hear the voice of spirit, for when you do, it stirs a ring of truth within, and you just KNOW it is truth for you as well.. I believe the animals are strong spirits to teach us many things, the rocks speak and sing, the very sound of the sunrise and setting can move you each time...one does not need the eye to see in these wonderments..only spirit


ABOUT MY MULTIPLE SCLEROSIS
First let me say this is not how I feel everyone should view a disease or something that alters your liefstyle so completely u have to adjust everything to.....some call disabled...I call re abled,,
Now, I have made peace with my ability and it wasnt easy. I had a good career, good lifestyle, and a very active person in our Vol Fire and Rescue Department..Yes I helped pick up the accidents and went to fight fires. I saw many devestating things and much grief. BUT, never experienced it myself...
Not until one day, wich literaly was many years in the making, was i told I had Multiple Sclerosis.
This was not something I wanted to hear, so i denied it awhile. And when I couldnt any longer, I was angry. I hid this from all I could as well. Now while I only fooled myself, I still went threw the grief of loss that we all do when u loose something, no matter what it is. We all have to face grief of any kind and deal with it so it doesnt creep back to bite us later..
I discovered that for me, 80% of my sterotypical view of my disease held me back more than the disease itself..ONCE I figured that out, it freed me for the process of looking ahead for the things I can still do..
I still hold my R.N. license, altho Im no longer an employed one, one never knows what turns in life will come..I dont go to rescue calls any longer however..I can still teach first aid and CPR..I returned back to school to finish my Bach. Degree in Social Work and Family Guidance, but was hit broadside by a car and left me 100% visualy impaired, now dont get a twist in your nickers here, I AM NOT a beaten woman..no no no..Im learning braile to conqure again,,I am not nor was I then down and out...I am NOT blind, Im visualy impaired, Im not deaf or stupid or lazy, Im a person who has a different way to live, but LIVE all the same...we all have different ways to swim, mine is just different, however I swim...
The best advice I could give to one who faces the diversities of life is, wallow in self pitty awhile, if u must, then get up, and make a difference, because for every single breath u take it affects someone else, even to the end, someone can be touched in good way because u touched there soul..never think that all the ripples in the pond are from someone else, when in fact, they r created by u...make them the positive ones, they come back so many times over..be down , make a date with self to be down , then do it,,hehhehe u will find, u wont want to..but for a time u may need to go threw the feelings of worthless, but dont allow it to consume u..there is ALWAYS somrthing u can do,,look for it, seek it with a vengance,, be ruthless, never give up..dont allow the concept of being less than because u r changing the way u swim...when in fact, U R GROWING...do not judge self by the chair u r in , or the way u hold a fork, or the looks of the body..judge self by the spirit within...do look at what could of been,,look what will be. Dont morn for the past, for it keeps u there, seek the light of a new beginning,it is hard, it is not easy, and u must take each day a new and DO IT...SMILE even if it hurts,,look at your family, dont give them the worst of days, give them the best..because even if they dont understand where u r, or how u feel..ask self, would u really want them to? Really? think about this..Take what has been given u, and use it to be whole,,and see what happens my freinds,,U WILL BE SUPRISED...

updated 7-16-99..

Beause of the many responses to this page I have copied an response here that I felt I should add on, sorry for the , LONG winded reading, however, I hope you are not boared..
There r days and there are days and days of bad times...but in those bad times, even the worste of the worste....I have discovered ME...the real ME who is strong in faith that there is a higher power other than me and who has something for me to accomplish even when it feels like I cant or do not wanna anymore...There is with every breath a new beginnning,,each breath brings a new form of life into us,,believe it or not,,we are in constant life giving and recieveing moments here...to make them positive is the key to HOW we precieve ourselfs in what position at the time....it is the difference between dispair and self destruction....to remain positive in the face of what we precieve is totaly hopelessness is the very curst of who we r , deep down inside. Those who have passed b 4 us, to the greater being who gave us life, know the wonders of the universe we only can imagine. BUT !! alas, we too can know these things HERE while we r pondering the positive forces within us and arround us...does not the rose sing for a time and re new to another rose again? WE CAN TOO....by faith in he who is greater,,it not a religious thing, nor a church thing,,it a HUMAN THING..called spirit...the human spirit has fight , will, and sources untapped while in a state of dispair...when one human reaches to another in kindness and compassion, love, it travels MUCH farther than one would guess...Tkae for example the truck driver who stopped to aid a man in desperate need of a doctor...had he not,,,the man would of died,,never having that son who later grew to be a great Docotr who healed and saved many....my point to all I say is this...until our last breath we can be a positive force,,one that can still touch the spirit of our human brothers and sisters,,one who can hold a hand to one in need of it,,one who can recieve the gift of love while GIVING IT,,in that,,we heal our bodies as well...I believe we r spirits haveing a human experience...and to make it as good of one as we can dispite alll the obsticles tossed in our patths,,WE SHALL BE WHOLE...I am so sorry for your struggles in your path of life...but if they help you to become WHOLE,,is it not worth the effort? I too have seen a hard road,,and personaly, I wouldnt change it for anything...sure I become afraid when my body fails me, and I get angry with this thing in my way,,however,,I have Multiple Sclerosis and several other things,,IT DOESNT HAVE ME..I do not fight it,,I LIVE along side of it,,we have worked out an agreement that we will not war each other , rather live in the BEST harmony possible...and this...this has been the end of the restless times and the self power to be, I would rather BE , than not to be... :) see? Peace and balance dear friend and may the Great Spirit Bless you always !! Wa Ta Chee

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