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Whisper the Stars.......
It was over.
Darkness gathered quickly, silently, completely.
The shrouded masses gathered outside the Key Arena Crest.
For Ike it was as if he had reached the epilogue of a tragedy story.
Somewhere in the suburbs Seattle, in a room only lit by candlelight, sobs filled the air and pain filled the heart of a lonely girl.
Destiny.
‘But Ike! You can’t hate me for something I didn’t do! What about us? Can’t we still be friends? Even if not, well, you know. I know Taylor meant more to you than I ever can but please, couldn’t you at least stay friends with me? I know I can never bring Taylor back, nothing can but....you mean so much to me Ike, and after losing you once before, I don’t think I can stand to lose you again.’ Destiny broke down.
‘Momma? Is it still dark where Taylor is?’
The light was swallowed up and rain began to fall.
Slight drizzle at first, and then the heavens opened up to the pain.
God was up there somewhere, looking down.
Probably sending the rain to help wash the sorrow from the heavens.
For they knew.
The heavens knew the darkness had won.
The news had escaped quickly.
The world mourned the loss of one of it’s most promising youngsters.
The Hanson’s mourned the loss of their sunshine, their laughter, their happiness.
The last page and then the book was closed.
And so the book of Taylor was closed.
The pages were far too few and smeared with tears.
Ike knew he would do anything to go back and re-write the last pages of this book but he knew he couldn’t.
It was like his science-fiction novel.
Unfinished yet closed.
But unlike his novel, this story would never be forgotten.
It would never fade, never dull.
It would live on in Ike’s heart as brightly as the summer sun, as brightly as the stars that shone down on him from where his brother was now.
From where he knew Tay was looking down on him.
Mourning the loss of a friend.
A new friend indeed, but the most amazing person she had ever known.
And known too short.
On the pages of an old and worn dream-book, in ink the color of midnight, a poem took shape.
The heartfelt, lonely words were pouring down onto the page as the rain continued to fall.
Someone seemed to be forgotten now.
Someone seemed to fade into the shadows that indeed she had brought.
It had all happened too quickly that no one had had time to think.
And now they had only time to remember.
The pain of losing Taylor had broken her, and the extra pain of knowing it was her fault had almost killed her.
But now she needed Ike the most, and he wasn’t there.
‘And we need each other right now. Taylor was my best friend too and I need someone to help me right now. Besides,’ Her eyes lowered.
‘It’s as much your fault. How can your family stand to be around you?’
Ike looked into her eyes and tried to find something, anything, that would allow him to take her back into his life, but as hard as he searched, it was not there.
She was a stranger to him now, she was gone.
It was almost as if she had never been.
‘You don’t seem to realize the pain you and I have put everyone through. You don’t seem to be able to see the irreversible damage that has been reeked on this family and how when I look at you now all I see is my brother lying dead in the gutter. It’s never going to be the same, ever and...’ he paused and heaved a sigh of regret. ‘Destiny, I loved you, for many years, but I loved Taylor so much more and for longer. It really hurts me to have to tell you that I just can not find anything for you, even deep down inside. Maybe it’s because you have taken something from me, I don’t know, it’s all an enigma at the moment. But even though I know you didn’t actually do anything, and that it was as much my fault, I don’t think I can ever look at you in the same way again. I guess it’s the same how I, nor any of the other people that care anything for Taylor, can never look at me in the same way again. I just don’t feel anything for you anymore. At all.’
Ike watched the tears streak down Destiny’s face and knew that she was in unbearable pain, but, for the first time in as long as he could remember, he did not want to help her ease her pain.
He couldn’t even find it in him to brush the tears from her face.
He just couldn’t find anything, anything at all.
‘I can’t take you back into my life knowing that every time I looked at you I would see Taylor. It’s hard enough to know that every time I look in the mirror he’s all I’ll see. I don’t need the extra pain.’
‘Can you ever forgive me?’ she whispered, almost inaudibly.
‘Maybe. Maybe someday I can find it in my heart to forgive you. And myself. But like you said, Taylor meant too much to me, but for now.....he’s still gone.’
And he closed the door.
Diana looked down into her daughter’s crystalline blue eyes and saw was saddened to see not her Jessica but Taylor staring back at her.
Her son.
Was gone.
And part of Diana wished she could have gone with him.
‘No sweetie. It’s not dark where Tay has gone. It’s beautiful and light and safe.’
‘It was dark before.’
Diana looked into Jessica’s eyes, Taylor’s eyes, puzzled.
Something told her not to dismiss what her daughter was saying as childish banter.
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