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Chapter 3
It was two in the morning and Kat still hadn't seen a wink of sleep. She sat up in bed, the folded piece of paper now lay spread open in front of her, the paper that Chris had given her earlier that afternoon. She had kept her promise and did not open it until she was alone in her room. After their little lunch, they had goofed off a bit until the guys dropped them off back at the apartment before heading to the airport to continue their tour. And so, after a quick dinner, Kat had gone into her room, giving the excuse that she was tired and wanted to get some studying done before turning in. Thankfully, Dee hadn't questioned and let her go. Quickly, Kat had changed into her pajamas and climbed into bed without even giving a glance toward her books lying on the desk nearby. Her curiosity had gotten the better of her and she quickly reached into her purse and dug around for that paper. And here she was, a few hours later, as confused and troubled as she had been when she first read it. She picked it up again, sighing and bringing it close to reread it.
Dearest Kat,
Do you already know what I'm going to say? I doubt it. Why? Because something like this is so unexpected, even for me. Kat, you've been on my mind constantly these past few months. Don't laugh, please. What I have to say comes from deep in my heart and I can only hope that somewhere deep inside you, you feel the same way. What I have to say is that I really like you, not just as a person or a friend, but as something more. The only reason why I haven't told you in person is because of how chicken I am. I wish I could just come out and say how much I love seeing you smile, hearing you laugh. I enjoy being with you. Every time we're near, I feel whole. And every time distance separates us, I feel incomplete. A part of me is always missing during those times and I get so lonely. I look toward the times when we can be together and cry when those instances go by so fast.
So what now? I don't know. I only know that I had to get this out. But you… You have a choice here. Tomorrow, someone will come by with a gift from me. If you accept, I will continue trying to win your heart in hopes that we will be together in the future. If you don't… I will understand. There are just some things that aren't meant to be. I'm sorry if I put pressure on you; I didn't mean to. Thank you for your time and hopefully, I'll hear from you soon.
With love,
Your Secret Admirer
Wearily, Kat reached over and finally clicked the lamp light off after laying the letter carefully on the nightstand. She settled herself under the covers, willing sleep to find her and rest her mind.
Who in the world is this secret admirer?! Is it someone I even know? Apparently so, but it doesn't sound like anyone I know of. Let's see, there's the group. They still keep in touch with Chris. They could have given him the note to give to me. Who would? There's Dan… But I doubt it. He's not looking for anyone right now since he's focused on work. Then there's Anthony, but he's happily married to Julia. Okay. So that leaves that part of the group out. The guys of Chris's band? Justin's too young. Joey's too happy looking around to be serious just yet. Lance is supposedly seeing someone so he's out. JC is nice but he seems to be focused with what he's doing to really be searching for anyone right now. There are the guys at school, but they don't know Chris. So now what? Chris? Yeah right, think again Kat. He's your best friend! He can't possibly be the one. So that leaves…
Kat groaned, frustrated at herself. It had left no one at all who could even remotely be a candidate for who this secret admirer was. And that wasn't the only worry plaguing her mind. There was also the choice of whether or not to accept the gift that would be coming that day. To accept would be to set herself up for an unknown fate. To refuse, she'd be safe… But always wondering how things could have turned out. No, I can't live with a regret. At least by choosing the gift there's a chance the guy will be someone nice…