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~Presence~

A broken life
a silent scream
a cage of butterflies
caught in a web of dreams.
A soundless sigh
the glint of fresh tears
the pain of betrayal
for so many years.
The loss of trust
the end is so near
feel it’s breath
close in your ear.
The past is catching up
it’s right on your heel
it’s time to face the music
the pain you hide is real.
One day he will be gone
and you can love again
it’s the beginning of forgiveness
but it will never be the same.

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~You were.....~

You were my whole world,
the apple of my eye
but now you are gone
and I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye.
One day you were with me
and everything was fine
because no one had a clue
you were running out of time.
I never knew your secret
until it was too late
and by then I couldn’t help you
escape your awful fate.
My world came crashing down
when they told me you had gone
and I ran screaming from the house
and collapsed onto the lawn.
Why did you go? I screamed
What happened that was so bad
that made you go and do it,
so sadly end the life you had.
I never will forget you
and the friendship that you gave,
because for someone with your problems
you were the bravest of the brave.
Peta Nobelius 10.5

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~How?~

How do you live
when all you live for is gone,
how do you love
when you heart is all torn?
How can you cry
when you’ve cried all your tears,
how can you fight
when your eyes show your fears?
How does your heart sing
when it’s filled with your pain,
how do you cope
when you know you’ll never trust him again?
How do you forget
all the hurt he’s given you,
how do you forgive
when it’s so hard to do?
How do you hate him
even when you know you must,
how do you tell him
he took away all you trust?
How can you look at him
After he ‘got you in the sack’
And how can you ever feel good again
when he took something you can’t get back?
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~Dance on without you.~

The day I realized
I truly loved you
was the day I realized
you could never love me too.
We already had something
that I don’t want to end
and by showing you I love you
I might lose you as my friend.
I see you everyday
and it makes me cry
because when I look at you
my heart aches, Why?
Why can’t you love me
the way I love you
and why does it turn out wrong
whatever I do?
I long to tell you
how I really feel
but the reality of that ever happening
is close to unreal.
I just want to be with you
and whenever you’re here
I want you to take me
and hold me so near.
I’m dying inside
can’t you see,
that all I want is to be with you
and for you to feel this way about me.

Peta Nobelius

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~Untitled.~

We live in a world
where our lives go nowhere,
where we could do anything
and still no one would care.
The time it takes you to read this
is now in the past
the minutes of your life
slip away too fast.
A lifetime flashes by
but we don’t even know it’s gone
and would anyone even care,
if we’d never been born?
Do we know what we did
yesterday, last year,
and when our time’s up
will anyone shed a tear?
No one really realizes
our lives are so small
that the time it takes to live it
may as well not be at all.
The world will still go around
when you and I have been long forgot,
and if you think about it,
you’ll have achieved exactly what?
Our lives will end unknown
and no one will remember who we were
our names will be forgotten
and our faces less then a blur.

Peta Nobelius

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